I'm back!

I am so bad. I haven't written in months. It's not that I didn't want to. First it was the fact that I didn't have regular internet access. Then I got used to not writing, but now some major developments have arisen that I want to document. I'm just lazy but I want this hiatus to be over.

Working at Velduo is going good as usual. I can't wait until I have a 'real' job though in cultural heritage. That'll be amazing. I have been working occasionally at Watermark as well and that's fine too. More cruisy, which I like. It's comparable to working at Relish, as Veludo is to thebeach. I like that I'm getting cash in hand so I can get Centrelink as well. I'm naughty but everyone does it.

Uni is going well. There have been so so so many assignments to do. My assignment schedule is insane. Seriously I hate it. I'm in the second 'trimester' now, currently in the middle of World Heritage. I have already finished the on-campus classes for Collections and Movable Cultural Heritage and handed in the first assignment for that yesterday. I'm still finishing off assignments for Cultural Landscapes. The last one was due yesterday but I had to get an extension because the case study I chose was too hard. I'm focusing on Sullivan's Cove now and its management issues. Once I find those I will feel like I'm in a better position. At the moment I'm a bit stressed about it because I don't have much to write about. Drat those management issues!! Where are you? My last assignment is due on the day after my birthday, but I'm planning to get that done earlier. I don't want it to ruin my birthday! Then all I'll have is the field placement unit and I'll be set! I'm planning to do that back home. My plans have certainly changed, and all because of the results of one night.

