Deakin possible timetable

I am a bit confused about the timetable I might be making as of Monday because it seems like the units are for 3 weeks each [one is unspecified] with two full-day seminars each week and they are spread over different months. I get it now I've put it into my own formatting but it's still strange. I guess they have to accommodate for professionals doing the course for professional development or whatnot. This will be interesting!!

AIM721 Museums: Context and Issues

Monday and Tuesday 10am to 450pm seminars for 3 weeks from the 7th of March

AIM723 Heritage Interpretation

Monday and Tuesday 10am to 450pm seminars for 3 weeks from the 28th of March

AIM709 Intangible Heritage

Monday and Tuesday 10am to 450pm seminars for 3 weeks from the 2nd of May

AIM 714 Cultural Landscapes

Thursday and Friday 10am to 450pm seminars for an unspecified number of weeks from the 26th of May

So it seems like I'll be focusing on one subject for 3 weeks then move onto the next one! That suits me very well, and I'll have the rest of the week to study and do other things like work and go to non-study-related classes and hanging out with friends. It'll be like little summer school units here! I love that kind of focused study. I remember more and learn more. This is rather exciting!

Blessings not dilemmas

A happy ending is just around the corner, Scorpio. It may be difficult to believe that there will be a sunny outcome to a conflict or problem that currently seems dark and gloomy, but there will be ... I think this relates to the fact that I have no idea where I'm going to live or who I'm going to live with in Melbourne. All I know is that I want to be close to the Uni, and that means living in Burwood, but that is as far as I've gotten. I stress myself out too much ... At this point in your life, you need to allow more healing in. You may be too focused on some issue that has you down, when there are so many other things going right ... I think this reflects being down about not having a man in my life. I want my future husband now! I don't want to be alone anymore ... With your present dilemma, let go of any feelings of sadness or anger or resentment, and think about your blessings. Let go of any feelings that aren't uplifting. This is totally harder than it sounds. I guess I'll have to try and relax and know that when I'm not looking I'll find my future husband.

-- From Thursday the 3rd of February.

All alone again

So my aunts left not too long ago, about an hour ago, and I'm feeling sad and alone in myself. I'm sad that they've left as it was nice having someone here all the time for back up when there was no one else here and to do things with, and now that they're gone I miss that. What I really miss is having a partner, the guy to complete me, to do things with, and share a life with. That's what I want and that's definitely what I don't have.

I don't want to do it all alone and alone I will be for a while at least. I do want to get in shape before I meet someone, but I'll go with the flow as love or a deep friendship might surprise me. I think about moving to Melbourne and I'm still scared even though I'll have friends there just because of the fact that I will be alone. I really want a partner to share it all with and to help me live life without being scared. With someone by my side I know I can do more. That sounds a bit pathetic but that's just me I guess.

I hate that I have to go to work today in some ways because of how I'm feeling, but it'll be good for me to get out, earn some money, and take my mind off things. I have plenty of time to feel crappy like this.

I like when mum and I are on the same wavelength talking about my future. We had a really good chat last night at dinner with Jan and Fra [the New Sydney] and I have decided to only focus on step 1. Step 1 is going to Melbourne and completing my diploma of museum studies. I have no idea what will come after that but I just need this focus to begin with. Anything can happen after that. I was about to write some ideas but I just have to leave it at this for now. Complete step 1 and decide from there. Getting work is the main idea.

I really liked having Jan and Fra here. It's always better when I'm older as I remember more and am more adult. Last night we went to dinner at the New Sydney. It was a bit of a shambles with getting a good table even though we booked and we had to sit on the stage. They are the nice tables but when the band comes and tries to set up around you it's a bit awkward. In the day we went to the Leworthy's for morning tea in the sun, then met up with Sarah and went to Bellerive for lunch and a stroll around the semi-boardwalk. Then it was to the Cascade Gardens to meet up for a drink with dad's friend Adrian who runs the place. Too much sun for me. I hate the heat. Then it was home and we all, minus Sarah plus mum, sat on the deck and had a glass of champagne before dinner. The day before, dad, Jan and Fra and I went to the Maritime Museum for a wander then to the TMAG [Tasmanian Museum and Art Gallery] Courtyard for a bite and a beer [strawberry milkshake for me]. I wish I had written more down or remembered it more as now there are no more outings. I feel depressed. There have been lots of walks, like the Snug Falls one we did earlier in the week then to the Pancake Train in Margate. I didn't go with them sometimes. I just miss them and I miss that company because I now feel so alone and I don't want to be alone or go through life alone. Friends just don't cut it.

