Hey happy birthday for Wednesday. Hope you're well.
I sent this one back --
Thank you. I'm very well. Hope you are too.
It shocked me as soon as I saw his name there. In the minute since I replied I've calmed down. I had wondered if he would wish me happy birthday in the days before my birthday and had forgotten about it afterwards. Here it is. I thought he would be sweet enough to remember and get in contact with me but then again I thought he might not because of his new life. I still don't know how I feel about it. I'm just glad I'm not really in contact with him anymore. I don't want to see him out tonight. I couldn't handle it. I don't want to see him for the rest of the year. Seeing his car twice in one day a few weeks ago was enough. It makes my heart pound for a minute, like seeing his name in my messages, the way it used to when I saw Royden.
This message makes me a bit sad actually. I want to speed up to next year when I'm embarking on my adventure to Sydney, if all goes to plan, and then again to when I meet the guy I'm to spend the rest of my life with. I'm sad now that my life isn't so fabulous but I know next year will be. I can't wait to meet that special guy and start the life I've always wanted. I know it will be great.
I didn't want to write something back to him that asked him anything because he wouldn't have written back again. He was short and to the point and so was I. That's all it needed to be. I don't want to see him or start anything back up again, and by that I mean talking or having false ideas about meeting up for lunch or something. I just want to let it be as it has been for a month or two so far. Now I shall stop thinking about it and get back to my episode of One Tree Hill season 8.
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