Relax, Anna!

I can't wait to go home. The weather here is unbearable, for me at least, getting to at least 30 each day. Not my kind of weather. Give me cold shade any day. The people here are annoying too and the room is always hot despite the open window and fan. I complain a lot but I have been enjoying my outings, even though it takes a huge effort to get anywhere. I posted some of my heavier books back today -- from me to me! I got two maxi dresses and I doubt they'll weigh much but I think I was pretty spot on on the way up so I don't want to push my luck. I've spent too much money already. I don't want to spend anymore, but since I won't be earning anything my savings will go down! No! I'm not sure when Centrelink will kick in but I will go in there when I can and drop off some forms, maybe even tomorrow afternoon. Sarah and I might go for breakfast. Then I can quickly print off some documents ... actually no. I don't have my last 8 weeks of pay slips with me. Another day.

I had a late lunch with Joyce today and it was nice but she made me feel crap about myself, unintentionally but hurtful nonetheless, because I'm shy and timid and "didn't give Sydney a chance." I know that I'm shy and timid but I want to feel comfortable, not like I'm jumping in the deep end just because I'm shy and timid. I want my friends around. I want to continue having fun in this time of my life, what with being single and myself for the first time ever, and I know I'll have that in Melbourne. It's cheaper, it's cooler [weather-wise], it's closer to home, it still has the course I want to do, it is an adventure, and it'll be a surprise. I might not have given Sydney a real go but why waste time when I know how it'll go, kind of. I'll waste money and time and energy because it's so damned hot and the houses are way too expensive. I don't want to live with randoms but living alone here would cost way too much. I want to keep on loving this city, not resent it.

I am really looking forward to starting my course. And on a new campus too! I started reading some of the books they sent me in the mail last night while trying to get to sleep and I think it's going to be interesting. I bought some note books from Typo to use for first semester so I'm looking forward to getting stuck into that. I just feel stressed thinking about it. I won't have a house to go to straight away unless I can live with Nicole and Rom [Sarah's room mates] and their friend. Holly and Ruben will do the couples thing and Amy and Carly are set I think. Scary. Got to chill.

I'm going to see Tangled tonight. I saw The King's Speech last night and quite enjoyed it. I am a bit worried about the money I'm spending but I have a fair bit stored away and I will most likely be getting Centrelink. I feel like my life is a waste but I just have to do the things I want to do and not get too stressed about it all. That's what this year will teach me I think. The Year of the Rabbit.

Home sweet home

Gosh I am ready to go home. I forget how it can be boring here especially when I can't just go to my room and watch DVDs, which is something I do need to to less of. I'm just ready to be back in Tasmania where I guess I belong. That doesn't mean I want to be there forever but it's comforting and that's what I need right now. Only one more day and I'll be home again.

Tomorrow at 2pm I'm meeting Joyce for afternoon tea. I think it will be lovely. I also need to stop by Typo and get supplies for Uni. There are these cute books in a series about Little Red Riding Hood and they are adorable. I want to get a lot more from there and with the two maxi dresses I bought from Jay Jay's of all places I might need to mail some things back to myself as my luggage is already at the limit. I won't be able to squash anymore in without paying more. Then mum and dad and Jan and Fra and I can have a lovely chat about my next move ... to Melbourne!

Going to Melbourne should be less stressful because I will have people to lean on there so I just have to remember that and relax. That's my problem. Here in Sydney I've been trying to do too much myself although I haven't really, but just thinking about all that I'd have to do isn't what I want. I hope that I can find a place to live easy and not have to stress out too much. It needs to be simplified. I just want to get my diploma and get a good job then move to the UK for a while and hopefully find my future husband! Please!

It's way too hot here. I'm not coping very well with it I must say. I am definitely looking forward to being home and reassessing. I'm glad I have good roommates too. We don't talk much but they aren't too loud and usually turn the lights off when I want them to be. Good stuff. I'm definitely ready for bed.

I love stationary!

I think I have found my non-career job calling -- Kikki-K!

Here is the job description / employee requirements --

As an inspired member of our team you will:
+ Love stationery & have a passion for contemporary design;
+ Be willing to learn & grow with us and enjoy being part of an enthusiastic & fun team;
+ Love working in an environment that gives respect & opportunity to every team member;
+ And have the opportunity to further your career in retail or another area of our business.

Here are some of the amazing things I want to get, some of which I already got on my recent trip to Melbourne. Click any of these items to see more.

1. 365 Days

Your year begins today. 365, a journal to commence at any point in the year for a new job, a new semester, or a new lease on life. This journal is not dated, meaning you can start from page 1 at any point in the year. Makes a great gift for baby showers, engagement parties, weddings and anniversaries.

I already have this in red with white x's around the edge but a black one might be nice if I want to have a second one going. I might use the red one for my first year [and possibly the ones after] in Sydney. It will include all things creative as well as what happens there. In general I want to be less lazy so this will be a great way to start new habits. I keep thinking what I want to use it for. One idea is to document my photography. I want to get back into it. Last night at work I was watching how lovely the sun looked on the hills across the river and I want to take great panoramas and generally great landscape photographs.

2. Paper Clips: Coat Hangers

I am just looking on the Kikki-K website and have already found so many wonderfully cute items I want to get and these are a must. They come in a cute glass jar and everything!

3. Magnets: Cross

These are really cute too. It'll be nice to have simple but cute magnets for the fridge one day. They

4. Cube Notepad

You can never go wrong with something like this. I am always needing to write things down and often find funny scraps of paper, which do make it easier to find if I'm looking for it, but this will give me an endless supply.