On Thursday the 14th of July, Nicole, Glenn and I hung out. We had ciders at the Young and Jackson's rooftop cider bar near Flinder's Street Station then went to Bimbos for $4 pizzas. It was a lot of fun. Nicole and Glenn had worked together at Wrest Point and I knew him through Yorick, through Apples, through Helen. He had contacted me a few months earlier saying that we should catch up while he was in Melbourne and we did. At Bimbos, Glenn sent me a text message while sitting next to me. He was going to say something, and I bugged it out of him. He said he wasn't sure if he should say it. The text said that he thought we flirted well. We all decided to go and see Harry Potter 7 Part 2 at the movies and he had his arm on the arm rest and I took it. We ended up kissing. They were the best kisses ever. We all caught a cab back to the YHA, then Glenn went back to his hotel. We met up the next day. I tried to get out of working at Watermark but I couldn't, but we met up between my shift there and the one at Veludo. I met him at the Flinder's steps. We caught the free tram to Spencer Street then caught the 96 to St Kilda and sat on the beach. He was carrying all his luggage with him. We talked and laughed. On the free tram he couldn't believe it when I said I was 24. On the 96 we were facing each other on different sides of the tram and had our legs connecting. Once we were walking on the beach, I got him to stop and we kissed. Then we sat down on the beach and talked. We walked up to Veludo and stood outside and kissed and hugged, and he held his arms up a few times to make us stop touching, probably because it was getting a bit heated. He he he. Then I went to work. We met up a week later when I went back to Tassie for Etta's first birthday [July 24th]. We met outside the Maritime after I had finished talking to Rona about an assignment. He had shaved his mountain man beard. We walked around Battery Point and talked and talked. Then we sat on a bench near the back of TMAG near the courtyard before he went off and I had dinner at Cool Thai and $10 cosmopolitans with Emma, Sarah, and Holly. After that, Sarah and I went back to hers. Glenn picked me up from there. We went back to his place and hung out in his room. I had a look at his DVD collection and pointed out all the ones I liked. He groaned because we have a lot of things in common. I got lost on the way back to his bedroom from the bathroom. I stood still. He found me and didn't laugh as such but said I'll be alright in a cute I like you way. We undressed each other, although he went to the bathroom and came back in only his red shorts/pants/undies. The sex was amazing, seriously the best ever. It was so nice sleeping next to him. We did it again in the morning, had an amazing shower together, and went out for breakfast down the road. We hung out at his place for the rest of the day until I went home for dinner. On Saturday we hung out again and I stayed over. I can't remember what we did. On Sunday morning we had a spa together. It was awesome. Then I went home quickly before heading over to James and George's for Etta's birthday party. Super cute. Then I hung out with Sophie at thebeach, then Monika, then home for tea before heading back up to see Glenn. That morning I had gotten a bit sad. I also got sad before I left. Backtracking a bit, we had been texting all week and kinda built up the sex, or unwrapping me, because I was his late birthday present and him my early present. He he. Amazing. So we hung out for an hour and a bit before he went to cricket and I headed to James and George's so James could take me out to the airport. Glenn said to me to tell him if things get too hard to tell him, to promise. I did. I was sad to go. After that we texted and talked on the phone and I planned another trip down in two weeks, just to see him. I felt helpless before that trip was booked. I just came back from this second trip three days ago. I went down on Monday morning. Sarah picked me up and I hung at her place until Glenn got me at 4. We went to his place then picked up James and headed to his place to see Etta and G and have pizza! Sarah joined us. Glenn likes my family. They liked him too. Then we went to his house. We were going to see a movie but I was super tired so we hung out in his room instead. It was awesome. More great sex. We put onSource Code to watch but we saw none of it. None of the entire thing... He he he. On Tuesday he went to work. I studied in his bed. Then I met mum for some Spotlight shopping, then met Glenn after that. We went to the Post Office briefly then walked to my car near Sarah's in West Hobart then went to his place. We watched some anime then had a date at Mee Wah. So fancy! He has an alergy to seafood but he didn't get sick. Then we saw Hanna at the State. It was awesome. We were going to get Cold Rock but it was closed by the time the movie got out. Sad. Then we went back to his place and I stroked his back with soft fingers for ages. He said it was the best night ever and that he had never felt so relaxed before. It was bliss. On Wednesday morning we got up at 930. He was meant to go back to the Post Office and get his passport photos done, then see the passport people, but had to change plans. We had a shower together, he shaved then got back in. We went to the Post Office and were talking about heavy stuff and I got a bit upset. I had promised myself that if I came on that trip I wouldn't cry, because otherwise I wouldn't have seen him for a whole month instead of having a two week break in between. He wanted me to look at him when I started getting emotional but I didn't want to. I had to go outside and have a breather and get myself under control. He said he has the same feelings as me but I'm more open about it. I cry too easily. It's true. Then we walked down to Salamanca, I took a photo of the Tasmanian Mission to Seafarers, who knew right!?, then we went to the Vietnamese Kitchen for 'breakfast' and had more deeper conversations. Then we went to Margate for an hour for lunch, a play with Etta, then he took me to the airport. He dropped me off and he left reasonably quickly. I thought he was going to come in but it turned out that I didn't have to wait long. I missed him already and still do. The flight went by with my nodding off and doing that head jerk thing. Slightly embarrassing! I got back to Melbourne and he sent me a text, and he said he was glad I was safe. We've talked on the phone most days since, not that many but still. We're going to do a Google+ Hangout tomorrow. He's coming over at the start of September before he heads to Europe until the end of September. Then he'll be back with me. We'll hang for around 5 days either side of his trip. We'd better have a house by then! Then I'm going back home from the 24th of October to the 3rd of November to be with him and to celebrate turning 25. Woah. Hopefully I can do another 10 days in November. I want to go back to Hobart to be with him. He's concerned because he doesn't want me to give anything up to be with him. I'm not 100% sure about it but I want to be with him full-time and I think we have potential. He likes the idea but yes, he trusts me, but is concerned. Sweet. I have my own concerns but I'll only do it if I'm sure. I'll have Etta and my family there, a job in cultural heritage, I'll get my own place, go to the gym, experience more of Hobart by Glenn's side, know how far we can go, and if it doesn't turn out how I hope, then I can go off and travel the world as originally planned. I want to do that anyway while I'm back there, if I move back. Time will tell. We're not deciding anything yet. I just want to be with him. We talked for quite a while this afternoon. For the whole tram ride back from St Kilda and even more while I walked to the YHA and I even sat outside for a bit. He clarified that he sending me that text in Bimbos was his green light. I wasn't sure if grabbing his hand wasn't what he wanted, because he's a bit sarcastic and when we were talking in the Vietnamese Kitchen he made it sound like it was my fault, but that was just Glenn being Glenn. We're in a relationship now, he said. I don't regret it. He said when I was back and we were walking that he only regrets us because of how it could end, not because we would fall out of love or one of us cheated on the other, but because we wouldn't be able to see each other enough. How sad. It's a funny situation but I wouldn't take it back. Never. Ever. His sister Laura likes me already and has been in contact with me on Facebook. She's never done this with any of his ex's. I like that. I'll meet them all in October when I'm down. He he. I really like this one. I think he's great. He's mature. He's 28. He used to be in the circus. He's still performing a bit but he busted his shoulder so that ruined things a bit. He has great hair. He's taller than me but still short. He's beautiful. He things I'm beautiful. He makes me laugh. We're cruisy when we're together and we both love that. No stress. We both hate that we have had to have all these intense talks because of the distance but he doesn't mind. He's charming, but he said he's argumentative. He's a Taurus. He smells great. He likes my bum. I think it's too big. I just love being with him. I miss him and I want to be in the same place as he is. Sigh. I think we could go pretty far. He was shocked when I told him Y and I had been together for 4 years. His longest relationship was 2.5 years. I've been with more people than he has and earlier. I've done drugs. He hasn't. I'm so naughty compared to him. He is a bit funny about the age gap. I'm not. He doesn't care too much about if we do or don't have sex. That suits me fine. It used to be a chore but not now. I miss his hugs and kisses. Oh that boy. We're part-time. I don't like that but it's better than nothing. I'm surprised I slotted back into my life here so easily. I cried a little that night, only because I was exhausted, but fine after that. I just wish I were there experiencing life alongside him. I still have him, just not physically. I can't wait until we get time together again. If Nicole, Amy and her partner Gav/Gavin, aren't in a house before the start of September, we'll stay in a room together somewhere, maybe at the YHA, or somewhere else, but it'd be so nice to have him in my own room, to celebrate getting one. We're so compatible. I love it. We are alike in many ways. Or have the same interests. He said he'd been looking for someone who likes anime as much as he did for most of his life. That's me. We're dating. We're in a relationship. He is friends with all his ex's. I like that idea. I'm not with mine. I like him a lot. So much.

