Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Happiness is a mood not a destination

A great One Tree Hill season 8 episode 8 conversation between Brooke and Julian.

Julian
So, I've been thinking about this whole 'being happy' thing, especially since I've been doing this documentary and I feel like people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination

Brooke
Like how do you mean?

We're always thinking some day we'll be happy. We'll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that will fix everything but happiness is a mood and its a condition, not a destination. It's like being tired or hungry, it's not permanent. It comes and goes and that's okay and I feel like if people though of it that way they'd find happiness a lot more often.

Brooke
So you think it's okay to be a little miserable every now and then? Even when you have great things in your life?

Julian
Is it okay to be a little hungry every now and then?

Brooke
Happiness is a mood, not a destination. I like that.

I feel like next year I will get the happiness I'm seeking through University and a new city and my own home and a family. I am treating happiness as a destination and I shouldn't be. I can't help it and I don't know how to change it. Maybe by taking the time to think about what I love in my life and doing little things that make me happy.

In season 8 of One Tree Hill, Julian is making a documentary about what comes next, what you do next when things don't go as planned. Since breaking up with Yorick a lot in my life has changed. Unfortunately at the moment I'm treading water until my plans get made, as in which Uni I'll be going to, and I hate that I'm in this place waiting for things to begin. I hate the way I feel. I feel childlike. I feel lazy because I am lazy. I want to be there now, in my new routine, but first I have to earn money and get accepted to Sydney if it's going to be Sydney before I can even move there. Maybe if I get accepted I'll move earlier than planned. I know I need a lot of money behind me before I go in case I don't get a job first or struggle finding the right place to live but I just want to be there and start this next phase of my life. I hate this period right now, how much I'm depending on next year working out. It's hard because I'm over this year. I want to be rid of it once and for all. I want 2011 because this year is nothing like what I pictured and it's hard living at home. I have definitely overstayed how long I though I would be here but I have to wait until I hear back from Sydney before I make plans and set dates. Once I'm there though everything will be completely different and I will forget what it was like for myself now, well almost. I guess I have to see the good in my life now, and take what happiness I can get because it's not a destination.

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