Hurry, 2011

Apparently my ideal weight is 57.6kg as I am 164cm tall but I'm reaching towards 65kg. I've never gone over that and usually stayed under it, more towards 60kg, but I want to do something about it. I've mapped out all the classes I want to do at the gym this week and I went for a walk today. I don't want to go over 65kg as I know I'll get depressed.

Speaking of depressed I'm totally feeling that today. All day. I went to go on a job hunt but it wasn't my day. I tried to print some resume's at Uni but it took forever, then I got rained on during my walk to Salamanca and back from Sandy Bay. No one gave me a "yes we need you" so I'm still waiting for a job. I also got a huge phone bill as they did 2 months together and I went $20 over my internet usage limit so mum's going to pay that, I'll buy my plane tickets to and from Sydney for next week, then I'll pay her back. I came into the house crying after my expedition, then went to my room and cried some more when it seemed like she didn't give a crap [no sympathy at least], then she came into my room and helped get me organised. I have to stop spending my money on silly things, or limit it very much, get more shifts at thebeach if I don't get anything else, and I'll be able to save. We'll see if that works.

I have 3-4 shifts at thebeach for the next 3 weeks so that's something. Hopefully I'll hear from either Oomph! or Brew, another coffee shop [in Sandy Bay], who said they might have something within the next 2 weeks. I have lots of gym dates and times planned so hopefully I will be able to busy myself and think more of Sydney than of other things. People I don't want to think about that is.

I haven't been emotional in a long time. It was refreshing in a way, to feel that strongly, to cry and let go, to feel it was okay to cry. I don't mind crying. Helps me a lot.

I'm going to lunch with Sophie tomorrow at work. We'll have entrees and deserts. I reckon I'll put mine on a tab so I can pay it tomorrow as I'm super poor. I have $5. Holly and I are meant to go to the State to see King of Thorn. It's part of the Reel Anime thing happening in selected cinemas over the country and it's the last day it's on. I might have to borrow the money off her just so I can go and pay her back on Wednesday. It's pathetic. I do indeed need to be better with my money. Having more would help.

I can't wait till next year. It'll all be better then.