I need to snap out of this, or at least get on with my day. I have to shower and get ready for work with my dad, then head to my sister's to drop off her birth certificate then head to work for 4-5 hours with my dad. I'm meant to be meeting up with Sophie for drinks but I'm not sure I can be bothered. I'll see how I go. That means I might have to pack extra clothes. Drat it.

Right, definitely time to get off the internet and brave it and deal with the aloneness. I have a catch up with Holly to look forward to on Friday. All this week I need to spend it writing my essay. I might take it outside or just sit downstairs in the sun room. I find my room a bit depressing when I'm alone.

I'm mad at myself for not remembering more about their trip. I can look over my blog and see what's what. I know they went to Stanley for a while and there were lots of dinners and Etta fixes and things like that. I don't know why it bothers me so much! Arr.

Remix

Great tips about remixing patterns --

http://kristinemachine.blogspot.com/2010/12/how-to-mix-patterns.html

I hate the heat!

I had a coffee/hot chocolate with my old high school and primary school friend Angie today! It was really nice catching up with her. So much is happening and it seems like she's about to become an adult with her first real job after just finishing Uni doing engineering. Even her brother has an awesome job as a commercial pilot. And here I am, about to commence more studies, and I don't have a career yet. I wish I did but I'll be glad to have a relatively cruisy/cruisey year. I can't wait to be able to look for a 'real' job in cultural heritage or museums. That will be the icing on top of the cake.

I can't escape the heat! It's gotten hot here and it's really annoying me. I'm sick of the heat. I should go from one side of the world to the other eliminating summer. I think that would be great and it would suit me just fine! I'll have to do that one year. Gosh I hate the heat.

I have decided that next week I'll spend my time writing my essay and the following week I'll start studying the books Deakin has sent me. That is my plan. It's so nice not to have to work. Working for my dad doesn't seem like work but it'll nice to have a little income to top up what I've spent and will spend because I can't not spend anything. I might go a bit mad staying at home all the time but I'll just have to do it. Not to watch the last episode of Avatar: The Last Airbender. I am excited to see how it ends but I don't want it to end! Sad. Then it's off to my uncle and his partner's house for dinner. I might wear one of my new Sydney maxi dresses.

Remix Challenge

I think this is the best post for the 30 for 30 remix challenge --

http://kristinemachine.blogspot.com/2011/01/my-30x30-picks.html

What a perfect way to photograph ones picks!

Inspiration

I loved reading this from a wonderful blogger Sydney shared with her followers --

I am always striving to improve who I am as a wife, mother, friend, blogger, etc. etc. I always look for new ways to improve my health, & my home. I love finding something beautiful, that inspires me, & seeing a way to incorporate it into my life. So for me, style is comfortable, & style is growth.

Push yourself. Don't be afraid to know what you like, & to embrace it fully. At the end of the day you are the one that has to live with that shirt, or that art. One of my favorite quotes is by Dr Suess: "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind"

January 2011

January has been a fine month. Nothing spectacular. This month I struggled with the two options of Sydney and Melbourne and by the end of the month, Melbourne won. Some lovely things have happened, like Jan and Fra coming out, finishing working at thebeach, and Etta starting to use her voice more but then the whole Sydney trip was a bit of a waste although I did need to go so I wouldn't regret not trying. I thought I had to go sooner rather than later to get settled and all of that but as it turns out, I don't want to do it all alone and Melbourne isn't looking as bad now I've let go of Sydney. It'll be much more fun, that's for sure.

In January I --

+ Saw Kyü at Mona Foma;

+ Spent Australia day with Kirsten and her two friends;

+ Made a list of things I want in my life -- house, career, to move states, travel and live in the UK;

+ Gained weight;

+ Figured out what my first tattoo will be but bolted when I realised it would be $90. It's too much money at the moment but if it's cheaper it might be nastier. It's something for Melbourne I think;

+ Met my lovely Welsh friend Sarah at the backpacker's whilst in Sydney. I now have someone to visit when I go over to the UK; and

+ Attended the Fronting MONA unit and went out to MONA for 4 days.

For February, I am going to relax more and not rush into heading to Melbourne. I have to finish my essay for Fronting MONA and I can start studying for my diploma. I think it will be a quiet month.

Happy February

I am home. I'm glad to be home but a little stressed already because I won't be working and I'm sure I won't want to be cooped up at home everyday for the next few weeks to a month. It is Jan and Fra's last few days here so that'll be fun. I also have an essay to write and I can start studying for Deakin as I have more of the books! It'll all work out.