That boy

Glenn is just amazing. We were talking on the phone last night after I finished work but it was hard to hear him at times because of the reception in South Hobart, so we went onto Google+ and did a Hangout. It was so lovely to see him. It's always better than talking on the phone but of course it's not always possible. We had the best talk. At one stage I said that we've pretty much decided that I'm to move home, which is something I'm happy to do, not only for us but for other reasons such as family, friends, and my career. I said that's all good as long as he doesn't change his mind. To that he said he'll wait for me! That's the most romantic thing ever. I love that. We talked a little about how things will change, but it'll be for the best. We've only spent 9 days together in the last 1.5 months so we're looking forward to spending a lot more time together. He said he'll date the shit out of me. He he he. He said he likes that he's not feeling any pressure from me and it's the same for me from him. We're relaxed. I can't wait until next weekend when he's here for 5 days from noon on the Thursday to around the same time on the Wednesday. We already have some things planned but I'm stressing a little about what shifts I'll have at Veludo. I haven't been getting many lately, and next weekend that suits me more than ever, although I do need the money, more stress right there. Earlier yesterday things were making me feel completely stressed and all I wanted to do was to be with Glenn, but it's not possible right now. I seriously can't wait until he's here. Then he's away until the 1st of October factoring in time zones for him coming back from Europe. We'll have another 5 days together then too. Then I'll be down in Hobart from the 24th of October to the 3rd of November! 10-11 days. I can't wait! God I miss him. I miss being able to hug him and kiss him and do the soft scratchy back massage thing with him. I miss getting to know him more, although we're doing a pretty good job now. We talked everyday, if only via text, but we talk every day or two and do maybe one Google+ Hangout a week. We're doing well. I love that he's going to wait for me. He just wants me to put myself first. I don't exactly want to move back to the city of Hobart as I'd much rather be in Melbourne itself, but I'm doing this for us. As long as I can get a job I'll be set. Then we will find out how far we will go. I want my own house, to do up just how I like it. I want masons jars for drinking out of. I want to frame and have my posters up. I want the awesome wooden closet I got from Mt Nelson and place for my gym equipment. I want him to come over all the time and for me to go to his place. I want him to date the shit out of me! I can't wait. We send each other pictures of ourselves, by the way. I have some lovely ones from him. He actually owes me some. Not long now until he's here. On the Thursday we'll check into the George Powlett Motel in East Melbourne then as long as I'm not working, or if god forbid I am I can get rid of it, then we'll go to Bimbos for dinner and see Tiger Funk again, the band that was on the time he, Nicole and I went. We're also going to have lots of warm cider, and have either a double or triple date with his friends and Amy and Gav, if they're all free and up for it, we're going to stay in bed for a whole day, we're going to go see the Tutankahmun exhibition at the Melbourne Museum, we'll get me some poi and practice in the park, go to the Fitzroy Gardens, go to Illy, see the Illusionist at the Nova Cinemas, go to ACMI, and some anime shops. We have lots to do. I believe I'll be working at some stage over the weekend. I'm still praying I didn't get many shifts. I'll have Uni on the Friday. I should have the Monday to Wednesday completely free. It's going to be so amazing having him here. We think the Motel might be pretty basic but it'll be ours. It has a queen bed I think, a little kitchenette and our own bathroom! That was one of my requests. I'm so excited. It'll be great. He's also going to do some time lapses that I'll tag along to. I hope I don't have to work much. That's one of my biggest fears for next week. I'll find out tomorrow morning. Seekae tonight! Then Husky tomorrow night. Lots of homework to be done. I really need to do some now. I'll get onto that.

What an emotional 24 hours!

