Progress with the covered buttons isn't steaming along but I don't want to rush so I'm fine with that. I'm still waiting for a lot of the parts I need to make earrings and rings but I did receive the fabric today. It's a lot more tie-dyed than I had hoped. I wish the fabric pieces were all the one colour but that's not how it worked out. I love the colour range I got but I'll have to work around the fabric and make some good different earrings.
Maddy's party is tonight. Yorick is going. We haven't been around each other in a social gathering since we broke up. We've hung out together alone and that's it so I guess this will be the test. I think it's better seeing him alone as he has to focus his attention on me then whereas with a party where there are other people he would probably prefer to be around than want to talk to me. He'll do it out of obligation but that's okay. I like that he's thought of getting me back because even though I know that's not going to happen and that's not what I want, having him like that makes me seem more over it than he is. I don't know if that's true but since we emailed through Facebook I have felt more okay with it all. I'm doing really well but tonight will definitely be the test.
The weather is horrible today. We are in Winter so it's always cold but it's raining today. So miserable. The theme for the party tonight is 'tropical' so I'm going to wear my Vanuatu sarong somehow, probably as a skirt, but it's not a very appropriate theme. It should have been a Russian theme or something, with big fur coats. Arr. I'm going to get some mini champagne bottles. Either that or a bottle. Individually they will both set me up for the night. I'm excited to see Holly. I haven't seen her in about 2 weeks since she and Ruben went to Melbourne. She's been my rock I suppose, the one who I can always count on to see the best and the potential in me and help me see it too. She gives me confidence that I'm going to be okay.
I think a lot about how one day I will have the life I want -- a life with a husband and 2 kids [maybe more] and a great house and a great job. I know I'll have all of that but for now I'm getting used to feeling a little unsettled because of not being with Yorick. Things were just how I wanted them. When we kissed we didn't use too much tongue [mostly none with I liked], and we'd discussed what I didn't want to to in other areas. With the next guy I'll have to do it all over again. I liked that things were talked about or in their place. For the right guy it won't be too much of a hassle I suppose. I just hope that guy rocks my world in the bedroom so I won't want to leave it. That's what was missing between Yorick and I.
I should really go and lite the fire. It needs to warm up in here. Maybe I can do some covered buttons work.
Yesterday was a really fun day. Jessi and I went to the Casino for a buffet all-you-can-eat lunch. I went to the gym afterwards for a 30 minute fast walk, watched the last 4 episodes of One Tree Hill season 7 [shock by the way] and then went to dinner with my sister at Pizza Hut for an all-you-can-eat session there. It was great. Afterwards we went to K-Mart and I got Will and Grace season 6 on DVD for $20 [the were $10 each for the first 5 seasons at Blockbuster in Glenorchy but they didn't have 6-8]. We went back to her house and watched The Ugly Truth and I got home for midnight. It was a very fun day. I loved the Pizza Hut dinner. We had lots of chips and pizza, some chocolate mousse and ice cream for desert and shared a jug of Pepsi [they didn't have Coke]. So full.
I just got an email back from the Cruise Ships jobs to send them my resume and a photo. It will all cost so much to get to wherever they need me to in order to work on a ship so I wouldn't be able to do it for a while. I'll see how far I get in the process and decide then. May as well apply and see what happens.
Now to that fire.
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