That boy

Glenn is just amazing. We were talking on the phone last night after I finished work but it was hard to hear him at times because of the reception in South Hobart, so we went onto Google+ and did a Hangout. It was so lovely to see him. It's always better than talking on the phone but of course it's not always possible. We had the best talk. At one stage I said that we've pretty much decided that I'm to move home, which is something I'm happy to do, not only for us but for other reasons such as family, friends, and my career. I said that's all good as long as he doesn't change his mind. To that he said he'll wait for me! That's the most romantic thing ever. I love that. We talked a little about how things will change, but it'll be for the best. We've only spent 9 days together in the last 1.5 months so we're looking forward to spending a lot more time together. He said he'll date the shit out of me. He he he. He said he likes that he's not feeling any pressure from me and it's the same for me from him. We're relaxed. I can't wait until next weekend when he's here for 5 days from noon on the Thursday to around the same time on the Wednesday. We already have some things planned but I'm stressing a little about what shifts I'll have at Veludo. I haven't been getting many lately, and next weekend that suits me more than ever, although I do need the money, more stress right there. Earlier yesterday things were making me feel completely stressed and all I wanted to do was to be with Glenn, but it's not possible right now. I seriously can't wait until he's here. Then he's away until the 1st of October factoring in time zones for him coming back from Europe. We'll have another 5 days together then too. Then I'll be down in Hobart from the 24th of October to the 3rd of November! 10-11 days. I can't wait! God I miss him. I miss being able to hug him and kiss him and do the soft scratchy back massage thing with him. I miss getting to know him more, although we're doing a pretty good job now. We talked everyday, if only via text, but we talk every day or two and do maybe one Google+ Hangout a week. We're doing well. I love that he's going to wait for me. He just wants me to put myself first. I don't exactly want to move back to the city of Hobart as I'd much rather be in Melbourne itself, but I'm doing this for us. As long as I can get a job I'll be set. Then we will find out how far we will go. I want my own house, to do up just how I like it. I want masons jars for drinking out of. I want to frame and have my posters up. I want the awesome wooden closet I got from Mt Nelson and place for my gym equipment. I want him to come over all the time and for me to go to his place. I want him to date the shit out of me! I can't wait. We send each other pictures of ourselves, by the way. I have some lovely ones from him. He actually owes me some. Not long now until he's here. On the Thursday we'll check into the George Powlett Motel in East Melbourne then as long as I'm not working, or if god forbid I am I can get rid of it, then we'll go to Bimbos for dinner and see Tiger Funk again, the band that was on the time he, Nicole and I went. We're also going to have lots of warm cider, and have either a double or triple date with his friends and Amy and Gav, if they're all free and up for it, we're going to stay in bed for a whole day, we're going to go see the Tutankahmun exhibition at the Melbourne Museum, we'll get me some poi and practice in the park, go to the Fitzroy Gardens, go to Illy, see the Illusionist at the Nova Cinemas, go to ACMI, and some anime shops. We have lots to do. I believe I'll be working at some stage over the weekend. I'm still praying I didn't get many shifts. I'll have Uni on the Friday. I should have the Monday to Wednesday completely free. It's going to be so amazing having him here. We think the Motel might be pretty basic but it'll be ours. It has a queen bed I think, a little kitchenette and our own bathroom! That was one of my requests. I'm so excited. It'll be great. He's also going to do some time lapses that I'll tag along to. I hope I don't have to work much. That's one of my biggest fears for next week. I'll find out tomorrow morning. Seekae tonight! Then Husky tomorrow night. Lots of homework to be done. I really need to do some now. I'll get onto that.

Always thinking of Glenn

Glenn and I are booked in to stay at the George Powlett Motel from the 1st to the 7th of September. It's going to be so fun having him around all the time instead of him going off to work, however I will be going to work and Uni on Friday and the weekend. We have some plans already. I can't wait to hug him and kiss him and more. I've missed that. Then he'll be away until the end of September and visit me for another 5 days before heading home. I just hope we have a place for him to stay with me at by then.

Uni is hectic. I have to get this Shared Heritage assignment out of the way by Monday if possible. Then I have to jump straight in to the first World Heritage assignment. It's due 2 days after Glenn leaves so hopefully I can get the majority of it done before he arrives, possibly do a little while he's here, then get it finished before the 9th. Then it's onto the next one, then the next one, and so it goes on until just before my birthday. Sigh.

I have one of his shirts with me and it smells like him. It's brilliant. I gave him one of mine when I was last down on the 8th to 10th of August but he said the smell is starting to fade. Sad. I can't wait to smell him for real. He gets into the city by around noon on Thursday. I can't wait! It'll be great having him here.

There is a chance I'll move back home. I don't want to go back to the city as such. I much prefer Melbourne. Although I do like experiencing Hobart with him. I'd do it for us. Time will tell.

I hope I don't get too many Veludo shifts next weekend. I'm hoping for only 2 shifts so I can spend more time with Glenn. He did say he would watch me work to make sure we had enough time together. I should have Monday to Wednesday completely free. It'll be amazing to spend so much time together not interrupted by work.

I should either get back to my assignment or keep watching Bones.

I'm back!

I am so bad. I haven't written in months. It's not that I didn't want to. First it was the fact that I didn't have regular internet access. Then I got used to not writing, but now some major developments have arisen that I want to document. I'm just lazy but I want this hiatus to be over.

Working at Velduo is going good as usual. I can't wait until I have a 'real' job though in cultural heritage. That'll be amazing. I have been working occasionally at Watermark as well and that's fine too. More cruisy, which I like. It's comparable to working at Relish, as Veludo is to thebeach. I like that I'm getting cash in hand so I can get Centrelink as well. I'm naughty but everyone does it.

Uni is going well. There have been so so so many assignments to do. My assignment schedule is insane. Seriously I hate it. I'm in the second 'trimester' now, currently in the middle of World Heritage. I have already finished the on-campus classes for Collections and Movable Cultural Heritage and handed in the first assignment for that yesterday. I'm still finishing off assignments for Cultural Landscapes. The last one was due yesterday but I had to get an extension because the case study I chose was too hard. I'm focusing on Sullivan's Cove now and its management issues. Once I find those I will feel like I'm in a better position. At the moment I'm a bit stressed about it because I don't have much to write about. Drat those management issues!! Where are you? My last assignment is due on the day after my birthday, but I'm planning to get that done earlier. I don't want it to ruin my birthday! Then all I'll have is the field placement unit and I'll be set! I'm planning to do that back home. My plans have certainly changed, and all because of the results of one night.