Wow. What a horrible few days. I was upset yesterday because JD was gone and I couldn't quite understand why I was feeling so down and sad and like I couldn't do anything to fix it. I called Holly and we had a good chat about it. She told me to take a deep breath and I was feeling better, until the evening. So I was meant to be doing homework all day, not that I did. I went for a walk in the Queen Victoria Gardens and sat down and tried to rest my eyes. From all the crying I had done that morning they were so hard to keep open. I listened to some music then went to meet Jess at 430pm at the Southern Cross Station DFO. We had a chat about it and she said she had heard some things about JD from Kate and Beth but hadn't actually met him. Holly said he must be nice because he has been texting me and said sorry that we didn't meet up. Back to that point later. So Jess and I went and met up with the Perth girls for a drink. They were with some of the other boys from the party, including Mark, but no JD. It was okay. I felt a little funny but I wasn't asked about anything. Then I went to go to the Washington concert and after about half an hour I had another breakdown, a worse one. I couldn't stop crying and had to get out of there and I called Holly again. I was struggling because I didn't want to be alone and didn't know what to do about anything. She said for me to call Jess and go to her place and it was exactly what I needed. Here is my enlightened Twitter post:

I think what's happening is that I'm feeling what I do after a break up. What I went through after Yorick was that I need to be around people all the time to help me not feel alone. I need that now. I think that's why being at the back packers is so hard, plus it's not a home. Being at Jess's has been just what I needed but I"m afraid to leave. If I had my own room in a house here it'd be better. Comforting. That's what I need but what can I do until then? I can't be alone.

It's a bit desperate and I'm actually feeling better now. We watched Inception and I have started to apply some of the mind tricks to my situation. I'm locking all thoughts of JD into a big black square safe with a big lock. I do think about him but I have been trying to rationalise it. He's not Yorick. The pain was 10 times worse there. He's a silly Perth boy. He's a slut. He's not my ideal guy. It was just some fun. I liked the physicality of it more and the feeling of being with someone in a boyfriend girlfriend way. It's not about him, but at the same time it is. I just really hate that I've come undone again. It's all piling up on me -- the lack of money, the lack of a job and the lack of a house. It's going to work out. Holly and Ruben are coming over in 1.5-2 weeks for just as long as we'll be able to hang out and she said I'd have a place by that stage. I sure hope so. It was so great being at Jess's. I can't wait to have our own place. I want my own room and somewhere nearby, even the backyard if there is one, to relax in and heal. Nature is my Church after all. I like that I have discovered that. This afternoon/evening Nicole and I are going to go down to St Kilda and go to the beach and get some food. I love beaches. They have always helped me deal with issues. I can always go back home for a few days next week if I really need. Then again I wouldn't know what to do with all my stuff. Kirsten's? I just have to keep on top of this. I can conquer this and I shall. I just have to belittle the JD experience. So when I was at the Washington concert, not that I saw anything, I got a text from JD saying "Hey I'm sorry I didn't get to see you before I left, I feel really bad :(" and that started me crying again. I had to get out. I wrote back "That's ok. It would have been nice to see you... I had lots of fun with you." I haven't heard anything since and I probably won't for a while. So yes, Holly said he must be nice because he wrote that to me. He is nice, and he's cute and funny and weird but also a bit of a slut. Hmm. As my horoscope said, I just have to move on. Here are some good ones:

Monday 25th -- the morning of the party.
Someone finds you mesmerizing, Scorpio. You have that affect on a lot of people, but this individual really knows how to work it. He or she is a master of flattery and seduction, and could make you feel like a million bucks. Don't succumb to this type of adulation today. Just because someone is enamored with you and has a passionate way of showing it doesn't mean you should jump into anything. You are a sucker for sweet talk, because you happen to be quite a sweet talker yourself -- but this may not be the right situation for you. Think it over.

I wish I knew what this really meant at the time. I'm not sure when I first looked at it though and even that day I didn't realise what it meant. Only way after the fact. It's definitely a lesson learned. I won't be doing that again, ever.

Friday 19th -- today.
All the worrying in the world won't change a thing, Scorpio. Usually you are someone who can move past a problem with ease, and not keep looking over your shoulder. But you may now been caught up in worrying about the future affects of something that has already been completed. Did you make the right choice? What do others think of how you handled yourself? Will there be a fallout from what you said or did? All the worry is pointless, no matter that happens next. But in fact it is especially meaningless because you did everything right. Move on. Sop worrying.