So that's enough for now.

Nicole, Amy and Gavin and I are all looking for a 3 bedroom house together. Hopefully we have somewhere before September, as was the aim, but perhaps not. By September for sure. They're fairly desperate. I've been here for 5.5 months. Things haven't gone as planned but that's okay. I've learned a lot and I am grateful I'm here.

Now it's time for a quick chat to my parents to find out what they think of Glenn and then homework! Sigh.

Leaving day

I am completely crazy. At least that's what I was thinking last night and this morning, but now I have drilled it in that I can always go to Melbourne instead if Sydney doesn't work out it's not so scary. I've been talking to Jan and Fra about it all morning while they helped me pack. It's my sister's fault. She cried last night after I dropped her home from the movies and it made me cry and think that I'm crazy for leaving everyone fabulous behind. It is crazy but I need this adventure. Sometimes I feel brave but last night/this morning I felt stupid. I will give it a week and see how I go. I can always come back. I need to enroll in classes like Burlesque and Pole Dancing and Yoga to keep me busy.

I have just changed my Deakin enrollment and I got a class reader in the mail so I'm actually getting excited about it. The course wouldn't be that bad and I'd be out in the field looking after cultural heritage. I could definitely go on archaeological digs! I'm warming to the idea of Melbourne even though I'm not a huge fan of the city. Amy did show me a great time when I was there last and a lot of my friends are there so it wouldn't be too bad at all. It sure would be a lot of fun, especially if I could move in with Holly and Ruben.