On Thursday the 14th of July, Nicole, Glenn and I hung out. We had ciders at the Young and Jackson's rooftop cider bar near Flinder's Street Station then went to Bimbos for $4 pizzas. It was a lot of fun. Nicole and Glenn had worked together at Wrest Point and I knew him through Yorick, through Apples, through Helen. He had contacted me a few months earlier saying that we should catch up while he was in Melbourne and we did. At Bimbos, Glenn sent me a text message while sitting next to me. He was going to say something, and I bugged it out of him. He said he wasn't sure if he should say it. The text said that he thought we flirted well. We all decided to go and see Harry Potter 7 Part 2 at the movies and he had his arm on the arm rest and I took it. We ended up kissing. They were the best kisses ever. We all caught a cab back to the YHA, then Glenn went back to his hotel. We met up the next day. I tried to get out of working at Watermark but I couldn't, but we met up between my shift there and the one at Veludo. I met him at the Flinder's steps. We caught the free tram to Spencer Street then caught the 96 to St Kilda and sat on the beach. He was carrying all his luggage with him. We talked and laughed. On the free tram he couldn't believe it when I said I was 24. On the 96 we were facing each other on different sides of the tram and had our legs connecting. Once we were walking on the beach, I got him to stop and we kissed. Then we sat down on the beach and talked. We walked up to Veludo and stood outside and kissed and hugged, and he held his arms up a few times to make us stop touching, probably because it was getting a bit heated. He he he. Then I went to work. We met up a week later when I went back to Tassie for Etta's first birthday [July 24th]. We met outside the Maritime after I had finished talking to Rona about an assignment. He had shaved his mountain man beard. We walked around Battery Point and talked and talked. Then we sat on a bench near the back of TMAG near the courtyard before he went off and I had dinner at Cool Thai and $10 cosmopolitans with Emma, Sarah, and Holly. After that, Sarah and I went back to hers. Glenn picked me up from there. We went back to his place and hung out in his room. I had a look at his DVD collection and pointed out all the ones I liked. He groaned because we have a lot of things in common. I got lost on the way back to his bedroom from the bathroom. I stood still. He found me and didn't laugh as such but said I'll be alright in a cute I like you way. We undressed each other, although he went to the bathroom and came back in only his red shorts/pants/undies. The sex was amazing, seriously the best ever. It was so nice sleeping next to him. We did it again in the morning, had an amazing shower together, and went out for breakfast down the road. We hung out at his place for the rest of the day until I went home for dinner. On Saturday we hung out again and I stayed over. I can't remember what we did. On Sunday morning we had a spa together. It was awesome. Then I went home quickly before heading over to James and George's for Etta's birthday party. Super cute. Then I hung out with Sophie at thebeach, then Monika, then home for tea before heading back up to see Glenn. That morning I had gotten a bit sad. I also got sad before I left. Backtracking a bit, we had been texting all week and kinda built up the sex, or unwrapping me, because I was his late birthday present and him my early present. He he. Amazing. So we hung out for an hour and a bit before he went to cricket and I headed to James and George's so James could take me out to the airport. Glenn said to me to tell him if things get too hard to tell him, to promise. I did. I was sad to go. After that we texted and talked on the phone and I planned another trip down in two weeks, just to see him. I felt helpless before that trip was booked. I just came back from this second trip three days ago. I went down on Monday morning. Sarah picked me up and I hung at her place until Glenn got me at 4. We went to his place then picked up James and headed to his place to see Etta and G and have pizza! Sarah joined us. Glenn likes my family. They liked him too. Then we went to his house. We were going to see a movie but I was super tired so we hung out in his room instead. It was awesome. More great sex. We put onSource Code to watch but we saw none of it. None of the entire thing... He he he. On Tuesday he went to work. I studied in his bed. Then I met mum for some Spotlight shopping, then met Glenn after that. We went to the Post Office briefly then walked to my car near Sarah's in West Hobart then went to his place. We watched some anime then had a date at Mee Wah. So fancy! He has an alergy to seafood but he didn't get sick. Then we saw Hanna at the State. It was awesome. We were going to get Cold Rock but it was closed by the time the movie got out. Sad. Then we went back to his place and I stroked his back with soft fingers for ages. He said it was the best night ever and that he had never felt so relaxed before. It was bliss. On Wednesday morning we got up at 930. He was meant to go back to the Post Office and get his passport photos done, then see the passport people, but had to change plans. We had a shower together, he shaved then got back in. We went to the Post Office and were talking about heavy stuff and I got a bit upset. I had promised myself that if I came on that trip I wouldn't cry, because otherwise I wouldn't have seen him for a whole month instead of having a two week break in between. He wanted me to look at him when I started getting emotional but I didn't want to. I had to go outside and have a breather and get myself under control. He said he has the same feelings as me but I'm more open about it. I cry too easily. It's true. Then we walked down to Salamanca, I took a photo of the Tasmanian Mission to Seafarers, who knew right!?, then we went to the Vietnamese Kitchen for 'breakfast' and had more deeper conversations. Then we went to Margate for an hour for lunch, a play with Etta, then he took me to the airport. He dropped me off and he left reasonably quickly. I thought he was going to come in but it turned out that I didn't have to wait long. I missed him already and still do. The flight went by with my nodding off and doing that head jerk thing. Slightly embarrassing! I got back to Melbourne and he sent me a text, and he said he was glad I was safe. We've talked on the phone most days since, not that many but still. We're going to do a Google+ Hangout tomorrow. He's coming over at the start of September before he heads to Europe until the end of September. Then he'll be back with me. We'll hang for around 5 days either side of his trip. We'd better have a house by then! Then I'm going back home from the 24th of October to the 3rd of November to be with him and to celebrate turning 25. Woah. Hopefully I can do another 10 days in November. I want to go back to Hobart to be with him. He's concerned because he doesn't want me to give anything up to be with him. I'm not 100% sure about it but I want to be with him full-time and I think we have potential. He likes the idea but yes, he trusts me, but is concerned. Sweet. I have my own concerns but I'll only do it if I'm sure. I'll have Etta and my family there, a job in cultural heritage, I'll get my own place, go to the gym, experience more of Hobart by Glenn's side, know how far we can go, and if it doesn't turn out how I hope, then I can go off and travel the world as originally planned. I want to do that anyway while I'm back there, if I move back. Time will tell. We're not deciding anything yet. I just want to be with him. We talked for quite a while this afternoon. For the whole tram ride back from St Kilda and even more while I walked to the YHA and I even sat outside for a bit. He clarified that he sending me that text in Bimbos was his green light. I wasn't sure if grabbing his hand wasn't what he wanted, because he's a bit sarcastic and when we were talking in the Vietnamese Kitchen he made it sound like it was my fault, but that was just Glenn being Glenn. We're in a relationship now, he said. I don't regret it. He said when I was back and we were walking that he only regrets us because of how it could end, not because we would fall out of love or one of us cheated on the other, but because we wouldn't be able to see each other enough. How sad. It's a funny situation but I wouldn't take it back. Never. Ever. His sister Laura likes me already and has been in contact with me on Facebook. She's never done this with any of his ex's. I like that. I'll meet them all in October when I'm down. He he. I really like this one. I think he's great. He's mature. He's 28. He used to be in the circus. He's still performing a bit but he busted his shoulder so that ruined things a bit. He has great hair. He's taller than me but still short. He's beautiful. He things I'm beautiful. He makes me laugh. We're cruisy when we're together and we both love that. No stress. We both hate that we have had to have all these intense talks because of the distance but he doesn't mind. He's charming, but he said he's argumentative. He's a Taurus. He smells great. He likes my bum. I think it's too big. I just love being with him. I miss him and I want to be in the same place as he is. Sigh. I think we could go pretty far. He was shocked when I told him Y and I had been together for 4 years. His longest relationship was 2.5 years. I've been with more people than he has and earlier. I've done drugs. He hasn't. I'm so naughty compared to him. He is a bit funny about the age gap. I'm not. He doesn't care too much about if we do or don't have sex. That suits me fine. It used to be a chore but not now. I miss his hugs and kisses. Oh that boy. We're part-time. I don't like that but it's better than nothing. I'm surprised I slotted back into my life here so easily. I cried a little that night, only because I was exhausted, but fine after that. I just wish I were there experiencing life alongside him. I still have him, just not physically. I can't wait until we get time together again. If Nicole, Amy and her partner Gav/Gavin, aren't in a house before the start of September, we'll stay in a room together somewhere, maybe at the YHA, or somewhere else, but it'd be so nice to have him in my own room, to celebrate getting one. We're so compatible. I love it. We are alike in many ways. Or have the same interests. He said he'd been looking for someone who likes anime as much as he did for most of his life. That's me. We're dating. We're in a relationship. He is friends with all his ex's. I like that idea. I'm not with mine. I like him a lot. So much.

