Weekend re-cap and my first day

Wow. I haven't written since Friday. A lot and not a lot has happened since then. I'll start with Friday night.

Friday night was the houses combined house-warming and for Kirsten's birthday as well as a celebration of the other housemates birthdays which were a month or two ago. Lots of people came and I had a bit of fun, but most of the time I just wanted to leave but I couldn't. I went out and socialised though and had some nice enough chats. I like Kirsten's friend Tina a lot. She's lovely. Towards the end I had a really nice drink with The Germans, as Kirsten calls them, Kat and Lena. Kat is with Stefan and Lena is their friend visiting. They made an awesome drink with muddled lime, 1 shot of vodka, 1 shot of lime cordial, and lots of crushed ice. I had two of those and didn't leave enough time to get sober before I went bed. I wasn't drunk, but feeling buzzed. I was hungover in the morning. Not fun. It sucked because I got into bed at probably 2 or 3 or something but couldn't sleep because I was worried someone would come into Kirsten's room with me in there and harass me. I put my heavy suitcase in front of the door but I was still a bit paranoid and completely aware of what was going on despite trying to nap. It didn't. So Saturday I was very tired.

On Saturday we cleaned the house. I was meant to go to a trial at Kamel but was feeling sick, and had been a bit sick, so I called up and canceled. I haven't heard anything from them since then. Hmm. I don't mind though because it will be better to get a job in the suburb I end up living in. It's easier that way. If I ever find a place to live that is. I want to live alone if possible. After the cleaning, Kirsten and I went to The Great Northern nearby for some chips and a coke/diet coke. The others joined us [Sandi, the other housemate, and her new bf Nick, Stefan and Lena] then Tom [Kirsten's bf] and two of his friends came along. We didn't stay too long. Home after that and a pretty early night. Kirsten stayed over at Tom's for the night so I got the comfy bed. I've been staying on the floor on lots of blankets and a thin camping blow up mattress, which is fine, but the bed is comfier. I have it again tonight too.

Sunday I slept in and it was bad because I found it hard to sleep last night. Once I got up and had some breakfast I went into the City. I wanted to find a backpack for Uni, and I did. I went to this Traveler and Souvenir shop and got a simple backpack for $20. Great! It does the trick. I also went to the National Gallery of Victoria. I didn't see all of it as it was an extremely hot day so I will go back another time and see the rest. I wanted to go to the Botanical Gardens but once again the heat zapped me of any energy so I went to the Victoria Gardens just across the road from the NGV. Then I went back to Kisten's. Later that night she went for a run with a friend and I came along and rode her old bike. It was nice and refreshing as the weather was still nice but the wind in my face as I rode was beautiful. I loved it. We went around this pretty big circuit twice not far from the house. Then I tried to get to sleep and failed.

Today I had my first day of Uni! I thought I was going to be late but the tram driver was awesome. They kept dinging the bell to make cars get out of the way. I still don't understand why on earth they should be allowed to drive over the tram tracks the same way the tram goes. It's ridiculous! It's totally insane and I think it should be dis-aloud. Anyway, I got to the classroom and the lecture hadn't started yet but almost everyone was there. I sat in the back. The lecturer introduced herself and we all did the same. The other students have amazing backgrounds and at least two did a Bachelor of Archaeology at LaTrobe. I'm so jealous. Maybe there's a postgraduate course in archaeology I can do. I'd love that. Then we got into the lecture. Well we read through the unit outline then got into the lecture. We have 3 assignments, one of which I have done part of a draft for tonight, and I'm worried about the last two. The first one should be easy enough to knock off, but it's the others I'll struggle with I believe. I'll get some help. This unit isn't all in the classroom though, which is exciting. We went to the Deakin Art Gallery in the afternoon and will be doing similar excursions on almost each other day we're there. We have 6 days and on 5 of them we'll be out in the field. Pretty exciting. We had a look in the small Deakin gallery then went outside and saw the many sculptures around the campus. Yet another hot day so I struggled. I went on the computers for a bit after the 'lecture' ended then went home. Got off the tram and caught the train but I'm not sure it was much of a time-saver, although the tram was going extremely slow. Kirsten made a too-spicy-for-me curry and I did some homework!