These are a little contradictory but the message to move on sounds like just what I need to do. And that's why I'm trying to do. It was just hard to metaphorically fall over like this again when my whole life is unsettled. It's not a good combination.

This one is nice in itself.

Tuesday 26th -- Wednesday.
When an apple tree blooms, each delicate blossom eventually becomes a delicious Macintosh or Gala or Granny Smith apple, and so on. It's almost miraculous to watch the progress of a tree in flower as its branches become heavy with fruit. You are now in the blooming stage with a special endeavour,m Scorpio. Don't worry so much about when you will get to the fruit-bearing stage. Just enjoy the fragrance and atmosphere of the moment, and know that you are on your way to getting what you are working for.

I think this could be referring to my assignments, as that's the only possible explanation from the time. I did finish an assignment on Thursday night while hoping for a text from JD to say to come and meet him. I really want to know what he's thinking about everything, and if he felt bad for me or for him that we didn't get a chance to meet up again. I think bad for me. He probably doesn't care all that much. I shouldn't even be thinking about this but I think it's better to get rid of it all into here and have a clear mind, like for the second assignment I need to finish! That's why I'm here out at Uni. I do wish that we had had a chance to meet again. I really liked it when he kissed me goodbye so tenderly and hotly and convinced me that we'd meet again. It's probably for the best though. Sigh.

I guess I had better do some homework now. I think I'll be feeling strange for a few days at least, especially since I'll be alone in the back packers. Nicole is looking into me moving into her back packers so that'll be nice. Each bed has its own power point(s) and shelves next to your head so I won't even have to leave my bed to watch movies or do some homework. It'll be nice just to have her there, even though what I really need is to be staying at a house. I'm not sure that's possible though. I seriously cannot wait for this back packing stage to end. I'm way past over it. It's the whole alone thing and the no comforts of home thing too. Damn this. Tomorrow I need to go to Jess's work and apply for a job there. I think Nicole and I and maybe Chelsea will be looking at another house. Amy and I are tentatively meeting at 2pm as I'm not quite sure what's happening. I might also come back out here to do more Uni, unless I go to the State Library. I just need to keep busy. It sucks though as I have maybe $300 left and half of that will go to a room for a week. I will get paid again by Centrelink on Monday so that's a relief. I just wish we didn't have to be paying this rent. Hopefully we both get jobs soon. Mum and dad are going to help me out financially so that's nice to know but I still feel really poor. Damn it! What a high and low week. Mostly low. Was it worth it? I'm not sure. It's not just JD though but that doesn't help.

I should really do some homework. I just needed to vent. This is going to be a struggle but I shall conquer this.

House sitting

So I have begun my extended weekend of house sitting for James and George. I went out with them to the airport and drove their car back and will possibly pick them up again on Monday but then again I might be working. I think I will quite enjoy staying here. I have my covered button earrings to keep me occupied, as well as season 2 of the Tudors. And the internet! The internet and computer at Margate hasn't been working so well so it's a relief to come here and be able to catch up with my games on Facebook [sad I know] and have speedy internet. I'm so relieved.

I'm looking forward to going for jogs along Kingston Beach while I'm staying here. I might go for one this afternoon then take Jezabelle for a walk either to the dog beach at the other end of Kingston Beach or just around the streets. I hope I notice the difference when I go back to Margate. At the moment I weigh 64 but then again I just had some lunch. Hopefully I will have lost a few kilos come Monday.

I went into town today after going out to to the airport with J+G+E. I went to the Maritime Museum to drop off the papers and have to drop in some more possibly tomorrow, then I went to Ruby's Room and bought another $25 suitcase for my covered button supplies. I think I will get a fair bit done while I'm here as, once again, I have a lot of free time ahead of me with no second job. I need to get another job though. I hope I hear from Cotton On. I might have to try the place Sophie suggested also, just in case.