So that's enough for now.

Nicole, Amy and Gavin and I are all looking for a 3 bedroom house together. Hopefully we have somewhere before September, as was the aim, but perhaps not. By September for sure. They're fairly desperate. I've been here for 5.5 months. Things haven't gone as planned but that's okay. I've learned a lot and I am grateful I'm here.

Now it's time for a quick chat to my parents to find out what they think of Glenn and then homework! Sigh.

Misplaced USB

All I can say is that I had better not lost my USB key. It's not in my purse and I'm pissed off. It might possibly be back at Anne's but it also might be over at E: Fifty 5. I don't know. All I do know is that it's shit if I've lost it. Some Uni stuff was on there as well as other bits and pieces. Arrrg!

Things are getting better

Things are looking up! I had the job trial today at Spinifex where Jess works as a chef and I'll be getting a call on Wednesday with shifts and more details so that's exciting! Zack, the owner I guess, who was on coffee's all day asked me if I wanted to come back. Apparently it's not usually that busy. It was just because we had a huge booking and everyone else came in at the same time. I'm used to that kind of busy from thebeach so it wasn't so bad it's just because it was a new job for me and I'm not used to it and don't know how to do everything that it was a bit hard. It was fine though. It's cash in hand and I got $60 for today, which I am completely surprised about, but I don't think the general pay-rate is that high, but it's a start and it'll help me along with Centrelink. So I've had a good day. I got up and got my stuff into the storage room at the Greenhouse and had some free toast and vegemite with Teresa, my other new German friend, then caught the tram to Kensington Station just opposite Spinifex. If I had been 10 minutes later I wouldn't have made the trial. Eek. Oh, apparently there may only be 2 waitresses on usually but today it was great having 3. It would have been interesting for them if I wasn't there. I'm looking forward to mastering it.

My daily horoscope
Someone may be telling you that you are expecting too much from a romance, friendship, or a work situation. You may even be critiquing yourself, and believing that if only you could be less strict in your requirements that you would be much happier. But most people settle, Scorpio. And therefore, most people believe that other people should settle. After all, misery loves company. You actually have the right idea. Stick to your guns. Remain loyal to your core needs and desires, and you will do fine -- even if it take you longer to find what you're looking for.

This could have something to do with the JD letter and the kind of answer's I'm looking for in regards to his response. I want to know what he's thinking about the whole thing. I'm not expecting much but at least to be friends would be nice and the possibility of seeing each other again for a similar occurance, even though it might not be that good for me because of my ability to attach. Eek. It could also be to do with work. I don't know. It's a good one though.

I really want a bowl of veggies for dinner. I might go up to Thai Culinary and see what they have and if not I'll just get the fried rice with vegies. Nicole tried that with beef and it looked good. Huge too.

I was thinking in the Greenhouse lift today that I think I'm over Yorick but not quite over JD. JD was awesome to cuddle in bed but Yorick was all boney and small. That's a nice thing to smile about. I love rethinking the whole night with JD. I loved the way we first kissed and I am starting to remember small things from that night. I don't remember much though. I was pretty drunk. I remember us talking on the stairs but not feeling any vibes. Drunkness might account for that though. I remember saying I wished I could dance like Liam Finn on the video clip for Second Chance. They asked me to do it but I froze, not in a shy way, but in the way that I was trying to process actually doing it and I couldn't. I said I'd have to look at the video. Weird. I loved that he talked to me first when I got to the party. He talked me through all the rules. When we were first kissing we told each other how we had wanted to be with each other throughout the night. He said it was from when I first walked in. I knew it too. I want that again. I needed to write the letter. I hope he writes back. Little things on Facebook like liking each others statuses or writing little comments isn't enough. It isn't a conversation. It would have been awesome to see each other again. I want to know when he's coming over again!!

