Horoscopes and love and plans

If you are looking for instant gratification in a relationship, Scorpio, forget it. It's rare that two people meet and are instantly in sync in every way. The best friendships and romances take time, and they are certainly worth the effort. If you haven't yet found the one you are looking for, it may be because you believe you are owed that immediate spark. Or, if you ware involved in a relationship that is progressing slowly, please don't rush it. If you can be patient and forgiving, you will find that it was worth the wait.

I always thought that when I'd meet the guy I was to eventually marry that I'd know instantly, like Sometimes Sweet, but maybe that is rare and maybe it's not how it'll work out for me. It hasn't been like that in the past with the relationships I've been in but that's because they weren't the one. I do believe that the names of the people we choose are similar to the one we will end up with. The three relationships I've been in have all had similar name lengths and a common letter and I think that might mean I'll end up with a similar named guy. That's just my theory. Jeremy, for example, went out with me, Anna, a girl called Ang, and is now with a girl called Hannah. Similar! I like the patterns I see in relationship matches.

I forgot to put love on my list of wants. I want to find love and settle down as well as study, travel and have my own house. Love is the key to my ultimate happiness and it's hard being single right now but it's for the best. I have to be strong and independent and make sure I'm ready for the next one, the right one. Holly and I have been messaging and she said it's just a bit of panic and that I don't have to go on the day I thought I would so I have time to decide what to do. She said I can always move to Melbourne if Sydney doesn't work out. I think Sydney will work out though. It's a better city in my eyes and making it there would be greater than doing the same in Melbourne. It wouldn't feel as great in Melbourne. I don't like the city and it would feel like I'm following everyone else. It's a standard thing moving to Melbourne, no offence to my lovely friends who are living there or going to live there. It's just not for me. I believe I could make it work in Sydney. It's just sad that I might not get into the Uni there. There's still time.

A birthday wish from Yorick

Yorick just sent me a message --

Hey happy birthday for Wednesday. Hope you're well.

I sent this one back --

Thank you. I'm very well. Hope you are too.

It shocked me as soon as I saw his name there. In the minute since I replied I've calmed down. I had wondered if he would wish me happy birthday in the days before my birthday and had forgotten about it afterwards. Here it is. I thought he would be sweet enough to remember and get in contact with me but then again I thought he might not because of his new life. I still don't know how I feel about it. I'm just glad I'm not really in contact with him anymore. I don't want to see him out tonight. I couldn't handle it. I don't want to see him for the rest of the year. Seeing his car twice in one day a few weeks ago was enough. It makes my heart pound for a minute, like seeing his name in my messages, the way it used to when I saw Royden.

This message makes me a bit sad actually. I want to speed up to next year when I'm embarking on my adventure to Sydney, if all goes to plan, and then again to when I meet the guy I'm to spend the rest of my life with. I'm sad now that my life isn't so fabulous but I know next year will be. I can't wait to meet that special guy and start the life I've always wanted. I know it will be great.

I didn't want to write something back to him that asked him anything because he wouldn't have written back again. He was short and to the point and so was I. That's all it needed to be. I don't want to see him or start anything back up again, and by that I mean talking or having false ideas about meeting up for lunch or something. I just want to let it be as it has been for a month or two so far. Now I shall stop thinking about it and get back to my episode of One Tree Hill season 8.