I don't have much money again. It's sad. I gave mum $100, the final payment of what I owed her, spent a bit on the Ruby's Room box and hair product and now it's all gone. I have 3 fun nights ahead too so I might have to dip into my Oomph earnings and write a note on the envelope with the money in it about how much I owe. I need more work. I don't really want to work more at thebeach but I shall have to until I find more work elsewhere. I'll give that place Sophie suggested a call.

Money woes yet again

I just came back from lunching with Sophie at thebeach. We talked a lot about the Lordy boys and our relationships and the engagement party and also about work. She suggested I look into training organisations such as the one she used to get her job at Stennings and you don't need to be experienced. I only found the one she mentioned in the Yellow Pages but it's a start. I'll hopefully get full-time work and I might not earn a heap but with thebeach as well I'll be set. I'll ring them up tomorrow.

I called Suzanne at Wrest Point this morning at 8am and left a message on her answering machine about not wanting the job. I had been rehersing it in my mind since 6am this morning, not really being able to sleep after that, then after 830am I started drifting off more and not being able to get up. I should have just gotten up at 7am and played The Sims 2 like I have been each day since the weekend but no, I had to keep "sleeping". Grr.

I have to buy my tickets to Sydney and back tomorrow. I really hope I earned enough money to pay for them as well as buy petrol and survive until next pay day. Fingers crossed I earned $250ish but I'm not sure I will. I didn't do huge hours but I did have 3 shifts so I'll have to wait and see. I want to pay for the Maritime Museum membership, which is roughly $27, but I might not be able to afford it. I also want to buy the Union Jack bed sheets but again I might not be able to swing it, especially since they might be $50 and mum said I have to be super careful with my money. I feel like a kid again. Sigh. Next year will be brilliant, just remember that.

I've been finding some new blogs to follow recently and I like how they all seem to do a special day thing, like Music Monday or Tattoo Tuesday. Some have something scheduled for every day of the week! Maybe it's time I started something like that. I'll have to figure something out. I like the daily outfits but I usually wear the same thing and I'm not that interesting clothing-wise. I wish to be but you need money for that and I'm lacking in that department. One day...

I have been thinking recently about sewing creatures and I might get back into the rice balls. I might get better fabric than felt, as the crappy felt we have here in Spotlight bubbles and stretches. Holly gets good quality felt from the mainland I think but I want some stiff fabrics, like the great patterned stuff she used for one of her robots. I might try and snap a picture next time I'm over there. I'll try and make some cuties and have eyes and arms and legs dangling off their triangular bodies. One day when I'm not so poor I'll look into it.

I'm going to the gym for 430pm to do the Step class and a bit of Zumba afterwards. I'm looking forward to getting back into it! Classes a so much fun and I'll stay for the duration. I might not stay for all of Zumba as I'll probably be fairly tired but I'll see how I go. Just worried about my money situation for tomorrow. I hope it's enough.

Hurry, 2011

Apparently my ideal weight is 57.6kg as I am 164cm tall but I'm reaching towards 65kg. I've never gone over that and usually stayed under it, more towards 60kg, but I want to do something about it. I've mapped out all the classes I want to do at the gym this week and I went for a walk today. I don't want to go over 65kg as I know I'll get depressed.

Speaking of depressed I'm totally feeling that today. All day. I went to go on a job hunt but it wasn't my day. I tried to print some resume's at Uni but it took forever, then I got rained on during my walk to Salamanca and back from Sandy Bay. No one gave me a "yes we need you" so I'm still waiting for a job. I also got a huge phone bill as they did 2 months together and I went $20 over my internet usage limit so mum's going to pay that, I'll buy my plane tickets to and from Sydney for next week, then I'll pay her back. I came into the house crying after my expedition, then went to my room and cried some more when it seemed like she didn't give a crap [no sympathy at least], then she came into my room and helped get me organised. I have to stop spending my money on silly things, or limit it very much, get more shifts at thebeach if I don't get anything else, and I'll be able to save. We'll see if that works.