Ahh dear. Talked to mum and dad tonight, and Sarah. Going over for Etta's birthday might be tricky as I'm sure I have a class on the Monday. Her birthday is on the Sunday so I might have to get a 10pm flight that evening. I could come over on the Wednesday evening or the Thursday. Something to think about.

Regarding archaeology. I can apply to do it at LaTrobe University [Graduate Certificate in Humanities and Social Sciences] or Melbourne University [Graduate or Postgraduate Diploma in Arts]. Eep! Melbourne Uni is so much closer!! I'll see what happens. I'll apply to both. Yay! I can't wait to do that. It'll be so awesome.

Must go and get some food then go back to the Space Hotel where I'm staying with Nicole for at least tonight. I do need to do a bit of Uni work but I feel like I'll be handing it in late. Eek. I'll have a full-on study day tomorrow but it's due tomorrow. It won't be done by then! I was planning on having today to finish it off but the whole moving thing plus the trial took much longer than expected. Hmm. Maybe I'll be handing it in on Wednesday! Yikes. I'd better get a move on then.

Study girl

Ah Uni. I've been here for a few hours at least and am about to leave and return to Kirsten's. I might need a chocolate bar first. I'm feeling pretty drained. I've been doing research on my assignments and for the AIM721 Cultural Policy Report I am thinking I'll change from the NGV to the British Museum. I've already found more than I ever did with the NGV. It was all much easier too. I just hope I have the right things. I'll have to ask Dana and Vicky about their findings. I will also take a trip out to Rippon Lea House and Gardens soon to analyse it for the first assignment for AIM723. So I'm feeling more prepared for that. Oh drat. I'm meant to return a book for that assignment and I haven't even read it. Oopsies. I might have to see if I can renew it. The others aren't due for a while. Tomorrow is my job trial at The Mess Hall. I need to go shopping afterwards for presents for the housemates. Then Sunday is moving day! Eep. I'm so excited to be settled and feel more at home than I do at Kirsten's as it's not and never will be my home. Not that the back packers will but it's closer to having my own space. I bought a ticket to see Karnivool at the Corner Hotel on the 9th of June! I'm so exited. Nicole Tweeted about it earlier today and I bought it on my way here to Uni. I'm so excited. Now all I need to do is get the Seekae ticket and I'll be set. I might even go and see The Cat Empire! I'm so excited. This is what I've been missing being here in Melbourne. It's what everyone's doing and I want to do it too. So I shall. Nicole will be my gig Yoda. I'm sure of it. Right. Better go back 'home'. Dinner? Oh it's Friday. Everywhere will be busy. I might actually get some thai although I do have some spaghetti back 'home'. Hmm. Oh, I talked to Centrelink this morning and apparently I had been being paid the wrong amount. I'll be getting more. Maybe I can go and buy a new laptop soon! I had better wait until I get settled in a home though. Yes, I"ll wait. I'm glad I"ll be getting more money though.

A house with Nicole

So, I got a Twitter message from Nicole last night, Sarah's ex flatmate, asking me to move in with her when she arrives on the 20th of April! It won't be that soon so I'm looking into short-term accommodation so I can give Kirsten back her room. I've been there for a month and now I am slowly understanding that it's okay not to be settled yet because the right place for me is still in my future. I believe that it'll be what I'm looking for with Nicole and her Canadian friend. The friend wants to love on the East, which suits me very well, and I know I can trust Nicole and will feel like it's my home too. I can't wait! Now I just have to find some short-term accommodation. I asked G about her family here as she said to me if I get stuck I can ask her so I did. She's going to look into it for me. Yahoo! That might turn up something nice and cheap too but still with wonderful people. I'm so excited.

Today I went out to Uni and I'm proud of myself as I navigated the library and got a load of books for my assignments. I spent a few hours on the internet gathering resources so I'm psyched to start putting it all together over the weekend. I am worried about the deadline for both of the creeping up on me. I'll be alright. For a while now I have wanted to go and study in a park, but I think it might be a little tricky at this stage as I need my laptop. One day I'll do it. I really need to work on my other blog about all the little wonderful things. Maybe soon. Probably not. Better go meet Jess now for shopping! Vintage bikes is the goal. I also need fabric paint for the awesome white canvas shoes I started working on to turn them into Oxfords thanks to Miss James. I'll have to put a picture up on my new blog. Great way to kick it off! Go me.

Richmond!!!

I feel like a bit of an idiot! I was just doing some searching on Gumtree for rooms and found I was looking in the wrong area for Richmond/Hawthorn! So I changed the settings and I have contacted two people about rooms. I really hope I hear back soon.

Tonight was lovely. After a day at the Mission helping Monica put things onto the new shelves we got for our new archive room we went out for drinks with Andrea, maybe the CEO of the Mission or something important like that, and Kate Spinks who I met up with the day after I first arrived here and set me up with Monica and the Mission. I felt like a grown up. I've never really gone out for those kind of drinks with a few girlfriends and now I have! Andi and I did a few times but it's not quite the same. Just different. We went to the bar around the corner from the World Trade Centre where we go to the coffee shop a lot and it's also where Kate works at the Police Museum. Very central to all of us. Then Monica dropped me home. Yay!

I dropped off my first assignment this afternoon. I took the train out to Burwood, which took about 33 minutes, 5 minutes to walk to the tram stop to get to Uni, then 10 minutes on the tram, so it doesn't actually save me much time in the end. It was a much nicer trip out though. I do like trains. If it stopped closer to the Uni it would be perfect but alas it doesn't quite work that well. If I get a room in Richmond I won't need to bother switching from train to tram. I'll already be saving time by living closer. I really hope I get one of the ones I contacted tonight. They seem really great. Although the second one asked for a professional [worker] and I'm not so I might not get a look in. Andrea said she's going to talk to some people at the Mission to see if I can have one of the rooms in the Mans they call it, which is where the live-in Chaplain used to live, but it has now been furnished and students are moving in. It's out of my price range but Andrea might get me a good deal at least for a bit while I'm looking for somewhere else. Then again that might be a waste of time and effort to lug all of my extra things around with me. I'll just have to get a place in Richmond, which is what I wanted all along!!

