Friday, 15 October 2010

Thai for dinner!

I went to Andi's this afternoon for hot milo and chats. We talked a lot about relationships and friends and it made some things clearer to me about my relationship with Yorick. I hope I find the right guy for me. I'll probably have a better chance when I'm in Sydney [I'd better get there], as Andi said. It would also be better that I meet someone on my new path instead of dragging them into it. I think that sounds about right. My hair cut reflects myself 5 years ago but now I am more eager to make sure I find a partner. I was a lot younger then, and yes I wanted a relationship but 5 years on I really want one as I don't want to spend my whole life alone. I believe it will happen but I want that assurance. I will just have to wait.

Tonight is dinner at Suwan with Holly, Helen and Munchie. I'm really looking forward to it. I wish the weather was better so I could wear my new dress but as it is if I wear it it'll just look like I'm wearing a skirt as I'm sure to rug up as it's freezing outside. I could just wear my little blue jacket over the top but I will be cold. I'll go try it on and see.

I like house sitting but I feel a bit lonely as this isn't my life. I know once [if] I get to Sydney that I will, at times, feel lonely in my new life but it'll be mine. It will be a huge accomplishment and something to praise myself for. I like that I'm having this time to myself and in some little way seeing what it would be like to live alone but in other ways I am a bit lonely and wish I were in a relationship. I have much more work to do before I'm ready to be in another relationship though. And another thing, in Sydney I will have a lot more study to do so I will occupy my time better. Here I have been watching lots of the Tudors and have just finished the 2nd season so I'm a little bored. Luckily I'm about to head out to dinner and once I get back I can put on a movie or something to pass the time before bed. I will go and get ready.

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