Something of my very own

My blocked ear won't go away and it is particularly bad today. I can't hear much out of it [the right one] and it's annoying me like crazy. It's been funny for maybe 5 days now, mostly at night and in the morning when I'm in bed. I can usually maneuver it to clear it but today it's not working. I've been putting ear drops in but it's still blocked. I'm mad about it.

In good news, my size 20 [12mm] buttons to cover arrived in the mail today from Etsy. I'm so happy. Holly suggested I source my fabric from there as well but it's so hard to find one-colour fabrics and I don't know what the fabric I like is called. I might have to ask for more help there. I also need to get some glue and then I can start making these earrings. I was at Holly's yesterday and she said I should write all of my ideas down in a notebook to keep and look back on when I get lost in my crafting. I have the perfect book. I got it to make a manga in but that will never happen. I spoke before about levels of creativity and how putting these buttons together is way different than creating my own manga. The latter is too hard for me as I'm not that creative. I know I can do the former though. I'm excited about it. The size 24 [15mm] buttons should arive by Friday.

Holly cut my hair yesterday. It's fine. I generally don't like my hair as it's too thick and never sits right. I tried to straighen it last night but it wasn't working for me. I needed to spend heaps more time standing there straightning away but didn't. I'm glad I have my fringe back though. It's a really short one but it'll grow and it's not getting in my way anymore. I'm pleased about that.

I might go and get that book so I can start gathering pictures of the covering buttons process from the internet and recording my ideas down. I didn't even think to do something like this! I can put fabric pieces in there too! I'm so glad I have this now.

I gave blood yesterday. My arm is doing good. It hurts more where they prick your finger to test iron levels aka hemoglobin. I like feeling like an invilid after I've given blood. I feel special. It's a nice feeling.

I had a dream about Dom a few nights ago. We were always standing very close together, touching arms, but we never kissed. I knew it wouldn't be right because I'd just want to kiss him to see how it felt because I like him a little. He has a girlfriend and I'm not about to muck that up. If that happened to me with Yorick I would be so mad. When we talk we're always smiling so it makes me think it's something more even though I know it won't be. He's not the guy I see myself with, looks-wise, and I think he's a bit younger so that's another cross. I think he's a great guy. In my dream I knew we couldn't kiss. I have fantasised about it a little but I know it's wrong. It makes me think about how much I want to have that first kiss with someone special sometime in the future, hopefully in the UK. I want to get to know him and feel that spark and energy and then the first kiss will happen. It'll be magical. I can't wait for that. In the mean time I will craft.

May already?

Monday, Monday. I'm sick at the moment and I think it's a result of my outing on Thursday with Emma. Totally worth it. I wonder when I'll get better though. I'm not sick that often so I don't mind it really but sometimes I feel awkward sniffing in front of others.

Work was good over the weekend. I enjoy talking to Dom, a new worker there, and I'm glad we're both taken because sometimes it seems like we're flirting. I know I'm not, although it might seem like I am, but it's nice to know we're protected by having a partner. When boys have liked me in the past and haven't had girlfriends, I've felt so strange about it and didn't want to be near them anymore. It hasn't happened much but I like talking to Dom. I think our relationship has the potential to become a friendship. My first male friend! I need one of those. I look forward to my shifts with him. Sometimes I find myself trying to separate the friendship from a bond that has a sexual emphasis. I try to think how I'd act and what I'd say to a new female friend and go from there. I've never had my own male friend before so it's a bit confusing at times, that's why I confuse it with flirting when I don't think it is.

Stuff with Yorick isn't changing. We're not hugging or kissing so I'm eager to find out how things will be once we're separated house-wise. I'm also getting excited about getting a tattoo with Emma and Holly soon. Holly said she usually goes to someone in Melbourne so that might be a little holiday we can all take, unless there is someone here that can do a good job. Mine won't be very big but I wouldn't want it to be stuffed up.

The house is slowly reducing in its contents. On Wednesday we'll have a big moving out session and hopefully all our things will be gone by the weekend so we can clean then. Something to look forward to I suppose!

I have to go and finish an assignment then head to Zum for my regular hot chocolate and apple and cinnamon muffin before driving up to Launceston so I might get off the computer, then come and watch some more Lost before heading out.