Tomorrow I might go to Lygon St and to Savers and do some grocery shopping. I also need to get some more homework done, preferably relating to the second and third assignments for the first unit so I can get those underway before starting anything related to the second unit. That's the only thing I hate about the way the course is structured. Never mind. It'll all work out just fine. It's a bit stressful but I'm not actually doing much work. Haha. Doing something might fix that.

Family chats and no room

I just had a lovely chat to my family. Once again they were all at Margate having dinner sadly without me. I'd love to be there right now just for the evening. Once again I wish I could disaparate there and back [Harry Potter] but alas I cannot.

Today I was at the Mission moving all the boxes from the Archive room upstairs to what I believe will be our new room. It's much bigger and we're getting filing cabinets tomorrow so I'll head there between 10 an 11 to help out. After that I'll head to Uni and hand in my first assignment! I can't wait for that. One down, plenty more to go.

I went and saw a room this afternoon, very spur of the moment, but it had been taken just before I got there. It wasn't what I was looking for anyway but the woman drove me back to Kirsten's which was nice. The place had 9 rooms. Enough said. It was like one of those Girl Guide camps, very dormitory. Not my scene. Anyway, tomorrow after I get back from Uni I'll head to Lygon Street and check out the noticeboard I've heard about for room ads. Hopefully there will be a winner for me amongst them. Time will tell.

I'm consumed by house and money issues at the moment so I'm a bit boring. I can't wait to get settled and start unpacking and decorating. I hope I get something by next week. I really hope the one on Monday night is the one. Who knows. I'll apply for a few more places and see what happens. I do also need to go on a job hunt. Arrg.

I have just had a look at more houses. I might see if I can get appointments set up. I need my own room!!

Internetting in bed

So here I am, lying in Kirsten's bed while she's at Tom's, and I'm surfing the internet. Internetting doesn't get much better than this. It's so comfy! I'm glad to be relaxing as I went on a rather long and kinda pointless walk today. I went to check out a house in Coburg but I knew it wasn't going to be worth the effort and it was a much longer journey than I had anticipated. I bought the movie Nine from a convenience store on the way but that wasn't even worth it. Ahh well. I got to see more of Melbourne and I had a glimpse at Savers! One day I'll go back there.

Tomorrow I'll be at the Mission. I'm glad I'll be doing something useful. I am also glad I can use it for the basis of one of my assignments. I really need to get myself sorted Uni wise. I need to get all my research done for the second and third assignments for the first unit. Otherwise I'll stress myself out too much, which I am beginning to do. On Tuesday after class I might stay later and do some research on the Uni computers. It's all so fast there and I won't have to pay. That's the way to do it.

Once again, everything is on hold until I find a room. I hope the one in the Docklands writes back. It's in Siddeley St., which is really close to the Mission. The apartments, I presume, have access to a pool and a gym and stuff like that. Please contact me! It's so close to the city and it'd be awesome. It's just what I want!

Anyway, enough of that. I am consumed by finding a place, by finding a job, and everything else is on hold as I don't want to spend too much money. It's bugging me. I'll find a room by next week. The Monday one sounds good. We'll see.

I had better get some sleep.

My mind is all over the place

So, Marie took the room. I have set up appointments to view houses and saw two on Sunday but they weren't any good. I'm looking for a great room, a great location, AND a great set of house mates. It has to be the trifecter. I got that word off Bones. It isn't recognised on here as a word though. Ahh well. Saturday was another Roller Derby match and this time it was awesome! So much faster and entertaining. Usually I'm not good with meeting someone's friends but Jess' were nice and we had some good chats. I usually feel like I should have stayed home because I'm not so good around people socially. Sigh. That's just me. Monday we started the new unit Heritage Interpretation and I am loving it! The people have changed in the class but some of them are the same. At least Dana and Vicky are still with me. We went on a field trip on Tuesday to the Botanical Gardens for an official Aboriginal welcome, to ACCA for a tour of the exhibition and to the Shrine of Remembrance. It was so beautiful there and I loved the Gardens. I will be back soon. Today I need to finish my first assignment. I have most of it done but I might change a few things, plus it's 100 words to much but that might be alright. My mind is all over the place. I hate not having constant access to the internet at home where I can update regularly. Oh, Sunday was a wonderful day. I was smiling down the street. I met George's cousin Cate at 1030 at Babka in Brunswick St and we had a bit of a snack and a drink. She is so lovely. We went for a wander around the street and went into some shops and in one of them I bought 3 amazing skirts! I am so stoked. Two tartan and one like a very long netball skirt with the pleats. We went to some other shops and I found some cute birds like the ones dad started making out of balsa wood so I might get him some of those for his birthday for some inspiration. Then on my way back over to Nicholson St where I catch the tram to Kirsten's I stumbled upon the Rose St Market! It was so lovely. I bought some cards with cute prints on them. Yesterday wasn't so great. I filled a dam with my tears. I just wanted to go home to a place where I have succeeded. I still don't have a house here and it's bothering me. I have an appointment for tonight, one for Monday, and hopefully another in the works. I just want a room to settle into. I want to feel like I can send my belongings instead of feeling like it isn't my place too. Sigh. It'll all work out in time. I need to go on a job hunt. I will do that soon. Today I'll have a look at my resume and make a few according to which job I'm after. Bookshop jobs would be the best. I'll try and write cover letters too. I also have to study more. Eek! I'm glad there's no pressure to read the unit readers but they have valuable information in them so it's worth it if we do. I'll do what I can.

So much to say

Looking back over my last entry, I must say that the Roller Derby was fun! I did get McDonalds, naughty me, but being a bit sick made that food help. The Derby wasn't the fastest game, as Jess told me, but it was interesting watching it all the same.

I have finished lectures for my first unit but have 3 assignments to hand in over the next few months. I love that there are no exams. It's a brilliant way to organise the diploma. Today I will try and finish the first one and hand it in early as it's due on a Friday and why would I want to go out there for 10 minutes when it takes an hour each way to get there? I'll hand it in on the Tuesday like Dana will. She's a smartie that one. Next week we start the next unit. I'm sure I'll like it but it's just that there is so much to read as well as do the assignments. I'll never get it all done. I guess that's okay because there will be time after the last 3 week unit is done to finish those readings...