Stuff with packing wasn't going so well but Jan and Fra helped me with that and I'm pretty close to the maximum weight. It'll all be okay. I can treat going to Sydney as a little holiday, although I would love to go to the Uni there. The city is fantastic, and I'm sure it'll treat me well, so I'll stick with the plan to check out houses and look into jobs. I will be able to survive at the back packer's for a while, a week definitely, so I'll take it as it comes. Knowing I can come back in a week is making it less sad.

I had such a great night last night. I met up with Andi in the afternoon after lunch with James, Sarah, Jan and Fra at Tricycle in Salamanca. We picked up Ivy and had some nice chats. They waved me off. I didn't feel like I was leaving at the time so it didn't sink in about not seeing them for a while. I know I'll be back a lot. It doesn't feel like I'll be that far away. After hangs with Andi I picked up Sarah, then Holly, then met Emma in North Hobart and we had Cool Thai for dinner. After that we went to Onba and had 4 drinks each and had some wonderful chats. I'll miss those girls. Emma will see if she can get a transfer from her job here at AAMI to a branch in Sydney and she might join me there in a few months, maybe. That would be fun if she did. Holly got me one of her Hiiragi tee's which I love, and I had hugs with both of those lovely girls/women. They are great friends. Then Sarah and I went to see Burlesque again and I felt guilty for not being home earlier to hang with family. Drat. Sarah and I said bye in the car until I ran out and hugged her again. We chatted and cried a bit. It was nice. Then I went home and thought how crazy I was being and now we're up to date. I can always go to Melbourne.

I am actually excited about the reader I got in the mail today. I can start studying! I'll see how I go in Sydney, and see if I get into the course or not, as I can always go to Sydney next year and do the masters in museum studies. That's definitely an option. I'll go on my little holiday, have a look at places, and jobs, and if it's not for me then Melbourne it is. I'll have more fun in Melbourne as I actually know people anyway. I'm up for fun.

It's scary that it's almost real though. I'm scared and it's making me want to back out of Sydney but this is what I've been dreaming of for a while now. And as I've said to myself before, just because I'm scared it shouldn't mean I stop doing things. I can't stop doing things because I'm scared. I'm not very good at writing. Anyway, I should go and spend some time with my aunts. Mum is coming home for 230pm and we're hitting the road at 3pm for 4pm at the airport. I'll leave at 5pm. Until next time.

The new me

So this is my new hair do. It's very short at the back and I love the cute longer bits on the sides. I really like this hair cut. I don't have to do much to it. My showering/hair-styling routine has changed a little but not so much to make it an inconvenience. Actually, it feels better! I feel like I don't have to do much to it and I don't. It's light and always looks nice. I don't have a useless pony tail that always looked funny. I'm glad I cut my hair.

I turn 24 in a week. I can't believe how fast it crept up! I realised a few weeks ago that my birthday was coming up but now it's almost here and it just seems so quick. I'm excited though. My next birthday year and 2011 will be great. I will finally be rid of the years spent with Yorick and I can start afresh. I'm a bit scared of being 24 though. Getting older is scary but I also enjoy it. I think for my birthday we'll have a family dinner at home and have home-made pizza's. I might go for a nice walk or to a cute cafe and treat myself. I always like to do something like that, something just for me, something special on my birthday. Mum's having friends over that day so I'll stick around for that then go off for a bit and come home for dinner. Mud cake! I'm hoping for some gift vouchers to The Picture Gallery, a lovely store in Hobart that sells beautiful framed pictures. I always walk past it and wish for many of them. I think my sister will get me one and I'll be getting some new ugg boots from mum and dad. I'll go track them down early next week and let mum know where to get them from.

I've been looking into Melbourne and Deakin University for museum studies courses. They have the Graduate Certificate and Diploma's there but only have the Masters in Cultural Heritage, which wouldn't be so bad. I'm applying at the moment. It'll be an alright substitute for Sydney. I might even be able to share a house with Holly and Ruben. Carly and Amy are there and I would love to see them more but it's not my own adventure. It's not my fresh start. It won't be about me being independent and only relying on myself to get things done. That's part of the reason for Sydney. Plus they have a better Uni and better course. Time will tell.

