Last day in Kingston Beach

Last day at James and George's today. I need to take Jez for a long walk/run to the dog beach to tire her out. Last night she found a wounded bird outside and I think it's still there pretending to be stone. It's obviously too hurt to move so I don't know what to do about it. I've kept Jez away from the bird so for now it can rest.

After this I'll have a shower then rug up and take Jez out. The weather is horrible but it needs to be done. I'll wear a beanie and take an umbrella. She might have no one to play with! She's pooped twice on our walks and I didn't realise I had to pick them up. When I take Katie for a walk at home she poops in the bushes or on the side of the road. It doesn't matter there as it's in the middle of no where but here I think you're meant to clean up after your dog. Oops. I'm a bad dog sitter.

Then after the walk, depending on the time, I'll head to work and check the roster so I can see if I can swap shifts with someone so I can go to the Mini Golf and BBQ night with Relish. Then I'll head to town to go shopping with Sarah.

Oh, I called up the Work and Training agency and they only do yearly traineeships and placements but the lady will send me out a registration form to fill out and send back with my resume to be considered at somewhere more appropriate. Hopefully I can get some Monday to Friday work in either retail or on the computers and possibly even stop working at thebeach for a while so I can have some weekends off. That would be great. I'd love to have free weekends. That's one of my aims for the future.

I hate this week already. That's not a good sign. Sometimes I really do with I didn't work at thebeach anymore but for now I need it, otherwise I wouldn't be able to survive as I like to, which sounds horrible. Hopefully I can find other work soon. I can't wait for Sydney, a fresh start. I really can't.

Just took Jez for a walk. It rained a bit so I'll have to fix my hair before going out. I did the washing up and have gotten my things out of the bathroom. I forgot to put the garbage out last night. Oops. And I should get everything packed and ready in case I have to go to work. I hope I don't, as then I can have a leisurely afternoon shopping with Sarah, then go to Big W on the way back here to get them some toilet paper and maybe some chocolate then spend the evening here before going out to pick them up from the airport. I'll work if I get asked to though as I won't have much choice. I will head to work soon to figure out the roster for tomorrow then head to town. Lunch is on the way! It's been noodles everyday. Eggs for breakfast and different things for dinner. It has gone so quickly and yet so slowly. It seems like ages ago that I was planning to have Cool Thai with Emma and drinks at Onba but it was only 3 days ago. Seems like longer to me. I've quite liked staying here though. I like being closer to town and feeling like I'm doing more with my time. I'm not sure that's true but it feels like it which is important.

Right. Off to work then to town! Then at 3 I will know this evenings movements. I do really hate the on call system...

Deflated

I saw Yorick's car twice today. I don't like it. In fact I hate it. I saw on his Facebook profile that he had changed his picture to a picture of him and his "little sister" [18 year old girl friend. He's 24] and it was completely ugly. I hate it. And I hate them. I don't remember if he ever had a picture of the two of us as his Facebook picture. Ahh I need to stop thinking of him.

Sometimes I wish I were in a relationship. I don't think I'm ready yet though and want to wait until I'm in Sydney. Sometimes I get scared that I'm alone as I don't want to go through life alone, as in without a partner to keep me company, but I know this is the time to be single. I have much to do for myself, in ways of improving myself, and it has to be now. I miss the company though...

I like house sitting. I like having that independence but would prefer to be in my own home than another's. I really hope that all goes well with Sydney. If, when I get there, I begin living by myself and feel I need the company, I can advertise and get someone else in with me. Hopefully I just meet someone and they can come and visit me all the time. Who knows what will happen.

I went for a jog along the beach this morning. I was very hot by the end of it. The sun was rather warm. I felt self-conscious but I need to lose 5 kilos. I eat too much. It's so hard to lose weight! A fast walk will do. Maybe I can walk to Blackman's Bay tomorrow as the hill from this beach to that beach is rather steep both ways. I'll try different routes at any rate. I wish I were thin.

I guess I am a bit sad at the moment. I miss having a boyfriend and I miss having the feeling that I have a great life. I can't wait to meet someone new. Then my life will be happy again and hopefully there will be a wedding not too long after. I want to go on holidays with my future husband and set up a house possibly in New Zealand or the UK. I also want to get more study done for Museum Studies but at the moment I'm a bit deflated in general. I need more work for a start. Tomorrow I'll call about what Sophie recommended. Hopefully something else will turn up. I asked Alison about more shifts at thebeach and she said she'll do what she can. Nights would be best but I'll do days even though they kill my soul.

I can't wait for next year. Somehow it will be better than this year.

I reminded myself the other day at work that it has been 5 months since Yorick and I broke up. So much and so little has happened since then. I'm still getting used to being alone and it has been hard but I do know more about myself and about what I want. Hopefully I get it.

House sitting

So I have begun my extended weekend of house sitting for James and George. I went out with them to the airport and drove their car back and will possibly pick them up again on Monday but then again I might be working. I think I will quite enjoy staying here. I have my covered button earrings to keep me occupied, as well as season 2 of the Tudors. And the internet! The internet and computer at Margate hasn't been working so well so it's a relief to come here and be able to catch up with my games on Facebook [sad I know] and have speedy internet. I'm so relieved.

I'm looking forward to going for jogs along Kingston Beach while I'm staying here. I might go for one this afternoon then take Jezabelle for a walk either to the dog beach at the other end of Kingston Beach or just around the streets. I hope I notice the difference when I go back to Margate. At the moment I weigh 64 but then again I just had some lunch. Hopefully I will have lost a few kilos come Monday.

I went into town today after going out to to the airport with J+G+E. I went to the Maritime Museum to drop off the papers and have to drop in some more possibly tomorrow, then I went to Ruby's Room and bought another $25 suitcase for my covered button supplies. I think I will get a fair bit done while I'm here as, once again, I have a lot of free time ahead of me with no second job. I need to get another job though. I hope I hear from Cotton On. I might have to try the place Sophie suggested also, just in case.

I don't have much money again. It's sad. I gave mum $100, the final payment of what I owed her, spent a bit on the Ruby's Room box and hair product and now it's all gone. I have 3 fun nights ahead too so I might have to dip into my Oomph earnings and write a note on the envelope with the money in it about how much I owe. I need more work. I don't really want to work more at thebeach but I shall have to until I find more work elsewhere. I'll give that place Sophie suggested a call.