I have 3-4 shifts at thebeach for the next 3 weeks so that's something. Hopefully I'll hear from either Oomph! or Brew, another coffee shop [in Sandy Bay], who said they might have something within the next 2 weeks. I have lots of gym dates and times planned so hopefully I will be able to busy myself and think more of Sydney than of other things. People I don't want to think about that is.

I haven't been emotional in a long time. It was refreshing in a way, to feel that strongly, to cry and let go, to feel it was okay to cry. I don't mind crying. Helps me a lot.

I'm going to lunch with Sophie tomorrow at work. We'll have entrees and deserts. I reckon I'll put mine on a tab so I can pay it tomorrow as I'm super poor. I have $5. Holly and I are meant to go to the State to see King of Thorn. It's part of the Reel Anime thing happening in selected cinemas over the country and it's the last day it's on. I might have to borrow the money off her just so I can go and pay her back on Wednesday. It's pathetic. I do indeed need to be better with my money. Having more would help.

I can't wait till next year. It'll all be better then.

I'm done, oh how I'm done

I am done with Yorick. I just deleted him off my Facebook account and I'm so glad I did. After last night I don't want to see him again. I just want to heal and forget about him, move on and what not. I went to Dani's engagement party and I was in there for 5 minutes when Yorick saw me and rushed over, gave me a hug and asked me how I was. After we both said we were good there was nothing left to talk about and just at the point Sam [girl Sam, dating Bezz] came over and chatted to me and my attention was on her not Yorick, just as he did to me that time he said he saw me in Salamanca after my almost dentist x-ray. I think he was talking to his new girl at that stage, kissing and hugging her right next to me. I could see it out of the corner of my eye. I went to get a drink and then he came over again! He asked if he should introduce Ebony to me. It sounded like he said Ann so I said who? and he said the girl I've been seeing. I hope he already knew I knew. Probably did. I said is that necessary? He said it might be polite but that it's not necessary. She came over anyway and asked who I was and I saw Anna and she knew who I was and shook my hand with her left hand then squeezed it. Then she began to fondle my necklace. That was the last interaction with either of them I had. The rest of the night was good. Had free drinks and hung out with Holly and Munchie and Helen, then the 4 of us went to play pool next door for ages. I didn't see Yorick again. It felt like he was replacing me. Holly said he was stressed about it that that's why he pretty much ran over to me to say hi. I cried all the way home, shouting sometimes, [got home at a bit before 3am] and was still awake at 5am. I slept in until 1130 and replied to Holly's message asking how I was. She agreed it would be hard, the hardest I'll have to face [until, god forbid, he gets married before me], but I want to forget him and don't want anything to do with him anymore. I need to be cut off. At times last night I felt I wanted to get away so far, sit on a lovely mountain top or something fantastic, but I'm here and can't leave as I have no money. Next year. I hated that he looked like he was super happy, like he had replaced me with a better fit, like I meant nothing, like he never thinks of me anymore. Holly reminded me that there's something much better out there for me and I know there is. I'll have it when I'm ready and it will actually last. I hated seeing him happy with her. I hated watching him rub her back with his arm around her. Bitches the both of them. I'm done. That's why I'm done. I look horrible today. All that crying. I will go back to bed and rest, watch something, before I have to get ready for work. Drat having to work. It's only a Sunday though and I desperately need the work. Tomorrow I'll go on a job hunt. I shall I shall. I'll stop by Uni again and photocopy and print my resume and RSA. I want to start collecting written referees to make it easier, especially when I move to Sydney. Alison won't want to keep getting calls for me years after I'm not there anymore. Makes it easier. Not sure whether or not to ask for it now. Might be good. Start collecting them. Hmm. I just want to move forward and forget about Yorick. He's not my concern and I don't want to be involved with him at all. I'm done. Done done done.

Earring success

I hate that Yorick has found a new love for Facebook. He status updates all the time and I read his comments on other peoples' status and sometimes, mostly actually, they are crude and always have a sexual element. It's not very nice to read but I want to know what he's up to.