5. Study Notes

I do need to get more organised with my study and for next year this will be perfect. I want to do really well and if something as small as this can help then I'll do it.

6. Sorted! The ultimate guide to organising your life – once and for all.

Just as I thought I had finished looking at the amazing products on this website I found some more! This books is for sale at around $20 on this website, however, I went through the Book Depository and for it for $10.98

The following 3 books are available in-store for around $20 but via the Book Depository they will be found a lot cheaper. I bought the middle one for myself and one for my work Secret Santa, Jodie. I hope she likes it.

7. Be Happy: 170 ways to transform your day

8. It's Never Too Late: 174 simple acts to change your life

9. Now Is the Time: 170 ways to seize the moment

10. Paper Flow: The ultimate guide to making paperwork easy

Once again, I think this will be very useful for Uni next year. In the description is says --

Find the solutions to organise and de-clutter the paper work in your life with help from Paper Flow. Whether you need to organise your paper work at home, school or work, this book is guaranteed to inspire and instruct "how-to".

Now, onto a different store! I have seen Typo sections in Cotton On before but I had never experienced the whole store until my brief visit to Melbourne this week. I loved it. There I bought a pale blue "MAIL" letter holder which I had seen here in Hobart but in a bright red and black. The blue is better I think. I also got this cute paper stack, like sticky notes but not stick, with space to write your goal, the 7 days of the week with a box next to it to tick or cross, and space to write your reward for completing the task. I'm not sure if I got it from Typo or Kikki-K but it's going to be so valuable next year. All of these things will. I'm so excited to start organising my life!

Such a good day

Today has been a great day. I feel like everything is falling into place and I deserve it! I didn't understand my horoscope this morning but now I do --

Tonight at dusk - when it's not quite daytime and not quite nighttime - you need to make yourself open to messages about your future. This in-between place is symbolic of a situation in your life right now. What you're experiencing may make you feel as through you are in limbo, not knowing where - or how - to go to the next step. But, as nature takes care of the passage of light to darkness and darkness to dawn, you will soon find yourself in exactly the right place. Don't over-think it. Just let the universe guide you.

I had forgotten all about this horoscope until way after the events that unfolded this evening and I think it's sending me a message. I bumped into Kirsten Long and two friends here in Melbourne while I was wandering around aimlessly and she invited me to have dinner with them. They're all doing Uni and are from Tassie and that in itself was funny. I think one is living here, but Katie, I think she's living in Tassie and they are both lovely girls. So. We got talking about Uni and both Katie and I are intending to move to Sydney next year and we might end up living together! She's got another person in mind and we might leave room for a fourth but I think it's all fate, bumping into Kirsten like that! FATE! Mum had called while I was having dinner and called her after we were done and had said our goodbyes and mum's friend Kerin knows someone in Sydney who will be willing to rent me a room for $70 a week. This is all working out perfectly. It feels right and like my dreams will actually come true. Katie is going to email me about house opportunities, hopefully in Newtown which is in the opposite direction to Glebe, and will probably move in at the start of February or around there. It should all work out with Fronting MONA and finishing up at thebeach. I sure hope it does.

After wandering around Melbourne today and hanging with Carly, I realised how much I don't want to live here. I don't like it. It's too grungy and like a labyrinth for my taste so I'm extra hoping I get into the Uni of Sydney. I probably wouldn't be able to afford living in Sydney alone, not anywhere near the city anyway, so this is a good substitute. Living with people I know and like will be good and I'll meet people that way, maybe even my future husband! It'll work out nicely and it won't be forever. I can handle it.

Shopping today with Carly was good. I bought a cute tea canister from T2 and a 'MAIL' letter holder and 2011 desk-top calendar from Typo. There is a small Typo section in Cotton On in Hobart but we went to the actual store and it was fantastic! I really love it in there. I'm going to love living in a big city and it'll be nice having friends there and living with them won't be so bad. It'll be great actually. I am so very excited.

I've had a headache for a while but I went for a bit of a lie down after hanging with Carly and took two Nurofen and felt better after a while. I'm rooming with two Canadian girls and a third person I haven't met and the funny thing is the place we went to for dinner, the Mess Hall, was where one of the Canadian girls works! How weird. I'm going to go straight to bed after my time has finished here in internet land [10pm], have a snack, then possibly read manga for a bit then sleep. Tomorrow I need to get to some of the museums and possibly the Uni even though I'm set on not going here. It might be worth a look. The museums will be good at any rate. I haven't heard from Amy yet but I might hang with Carly again tomorrow. I'd like to go to Bimbos and have cheap pizza and maybe go to Savers. Kirsten mentioned it and how she bought a few cheap dresses. Apparently it's a second hand store, I guess like an op shop but better, as Carly has also mentioned it. Many possibilities. I just need to get a good nights sleep tonight and I'll be okay. I was so tired on the flight over and afterwards, even now. 40 mintues and I'm there.

I bought two mangas today. One was buy an author I have read but can't remember the name of the manga, and one was called Black Butler [I think] which is a different name for an anime series I already have. I think the manga will be great. I have loved getting back into manga over the last day, or less than a day, and want to buy more cheaply from Just Manga. It's such a good site and a while ago I stopped buying things from there when my manga candle burned out but now I'm back and ready to buy again. Not just yet but soon!

I am so looking foward to bed. Hopefully I'll get to sleep fairly quickly. I haven't had enough lately and it's catching up to me. I hope tomorrow will be good too. It's way after my bed time!