Last night I went and met Amy and we had dumplings and some spring rolls for dinner. Then we went and got some 5 Seeds cider and went back to her place and hung out. I love hanging out with her. She inspires me and makes me laugh and like myself. Once I get a place I am definitely going to start working on my health and fitness. She has an amazing room. She has a double bunk-bed and instead of sleeping on the top she has the mattress underneath on the ground and has made it like a cubby, with lights and fabric draped all around. I might do that when I get a room, but I might not. I was telling her how I am not very improvisational and that I have to see things to get inspired. I'm no good at thinking amazing things up. So in a way, the cubby would be awesome to have but a nice bed might be nice also. I'll think about it. It might be hard to put fairy lights up otherwise.

On Monday night I went over to Marie's and we applied for 3 places online. Now it's a bit redundant as what we'll do is print the applications out and take them filled out and prepared to the real estate agent there as one of the receptionists Marie talked to frowned upon filling out forms before having seen the property. So that is what we'll do. We're going to meet up at 330 today and fill out more forms, haha, then go see the first of 3 houses scheduled for the week. We have one today, one tomorrow and one Friday. Busy! I hope they are all fantastic so we can get them all then decide. I'm not sure if Elizabeth will be our third.

After that, I met Kirsten and Tom and we saw the last Girl with a dragon tattoo movie, oh, The Girl Who Played With Fire, that's what it's called! I keep forgetting. I wished I could have seen it with mum as per our tradition but never mind. I liked seeing how it ended. I had had a big dinner at Marie's so I was very full at the movie, even though I got popcorn and an ice cream. Hmm.

What else is new? Not a lot. I tried a wig on at Amy's. She shaved her hair for the Leukemia fundraiser I think it was so she and her bf Cal went and got her a wig. It's long and pink! Hehe. I hate my hair right now so I think I'll get a normal one and try that sometimes. I also need a bike. Shopping!

I need to apply for some jobs. I had best do that now.

Housemate success!

Just a quite little update but I met my new house-mate-to-be, Marie. Marii nor Maree just in case you were wondering. She gets called Maree all the time. Ahh dear. Anyway, we're going to get a place in North Melbourne soon and will hopefully have a third person to join us. It's going to be great! She's really nice and does photograph at RMIT. I'm sure we'll get along great. She's nice and cruisy. I'm really looking forward to being able to unpack and start decorating my own room. The houses in North Melbourne look really sweet too. Perfect! More on this later. Off to the first meeting of the Deakin Enviro Club. Met up with Zain this morning too and got some nice shoes in town. Right. must get a tram now. I'll be late. Eek.

Errands and 31*

Oh my gosh it has just hit 31 degrees and I have errands to run. Luckily, last night and today the fan has been on in Kirsten's room and it is just wonderful. I'm afraid to go outside but I need to get --

+ Cleaning supplies for the house. That's my job as a current household member, temporary or not.
+ New stockings and those knee-length shorts to wear while exercising.
+ Running shoes.
+ Cereal, marge, and replacement Mars Bars for Kirsten as I stupidly had hers as a snack.
+ More highlighters from Office Works and while I'm there, an ecobutton.

I don't particularly want to leave the house but I do need to. I'll be too busy with Uni tomorrow and will just want to go straight home afterward. Also, I have stopped studying because running out of highlighter ink is putting a mental block on my abilities. Arr.

I might leave it another hour and slowly get ready. If I overexert myself I'll lose my energy, especially in this kind of head. I can't stand the heat.

A lot of not much plus Hotmail!!

I'm looking through my old Hotmail account and some of the emails are funny and sweet, like from my friend Grace who isn't really my friend anymore. We don't hang out, that's what I mean, but you can't always stay in contact with everyone I suppose. Friends come and go like all people do. I was having a look in it originally to keep the account open, because I use it for my Facebook account as that's the one I started with and can't change it. I found some from my sister but I'm not sure where we both were at the time. It's as if one of us wasn't living at home, or like I was on a holiday but the year is wrong, so I went back to the start and it's kinda interesting. I haven't read many but want to figure out the ones with my sister. I might have moved out at that stage so it might be then. I guess that makes sense.

I feel like I'll be studying for the whole year non-stop. I am having a break now and my head feels better for it but there is so much to do. One thick book/reader each week would be enough but there are assignments on top of that and there isn't much of a break between the units. I hope it goes okay.

Had a look at some houses online last night with Kirsten. She found me some possibilities and I have contacted some and am just waiting now. Will set up an appointment for another Hawthorn one on Tuesday afternoon for maybe Wednesday but from the phone call I'm not sure if the person is what I'm looking for. She had an accent, possibly Indian, and I'm not racist but I just want someone like me, that's all. I'll find the right one eventually. She might be perfect! I won't know until I try.

I talked to mum this morning and it was nice to catch up with her and hear the gossip, the happenings. Megan and Joe are getting married tomorrow. I'm sad that I won't get to see it. I wasn't formally invited, maybe because they knew I was going away, but I'm sad I'll miss it anyway. I'll see some pictures.

I wrote an email to my aunts, the ones that were just out from the UK. I miss having them around. I can't wait to go and visit for years and see them more often. That will be nice.

Can't think of anything else to write. Hmm.

Mini update

I am currently in the city on the internet in a cool cafe Jess introduced to me when we met up. I tried to look at houses but nothing's quite in my price range for just me. I haven't heard back from the Mary St place yet but there is another one I might check out this afternoon after I come back from Uni. The unit reader[s] I need are in so I'll go and get them then check out this place. I can go get the key from the real estate, which I'll have to figure out where to go to first while I'm on the internet. Tonight I'll talk to mum and dad and maybe James and George. They'll all be having dinner at home and I'm so excited to talk to them and tell them all about how Uni is going. I love the field trips. It's so much better than sitting in class! Eep. I did a little shopping and got myself some new movies, more period dramas. I can't wait to watch them. I got some Caesar salad from Sumo Salad and it was horrible but at least I've filled myself up. Now I just have to find somewhere to get a key cut and head to Uni and back then check out this house. Better get on the road!