I did some gluing with my covered buttons today. I've put some of the small earring backs [6mm] onto two of the size 20 [12mm] buttons so I can wear them tonight at work and show off my creations. I made the mistake of ordering more of the small earring backs instead of the bigger ones [8mm] so I talked to the eBayer I bought them off and she said I can swap them for the bigger ones. I think they will fit much better and look much better also than the smaller ones. I'm still waiting for the rings and the fabric and I think both of them will arrive next week. The rings should have been here by now but I can wait a little longer.

I went to the gym today for a tour. It was good. I really like the upstairs cardio/weights area and will start using that soon. There is this great machine, a bike, with a game TV screen in front of it which you 'play' to unlock higher biking levels. You have to steer and pedal and it's like you're cross country biking. I think I'll like that one. Also the treadmills are great. They check your heart rate and there is a little table which shows all the heart rate areas and what to aim for. I'll try and go 5 days a week.

I am so poor right now. I hate not having any money. I want a bookstore job but the are fresh out of those so I'll have to keep waiting until next month. It sucks because I want to buy things and have to pay for petrol and stuff and that takes away the small amount I earn each week from thebeach. It's very quiet there too so I can't really get more shifts until next month or something. Arg.

I have been thinking about the Yorick situation and I think it's okay because we did grow apart because we weren't doing things together and one day I will find someone to be with who will want to stay with me. I'll find someone like me, a bit of a homebody but also social, and he will hang out with me lots and we'll be in love and I'll call him by his first name. In my past relationships I had never used their names, always a cutesy name like Tate or Chimmy for Yorick. Sometimes I think that when I meet my someday husband I'll use his first name when conversing with him and that will be a sign. I hope this guy will like and play music, that he'll be taller than me with dark hair and eyes, and someone I'll click with, have fun with, and have a great sex life with. I know he's out there somewhere. I'm not ready to find him just yet but it's something to look forward to, to help me deal with the growing apart from Yorick, and to get me excited.

I've been looking at BlackBerry phones to get instead of the HTC Desire because they have the full QWERTY keyboard and are still pretty and better at connecting to the internet and stuff. I have seen some review about how the QWERTY keyboards on touch screen phones are hard to use, which they are, and allow for more errors than solid QWERTY keyboards. That's why I think I'll change to the BlackBerry Curve 8900 or Bold 9000. They are pretty!

I am going to start eating better full stop. Now I'm back living with my parents I have healthy meals but I have had a few KFC slip ups and I got a packet of chips yesterday to snack on. I think because of it I have let my skin get worse and I don't want that. I want to drink more water and not have bad food and see if my skin improves. I also need to start exercising. I need to do my Margate walk/jog up to the view and back. I need to do the spin class on the bike here and maybe even bring out the leg magic. I have made a pact that I won't have sex again until I'm thinner so I hope it works. I wanted to live near a beach so I could use that for my exercise but that won't be happening for a while. Maybe over in the UK I can run around the streets and parks and stuff. That's a year away though. I have to start now. I'm unhappy with my body and I need to start changing that. I only have myself to blame. I'm also in a pickle because all I'm doing these days with no Uni is watching TV episodes. I need to do my travel books and read and once I get the earring stuff I can make them. I need to do my exercise and stop watching so much TV. That will be hard, all of it, but it must be done. I don't like wasting my days. I hope I get some job prospects on Monday with my appointment with a Uni career counsellor. I hope I can get another job soon. I need money badly.

Sick

My mum is great. She called me up this morning to talk with me about getting me some more food tomorrow. She's going to bring me a fair bit and already gave me some last night. I'm still in my financial crisis. I have no money. By the time rent goes out and I account for petrol, my $30 flute lesson, and getting up and back from Launceston, I usually have nothing left. This is not good. I really need Centrelink.