Tomorrow should be good. I need to get up and leave earlier to be able to get myself something to eat for lunch. There wasn't much available at Uni and I'll have to go to the cafe early to secure an apple and cinnamon muffin. Today I got a blueberry one and it was nice but not the same. I want to buy a salad or something so I'll have to go in a lot earlier than I did today. That can be done. I didn't like the stress. I can't remember where we're going tomorrow afternoon but it should be good. Then I'll have Thai Culinary for dinner. Mmm.

There are a few more houses I need to have a look at online. There is a bit of a crappy looking one in Richmond. The ad says it's good for older people or something but I may as well take a look. You can grab the keys from the real estate and go to town. There is one in Elwood that looks nice but Kirsten says that's ages away. I remember going to St Kilda with Amy in 2005 and loved the area but I seem to recall that Elwood wasn't that far away from there and the tram ride didn't seem to take all that long. I guess we'll see. Sarah knows a guy [Nick Cupit] who is moving to Melbourne soon and looking for someone to live with. He went to our high school and apparently knows me as I have served him at thebeach, not that I remember, but Sarah and I talked on the phone about it and us living together. I'd rather my own place, at least I think so, but I might get lonely. Then again I might feel resentment living with others, regretful. There's no need to be scared. I'll be busy enough and can go and see my friends when I feel sad. I don't want to impose on Kirsten and her flatmates for too much longer. It's been a week already! Crazy. Hopefully I get the Hawthorn house for $150 a week in Mary St but I've started looking at what's closer to $200 but still under. The Elwood one is $165 I think. Hmm. I'll see what happens.

What I want

My own house

I want to get into great habits and decorate my space just how I want it. I don't want to be forced to make small-talk with people or share things. I want it to be all mine.

To study to be a curator

I was hoping to do this at the University of Sydney but that might not happen. Pretty much every other University requires students to have an honours degree, something which I doubt I'll ever be good enough to get, but with a lot of help it might be attainable. Then I'd have to stay in Hobart for another year, which is something I don't want to do.

Move away from Hobart

I don't want to stay here anymore. I've been planning to get out along with going to the University of Sydney for months now and staying here would be such a step backwards. I don't really like Melbourne so that was the choice behind that. Everyone goes to Melbourne. I want to do my own thing. However, if I went to Melbourne I could hang with Holly and Amy and Carly and Kirsten. I might be unhappy there though, despite being around friends. I might regret the choice. Going to Sydney, however, would feel like my own adventure, my choice. I don't know many people there but it doesn't feel like a mistake, unlike moving to Melbourne would.

Live and work in the UK for at least a year

I want to do this but I want to get underway with studying towards a career in museums. It was probably stupid to think I'd ever get into the University of Sydney but I've put everything into it regarding planning. Maybe it'll have to be Melbourne. At least then I wouldn't be as lonely. I don't like it there though... Maybe I should just go to Sydney instead anyway. I can work full-time and study at Deakin over the internet. That was the backup plan anyway. Or I could just fly away to the UK and get into a ground-level museum position. If that'd work. I'd also love to go on some archaeological digs.

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I don't know what to do here. Maybe go to Sydney anyway, find a house, get a full-time job, study at Deakin via distance. The Melbourne course is crap though. I don't think it's as good as the Sydney one. Or I could live in Melbourne surrounded by friends. I don't know if I've been rejected by Sydney! I will call them up tomorrow and find out when they'd tell you if you weren't getting in. Then I can make some plans. Crappidy oh. Maybe I should just go to Sydney anyway. It'll be my fresh start and I'll make it a fantastic experience. I just wanted to go to the Uni there because it's beautiful. I will still study, just online. It might work better. I'll call and see what they say about rejections and go from there.

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Travel

I want to do lots of travelling. I want to go to Asia first, to Thailand, Vietnam, Cambodia, Laos, Nepal, Tibet, China, Japan. That's a lot of places and I probably wouldn't get to all of them. There are definitely some I've left out but I think this will have to wait, especially if I'm moving. I want to aim for something like this for the end of the year. A few months would be great. Hopefully I meet my man and we go together. I think it has to be Sydney. For now I'm tired so I think that's me for tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will bring better news.