A lovely sales assistant in Ruby's Room loved my new hair cut when I went in there last Wednesday and she said I should accessorise with earrings! I really want to get these heart earrings up and running. I think they will be great. I can always put them back to being necklaces and wear 3 at once. Haha. Maybe not. I love that I've finally gotten them though. I went in and got one, then went back half an hour later for the second two. There were four there but one had gone so I was lucky to get the second two. I'm glad I did. I also got a little birthday present for Emma, which I will give her tomorrow night. I need Onba. Cosmopolitans and Emma and Cool Thai make it all better.

I've bought the Union Jack bed spread for next year. I also have some armwarmers and legwarmers on the way. I love pay day.

Today I feel updateable

I have to organise my trip to Sydney soon. I might do it tonight by starting with all the activities I want to do on the Saturday at the Uni Open Day including all the times I can see the accommodation. There will be activities I won't know about until I'm there but I can plan for some things. I also want to write a list of all the places I want to see while I'm in the city, like the malls and museums and parks. I think Sunday might be museums and parks day. I have Friday from lunch time to get to my backpackers and maybe I can go shopping then and find some places to eat. I will probably get yogurt for breakfast on the Saturday while waiting for a bus to the Uni, which reminds me that on Friday I will have to go in search of the bus stop I'm to take. I can even grab some bus timetables and things like that. There is a lot to plan so that is my mission tonight.

I've been reading a book for the last few days since Sunday and I'm really proud of myself for sticking with it and not watching as much TV. It's one that blogger Danielle from Sometimes Sweet recommended and I bought off the Book Depository. It's called "The Opposite of Me" by Sarah Pekkanen and has been a great read so far. I've almost finished it and am excited to move onto the next book, one I bought for $5 a month ago. It's about philosophy. It's nice that I'm getting myself out of the TV series habit/crutch and doing something more worthwhile. Reading is good and I need to keep it up. I feel guilty when I watch too many episodes and I'm glad this week I have stopped. I watched a movie last night, "Porco Rosso" by Hayao Miayazaki, and it was nice. I really liked it and it's different to an episode. I want to stop wasting my time so much. It's my challenge. I also want to stop being lazy and organise my room and life more. I hope I get the Coles Bay job but if I don't I'll apply at the bookstores again. Working a lot will help with the laziness and help me prepare for Sydney next year.

I also have to get back into the swing of fitness. I went for a walk with the dog yesterday and am about to go with mum. I hate my lower half figure. My tummy is also included in this. My top third is fine, nice and slim, but it's the bottom thirds that suck. Arr. I want to lose 10 kilograms but I don't know how. I have to eat less. Being sick hasn't helped. I have to start going back to the gym. I'll talk to Emma about it tomorrow at Onba and maybe organise to meet her there for some sessions after she's done with work. More fun that way.

My graduation is coming up on the weekend. I have to collect my gown and hat and hood that day [Saturday], then get my sister to do something with my hair, then get back to the Uni and stay there for an hour or so before the ceremony starts. I don't know what I'll wear underneath. I assume the gown will be fairly long but will show shoes. I might have to get some nice flats or just wear my Volleys or Converse shoes. I'll wear stockings and a skirt underneath as usual but it's the shoes I'm wondering about. I'll get it sorted.

I'm going into town today to get an x-ray for my wisdom teeth for my dentist. I went there last Friday and have to have 6 cavities filled in 2 sittings. I'm going this Friday at 2pm and the Friday in a fortnight after as the one in between is when I'll be heading to Sydney. They will have to stick needles in me to numb me which I'm not looking forward to. I don't like going there and having things in my mouth only because my gag reflex is sensitive. I don't mind the pain as such but I'll be happy for it to be over and done with. It'll cost over $800 for all 6 cavities, which mum and dad will front the money for, and I also have to pay for my car's service. It's been making funny noises lately and has to have some work done on it. It's there today so hopefully the bill isn't too high. I worked for 4 days last week so I'll be getting a big pay as I did some long hours so hopefully that will be enough to cover the car service as well as having some left for Sydney. We will see.

