I'm done, oh how I'm done

I am done with Yorick. I just deleted him off my Facebook account and I'm so glad I did. After last night I don't want to see him again. I just want to heal and forget about him, move on and what not. I went to Dani's engagement party and I was in there for 5 minutes when Yorick saw me and rushed over, gave me a hug and asked me how I was. After we both said we were good there was nothing left to talk about and just at the point Sam [girl Sam, dating Bezz] came over and chatted to me and my attention was on her not Yorick, just as he did to me that time he said he saw me in Salamanca after my almost dentist x-ray. I think he was talking to his new girl at that stage, kissing and hugging her right next to me. I could see it out of the corner of my eye. I went to get a drink and then he came over again! He asked if he should introduce Ebony to me. It sounded like he said Ann so I said who? and he said the girl I've been seeing. I hope he already knew I knew. Probably did. I said is that necessary? He said it might be polite but that it's not necessary. She came over anyway and asked who I was and I saw Anna and she knew who I was and shook my hand with her left hand then squeezed it. Then she began to fondle my necklace. That was the last interaction with either of them I had. The rest of the night was good. Had free drinks and hung out with Holly and Munchie and Helen, then the 4 of us went to play pool next door for ages. I didn't see Yorick again. It felt like he was replacing me. Holly said he was stressed about it that that's why he pretty much ran over to me to say hi. I cried all the way home, shouting sometimes, [got home at a bit before 3am] and was still awake at 5am. I slept in until 1130 and replied to Holly's message asking how I was. She agreed it would be hard, the hardest I'll have to face [until, god forbid, he gets married before me], but I want to forget him and don't want anything to do with him anymore. I need to be cut off. At times last night I felt I wanted to get away so far, sit on a lovely mountain top or something fantastic, but I'm here and can't leave as I have no money. Next year. I hated that he looked like he was super happy, like he had replaced me with a better fit, like I meant nothing, like he never thinks of me anymore. Holly reminded me that there's something much better out there for me and I know there is. I'll have it when I'm ready and it will actually last. I hated seeing him happy with her. I hated watching him rub her back with his arm around her. Bitches the both of them. I'm done. That's why I'm done. I look horrible today. All that crying. I will go back to bed and rest, watch something, before I have to get ready for work. Drat having to work. It's only a Sunday though and I desperately need the work. Tomorrow I'll go on a job hunt. I shall I shall. I'll stop by Uni again and photocopy and print my resume and RSA. I want to start collecting written referees to make it easier, especially when I move to Sydney. Alison won't want to keep getting calls for me years after I'm not there anymore. Makes it easier. Not sure whether or not to ask for it now. Might be good. Start collecting them. Hmm. I just want to move forward and forget about Yorick. He's not my concern and I don't want to be involved with him at all. I'm done. Done done done.