James, George and Etta were over yesterday at my parent's house [where I am currently living] for lunch. I had long holds/cuddles with Etta and it got me thinking about how much I want what they have but also that I'm scared because I know nothing about babies. They keep mentioning all these little things about baby stuff that I have never heard of before and on our walk, mum said I would find out when it was necessary. I hope so. I can't wait to have that life. I know I don't want to settle down in Tassie though. I want to live in the UK. I reckon I'll come back here for a while but it's not my idea place to settle down. The only thing keeping me here is friends and family. I have plans for Sydney and the UK before and after that [after for a longer time] but I'll miss Etta growing up and them having a second child. "Drat that Mrs. Kim" [Gilmore Girls].

Yorick was in my dream last night. My sister and I were sitting in a classroom I used to be in for a class in high school, one of the terrapins off the English building that I had German in, and Yorick was there behind us somewhere trying to suss out what we were doing in the class. I haven't seen him in weeks and the only contact we've had was about tax numbers. He hasn't contacted me and I haven't contacted him. I'm happy with the way things are and I don't care that we're not seeing each other. The only reason I think it's weird that we're not together is because for the last 4 years I was sure we were meant to go the distance. I'm happy not hanging out with him but I want gossip and Sophie is away so she can't find it out for me and pass it on. I don't really want to hang with him but then I like to so I know what he's up to. That's not a good reason to ask him to hang. We said we might go for hot chips in Lenah Valley for the next hang session. I might ask him to do that when I need him to fix my computer as he said he would. I want him to be jealous of all my plans, Sydney, UK and the Federal Group. I like having gossip from Sophie. I'm seeing Holly this afternoon so maybe she has some gossip for me.

I told Alison about the possibility of Coles Bay and she was excited for me. I thought she'd be mad because I'll be leaving thebeach when they need good workers. She has hired 4 new people but I'm not sure they're very experienced. I might not even get the job but I'm hoping I do. I need the change of scenery and the adventure and the full-time work. I might get the news just after my graduation on the 21st of August. If I don't get it I'll have to find full-time work elsewhere. I'm excited about seeing Holly today. I've missed her and I have so much to tell her. She's definitely like a big sister. When I contacted her last week about meeting up sometime [she said today] she said she wondered where I had gotten to as I said I was sick. She didn't write to me though. Sad.

Dad and I are going to go for a walk soon. I got my new runners from Big W for $14 and the are fine, not sore at all after my walk with mum yesterday. I want to get back into exercise mode. I want to lose weight and get fit. Going to Coles Bay would be great as I could run on the beach each day. That would be bliss.