Off for that walk now! Prepared to be worn out and puffing.

The happy haps

What's news with me? My crazy friend Emma and I went out for drinks last night to Onba as per usual. We started off with one drink there, then had dinner at Cool Thai whilst reading our magazines, then went back to Onba and apparently had another 4 drinks. I forgot about one of them and we were quite drunk at the end. We talked about seeing a movie and finally went down to the city cinemas and saw Knight and Day because Inception wasn't on. Something about a mismatch between the internet session times and what was actually showing. I was fairly drunk so it didn't matter what we saw. It was an okay movie. We had an ice cream each and laughed a lot in the beginning, probably because we were meant to be behaving in a socially acceptable manner and found that hard, but were kind of sad about not having popcorn as they didn't have any. It was probably for the best though. We talked about so many things. I love our evenings there together. They are so fun.

I've gained a bit of weight and I hate it. I'm 65kg and it's awful. I want to be 55kg so I have to stop snacking and eat less and do more exercise. I hate it hate it hate it. Arr.

Mini-update

I had such a great night hanging out with Emma last night. She and I have so much in common, most importantly the part where our relationships are so similar. It was nice having a girls night. We're going to try and do it more often too.

Yorick and I are fine. Nothing much to report there. Just packing up stuff in the house. I have to do a load tonight.

Uni is good.

I love not working much at all. Alison isn't giving me the shifts I want though. I want Friday and Saturday nights but didn't specify that last time and she put me on for Saturday night and Sunday day. I hate days there. They truly suck.

I think I'll go to K-Mart tonight and buy some new shoes. Emma and I went there late last night and I found some cute ones for only $20!

7:50pm April 24

When we first started renting in this house, there was this cute cupboard I've been using to put my clothes in and I absolutely adore it. Since Yorick and I are about to move out, which has been delayed until roughly Monday the 10th, I asked Jon tonight if I could buy it and he just replied saying it’s mine for $20! I was thinking more like $100 but this is great! I'm so happy. I love it so much.

I saw Yorick this evening briefly before he left again for a night drinking with work mates. We had a bit of a chat, just general stuff, and at the end he said "hugs?" I’m so glad he initiated it because it’s always me and I'm sad that it's rarely ever him. I was thinking today how I wish he were more romantic and also about the fact that it will probably be me initiating catch ups once we're both settled at our new places. I want him to ask me to do something, and I've been considering waiting for him to make the first move once we’re out of this house.

At Sophie's on Monday night she said that she asked him on the weekend if he was staying in this relationship for my benefit but he said he was doing it for himself too. I'm really glad he is. It has been feeling like he’s been pulling away a bit as if trying to get some perspective and see if he truly wants to be with me and it made me sad. In some ways, he's not my ideal guy, but is that guy out there? I'm happy with Yorick. That’s enough for me now. Maybe one day it won’t be.

Tomorrow night I’m going out for drinks with Emma at Onba for $10 Cosmopolitans! Then we're going to have dinner at Cool Thai. I love this routine with her. We haven’t done it in ages but I'm so glad we are doing it tomorrow night. I need more nights like this! I'll put that on my list.

Things are piling up at the moment. I have so much homework and then there's the move to be organised it’s all getting a bit much. I'm not too stressed because I know all my homework will get done and the move will happen too. I am keeping on top of things in my mind so that’s positive. I'll be okay. It’s week 9 at Uni out of 13. Things have gone by so fast and it's strange that all the assignments are due in the next 2 weeks. In my first degree, assignments would already have been done by now so it was more cruiser, but as it is, my head has been thinking about other things so I haven't noticed how fast the semester has gone. Yikes.

I should get back to my homework now actually as there is a movie I want to watch later on. I might be able to homework in between though.