Day 2 and horoscopes

Oh my gosh I am broken. I have a headache and feel weird. It must be the heat and all the learning. Today at Uni we had a lecture in the morning then went to the Schwerkolt Cottage and Historical Museum. It was quite amazing. I got a lift from a lady there and back to Kirsten's and I am so glad to be back. I'm frustrated about not having my own place though. I don't want to outstay my welcome here.

A nice, inspiring and through-provoking horoscope for me today --

If you are looking for security, Scorpio, you will have to find it in yourself -- not in exterior forces like money, prestige, power, or other people. All of those can come and go. There are no guarantees. The only way to gain confidence and self esteem is to build it internally. That begins with faith -- faith in yourself, faith in your abilities, faith in those who love you, and faith in the universe. Now more than ever you need to trust that the cosmos knows what you need, and will provide it. When you can reach a sense of balance in that regard, you will gain a sense of security that no one can shatter.

My horoscope from Saturday the 5th --

If you have been feeling stressed and pressured recently by money or security-related issues, you will soon be able to breathe a sign of relief. New opportunities to increase your income and add greater stability to your financial outlook will occur just when you need them most. In the meantime, don't give up hope, and don't do anything that may cause your situation to become worse -- such as borrowing money or making a financial commitment of any kind. Over the next few months, your situation could improve to the point that you will wonder why you were ever so worried about it in the first place.

I truly hope this is true, that things improve. I do feel stressed and pressured but next Monday I will receive my Centrelink payment and that gives me comfort. The money side is a bit stressful but my main concern is finding a place to live. I want to live by myself, and as the horoscope above points to, I have to have faith in myself in that even though I will feel lonely sometimes, I am doing the best thing for myself at this time and I have friends around and can call my family whenever I want or need to. It's also about getting myself and my life organised. I want to get into the routine of great habits and I believe that living in a share house will restrict this. I can only rely on myself and by living alone I will have to be self-sufficient, which will help me grow in many ways. I just hope something turns up soon. Kirsten's laptop isn't loading the real estate page properly so I'm having a hard time.

For right now, I might get something to eat and have a rest while watching a movie, maybe Easy A. I watched Marie Antoinette a few times and I really like it. I need to send it to mum as it was her idea for me to buy it for her. It was my idea to watch it first. I love those period dramas. I belong in one. Sigh. Hopefully I will feel better soon.

Weekend re-cap and my first day

Wow. I haven't written since Friday. A lot and not a lot has happened since then. I'll start with Friday night.

Friday night was the houses combined house-warming and for Kirsten's birthday as well as a celebration of the other housemates birthdays which were a month or two ago. Lots of people came and I had a bit of fun, but most of the time I just wanted to leave but I couldn't. I went out and socialised though and had some nice enough chats. I like Kirsten's friend Tina a lot. She's lovely. Towards the end I had a really nice drink with The Germans, as Kirsten calls them, Kat and Lena. Kat is with Stefan and Lena is their friend visiting. They made an awesome drink with muddled lime, 1 shot of vodka, 1 shot of lime cordial, and lots of crushed ice. I had two of those and didn't leave enough time to get sober before I went bed. I wasn't drunk, but feeling buzzed. I was hungover in the morning. Not fun. It sucked because I got into bed at probably 2 or 3 or something but couldn't sleep because I was worried someone would come into Kirsten's room with me in there and harass me. I put my heavy suitcase in front of the door but I was still a bit paranoid and completely aware of what was going on despite trying to nap. It didn't. So Saturday I was very tired.

On Saturday we cleaned the house. I was meant to go to a trial at Kamel but was feeling sick, and had been a bit sick, so I called up and canceled. I haven't heard anything from them since then. Hmm. I don't mind though because it will be better to get a job in the suburb I end up living in. It's easier that way. If I ever find a place to live that is. I want to live alone if possible. After the cleaning, Kirsten and I went to The Great Northern nearby for some chips and a coke/diet coke. The others joined us [Sandi, the other housemate, and her new bf Nick, Stefan and Lena] then Tom [Kirsten's bf] and two of his friends came along. We didn't stay too long. Home after that and a pretty early night. Kirsten stayed over at Tom's for the night so I got the comfy bed. I've been staying on the floor on lots of blankets and a thin camping blow up mattress, which is fine, but the bed is comfier. I have it again tonight too.

Sunday I slept in and it was bad because I found it hard to sleep last night. Once I got up and had some breakfast I went into the City. I wanted to find a backpack for Uni, and I did. I went to this Traveler and Souvenir shop and got a simple backpack for $20. Great! It does the trick. I also went to the National Gallery of Victoria. I didn't see all of it as it was an extremely hot day so I will go back another time and see the rest. I wanted to go to the Botanical Gardens but once again the heat zapped me of any energy so I went to the Victoria Gardens just across the road from the NGV. Then I went back to Kisten's. Later that night she went for a run with a friend and I came along and rode her old bike. It was nice and refreshing as the weather was still nice but the wind in my face as I rode was beautiful. I loved it. We went around this pretty big circuit twice not far from the house. Then I tried to get to sleep and failed.

Today I had my first day of Uni! I thought I was going to be late but the tram driver was awesome. They kept dinging the bell to make cars get out of the way. I still don't understand why on earth they should be allowed to drive over the tram tracks the same way the tram goes. It's ridiculous! It's totally insane and I think it should be dis-aloud. Anyway, I got to the classroom and the lecture hadn't started yet but almost everyone was there. I sat in the back. The lecturer introduced herself and we all did the same. The other students have amazing backgrounds and at least two did a Bachelor of Archaeology at LaTrobe. I'm so jealous. Maybe there's a postgraduate course in archaeology I can do. I'd love that. Then we got into the lecture. Well we read through the unit outline then got into the lecture. We have 3 assignments, one of which I have done part of a draft for tonight, and I'm worried about the last two. The first one should be easy enough to knock off, but it's the others I'll struggle with I believe. I'll get some help. This unit isn't all in the classroom though, which is exciting. We went to the Deakin Art Gallery in the afternoon and will be doing similar excursions on almost each other day we're there. We have 6 days and on 5 of them we'll be out in the field. Pretty exciting. We had a look in the small Deakin gallery then went outside and saw the many sculptures around the campus. Yet another hot day so I struggled. I went on the computers for a bit after the 'lecture' ended then went home. Got off the tram and caught the train but I'm not sure it was much of a time-saver, although the tram was going extremely slow. Kirsten made a too-spicy-for-me curry and I did some homework!

