Guilt for another reason

I have to tell my boss Alison that I have applied for the Freycinet/Cradle Mountain job and that I have put her down as a referee. Mum says I don't owe her any kind of explanation but I feel I should. I feel like I'm leaving her in the lurch but then again as mum pointed out I'm not working there much and the job I applied for is full time work in a great location. I want to say to Alison that I need this kind of adventure and I want to explain because that's just who I am so I think I will. I have drafted a message and tried to soften the blow by saying it would only be for a few months but I shouldn't lie. If I got the job and I liked it I wouldn't go back to thebeach as there would be no time and I'd only come back for social visits. She has some great workers there, even though a lot have left recently and more are planning to, and more coming in this week. They'll survive. I just feel bad, especially since Sara said she and Alison had been talking about how functions should have the same staff and that I could be one of those staff. It's just to keep things consistent but it is kind of like more power or that I'm slightly moving up in the hierarchy despite having worked there for almost 2 years. I feel like I owe her an explanation. I feel guilty. I don't want to feel guilty.

In other news, I sent my resume and cover letter to a friend of the family to give to his contact at the Tasmanian Museum and Art Gallery [TMAG] to see about me being shown around the museum to find out what being a curator means. I might volunteer there for a week to get to know the ins and outs of the job. Another friend of the family also has a contact at the museum across the road, one we haven't been to, and I might be able to do a similar thing there. It would be a great way to start on this career path and to make sure it's what I want to do for my career. I think it's just the right combination of archaeology, anthropology and history in the form of a focused, categorical, and organised job which will be just perfect for me. I am so excited about Sydney.

I am going to head off now and buy some running shoes and maybe something to wear to the gym and while I'm out walking. Maybe some shorts and knee length leggings to wear underneath. I don't want to show my figure as I don't like it very much and I want to feel comfortable enough to workout in front of people. Then tomorrow I can go for a walk in my new gear before heading out to hang with Andi and visit James and George and Etta. I did a bit of skipping today, for 3 minutes at the most, and I'm not very springy. I wobble too much and feel very heavy. I need to work on that. Tomorrow I'll kick myself into gear. Another thing I love about the possibility of this job is that I'll be in a great routine, I can go running on the beach each morning before work, and focus on myself. I hope I get it.