I've been feeling sick lately, with a constant half-headache and "stuffy" head. It's been here since Monday. Class in the morning got me feeling like this, which it usually doesn't, and then I got the bus up to Launceston in the evening and I felt even worse then to the point of thinking I might actually vomit [I didn't. I'm glad because it scares me]. The drive back with Angela on Tuesday kept me feeling the same. I thought I would feel better after a sleep but it was still there. I went to dinner last night [Wednesday] and still felt the same. Mum and I talked about why it could be. We discussed my bad diet, stress, not having regular exercise [which she suggested I fix by going for a 15 minute brisk walk on study breaks] and this impacting or contributing to my constant bad skin. I really hope this goes away soon. I just went on a walk to the Signal Station and back but I don't feel any better. I'm glad I went but I still have a funny head.

At least I studied this morning. I have been a bit behind in one of my classes [Law] but listened to some of the lectures this morning. I'm feeling good about that but still overwhelmed because I still have so much work to do. Yikes!

I want normal back

I haven't been feeling too well for the last few days. I think it is largely in part to my travelling up to Launceston and back for Uni but mum suggested it might be because of my diet. I have a horrible diet. Yorick and I have no money, I don't at least, and we never shop anymore. We did last week, a very rare occasion, but we haven't done a huge shop in ages. I eat badly. I have bad skin. I don't drink enough. I get headaches and a stuffy head a lot. Mum said tonight at dinner that on study breaks I should get out of the house and go for a 15 minute brisk walk. I might do that. I do stay indoors a bit too much. I watch too many TV series. I haven't been doing much homework. What I should do is do my homework outside in the fresh air. That means I'll get homework done and be in my lovely garden [its not mine really but I should enjoy it more] where I should spend more time. I just want to feel normal and motivated again. I might need to pick up another shift at work. I'm not earning much because I need the time to study, but I didn't do much study last week so that was a bit of a waste. Luckily I had the Sunday morning shift so I might see if I can pick that up again for this week. I had better get Centrelink. Otherwise I'll be even poorer than I am if that's possible. I'm barely getting by as it is. I need more money. I'm living week to week and am still needing more money than what I get. I hate this! I need to manage my time better. I need to study more, work more, and not laze about too much. I can do this. Arr.

Centrelink

I called Centrelink up again and have found out that I just need to take in my forms and the claim for payments will begin. I hope I get money because I'm so poor. I worked 2 shifts last week and got $200. That's not a lot. I spend $100 of that on rent each week so at the moment I only have $110 for the week. I really hope I get these payments because I'm going to struggle without them, especially since I might only be able to work 2 shifts a week, 3 at the most. I need to find out what I'm working this week because the roster wasn't done until late Sunday I presume [the working week for us starts on a Monday and we get paid on Wednesdays]. I don't want to call up right now because it's lunch time and it might be busy so I'll have to wait till a bit later or go in on the way to Margate for dinner with my parents. Sarah is picking Yorick and I up at 530pm and we'll head there for 6pm.

Today we're having another council inspection [only a short 10 minute one] at around 230pm so I've been tidying the house this morning and doing some more washing. I like getting the house under control. All I need to do now is do some more homework for Uni, go to Uni to sell some books, and collect my essay [if they haven't gotten rid of it already]. I'd also like to watch a bit more Lost.

Clothes wants

I really want these clothes right now --

A Skunkboy Creatures t-shirt

These Threadless t-shirts:

Fisherman's Find by Esther Aarts

Grandma's Hot Air Balloon by Brent Schoepf

If only I had enough money to get these.

One day I'll get them, I'm sure.

I hate having no money. I have to save though,

so these will be out of the question for a while at least.

Damn money

I hate having no money. It really sucks and it's been like this for too long. Tomorrow morning I will go into Centrelink and sort this out once and for all. It was hard running out of money for petrol while an hour away from home. That was really upsetting.

I'm off to Margate for half the day to study and finish the puzzle while Jon, the landlord and house owner, fixes the stairs. I don't want to be in the way. Then I'm off to Holly's for a catch up. Yay. Got to get my photos together.