Tomorrow should be good. I need to get up and leave earlier to be able to get myself something to eat for lunch. There wasn't much available at Uni and I'll have to go to the cafe early to secure an apple and cinnamon muffin. Today I got a blueberry one and it was nice but not the same. I want to buy a salad or something so I'll have to go in a lot earlier than I did today. That can be done. I didn't like the stress. I can't remember where we're going tomorrow afternoon but it should be good. Then I'll have Thai Culinary for dinner. Mmm.

There are a few more houses I need to have a look at online. There is a bit of a crappy looking one in Richmond. The ad says it's good for older people or something but I may as well take a look. You can grab the keys from the real estate and go to town. There is one in Elwood that looks nice but Kirsten says that's ages away. I remember going to St Kilda with Amy in 2005 and loved the area but I seem to recall that Elwood wasn't that far away from there and the tram ride didn't seem to take all that long. I guess we'll see. Sarah knows a guy [Nick Cupit] who is moving to Melbourne soon and looking for someone to live with. He went to our high school and apparently knows me as I have served him at thebeach, not that I remember, but Sarah and I talked on the phone about it and us living together. I'd rather my own place, at least I think so, but I might get lonely. Then again I might feel resentment living with others, regretful. There's no need to be scared. I'll be busy enough and can go and see my friends when I feel sad. I don't want to impose on Kirsten and her flatmates for too much longer. It's been a week already! Crazy. Hopefully I get the Hawthorn house for $150 a week in Mary St but I've started looking at what's closer to $200 but still under. The Elwood one is $165 I think. Hmm. I'll see what happens.

Museum Studies

I just rang the Uni bookshop and my book is on the way. I'll get an email about it once it's in and ready for me to pick up. It's not of high priority because apparently there are only 20 enrolled in the course! That's insane! I can't believe how few people there are in total, but it'll make it awesome and give us more time to get to know one another and the lecturers. I think it's going to be great! I really can't wait to start. Monday can't come soon enough. It has been 6 months in the making so there's that...

Kirsten's birthday

Today is Kirsten's birthday! We had cake for breakfast. I had cereal either side of that so I don't feel so bad. The cake was alright. I don't have anywhere in particular to be today so I'm struggling a bit with what to do. I need to go to Centrelink and I need to call the Deakin bookshop because I'm missing one set of readers, which I didn't realise. I had listed all my units as online so they sent me the books, but I changed them to on campus study. I changed one back when I saw that there were the readers but not the other as the bookshop didn't mention anything about readers. I looked online last night and they don't have the ones I need in stock so I'll call them soon and ask if there are any anywhere. There is an online copy but I prefer having the physical book. So there's that! I will also vacuum this place for Kirsten before the birthday party tonight [combined] and I need to get in contact with George's cousin about having a meet up just for fun. There are some other little things I can't think of.

Yesterday I had my first day of volunteering at the Mission to Seafarers. It's so cruisy there. Monica taught me how to catalogue photographs so I did that for most of the day. The photographs were of the stained-glass windows in the Saint Peter the Mariner's Chapel and I found it hard to describe the and use religious or olden-day terms. I'm not so good at that. She got me to bring my laptop to do some scanning on but I didn't bring the CD drive thinking I wouldn't need it so I didn't actually use it. It was a bit of a waste to lug it around there and back. We finished at around 3pm and I went and met Nicole, Sarah's now ex flatmate from Tassie. We had a drink [hot chocolate for me, iced mocha for her] and a chat. Then I did some shopping and came back here. I did some more study, found lots of useful things on the Deakin website about unit resources and unit guides. Now I just have to find out about that last reader. It's for Monday so that's a bit annoying. Arrg.

Tomorrow I have that trial at Kamel. I'm not looking forward to it only because I'm used to not working anymore and I love it! I want to keep not working and just get Centrelink. I wonder if with all the study I'm sure I'll be doing if I'll have time for a job. I'll have one, hopefully two days of volunteering work, and that leaves three days. I might have to work on a few of them but I'll need one day free for sanity and for studying but I'm sure I'll always have to study. I take a long time to read one chapter so having lots of breaks in between works the best for me. Drat it.

I had a lovely chat to mum, Sarah, James, dad and George last night in that order. It was strange being on the other side as we usually call people who are far away and now that's me. It's strange not being there for the dinner I miss that. I didn't even know about it and that makes me a little sad. Now I get what Sarah meant about being out of the loop. It was so easy living there knowing everything that was going on. Thinking about it makes me a little sad now! And feeling crap about this trial is getting me down more. It would be nice to disapparate there Harry Potter style for lunch or something lovely. If only. I was thinking of going back for Easter but I had a look at flights for the 21st to the 25th or something and it'll be $300! That's not cool. I'll check for cheaper ones. I might have a week off Uni at some stage but I'm not quite sure yet. I might go then. Who knows.

It feels so natural and relaxed being in Melbourne and yet so much, or not so much, is still happening back home. It's strange to be missing out on that. It makes me sad that I'm missing out on seeing Etta grow up more and more. I'll be back to visit eventually and not let her go. Hehe.

I really want to get started on my running training. Once I'm settled in a house I'll have to start my 6-12 week program. Kirsten mentioned the half-marathon. She's going to enter and Sandi, one of her housemates, is also going to enter and yet she hasn't trained much. It's not until October so hopefully Sandi and I will be ready by then. Plenty of time. I really hope I get the Hawthorn house. Please! I doubt it but please!

What else is news? Not much. I can't wait to start Uni on Monday but first I have to get over the hurdle of this darn trial at Kamel. I might really like it and might even get a bit of cash for it which would be awesome. I'll just have to endure it. It won't last forever. It's a shame it's so far away though. I could do Friday and Saturday day shifts there for a while. I want to keep Sundays free. I hate working on Sundays.

I went into the Telstra shop yesterday and upgraded my internet from 500mb to 1g. I can't wait for it to kick in. I didn't even have to pay! I'm so excited about that. All I need now is a new computer with internet that works. Something lighter and smaller maybe. I'm not sure if I should get one of the mini laptops or just a normal sized one. Depends if it's really light or not. I like the idea of taking a small one traveling for the internet and storing photos. One day I might have both.

I will call the Uni bookshop and see what they say about the books.