Just thinking

On Monday I was thinking, "I miss that lifestyle; having someone to come home to, no parents, just the two of us. I appreciated it in a taken-for-granted way." I like living at home but sometimes I miss the independence and adultness of having my own home. I hated how it was always messy. I was thinking yesterday that one day I might have to have a maid, or a nanny who will help out around the house if I have a few kids with my one-day husband. Sara at work says he should be older, thus more mature. The more time that passes from the split with Yorick, the more I realise he's not the guy for me. He's shorter, and has a receding hairline, not the greatest genes to pass on. And he's too young now in terms of maturity. He's 8 months older than me but he needs to go off and be single, not feeling like he's tied down and that's it. He's not right for me. I want someone with stunning looks [to me at least] who is a bit taller and I suppose older, someone who is very family oriented and wants to start a family with me soon. I keep watching TV series and see people getting together and I know I will have that one day. I love that feeling I get watching them, imagining myself in their position, with first kisses and all those beautiful things in the beginning of a relationship. I'm excited for it to arrive for me one day. I'll be waiting for a year or so but I can do it.

Mum and I were talking about the UK today on our walk. I really want to stay a long time, to travel and work there, then to have enough money to go off on my own to other countries. Having Sarah there might seem like I'm her keeper and that I won't be as free as I would like to be but we'll work around that. She probably won't stay as long as I want to but then again we have to wait and see. I want to do the style of travelling Yorick and I did. We went and saw the sights and wandered around, shopped, rested and relaxed, but Sarah will be different. It'll work out. Planning is a must, mum said. I guess that will help Sarah get excited and have things to do. Hm.

I'm still waiting for more covered button things. I have been working on my travel books though. I'm proud of my progress. There is still a lot to do but I feel happier because I'm doing something productive, instead of wasting time watching TV shows. I need more hobbies, or a job. I applied for some receptionist positions in Kingston [15 minutes from my parents' house] so hopefully I will hear back from them soon. I need to start saving. Having regular work would also pick my spirits up. I need another job. I'm so lazy without one.

My little niece or nephew will be born in 6 weeks. My brother and his wife are having a baby and I'm going to be an auntie! I'm excited about that. I bought their baby some cute onesies from Threadless that I gave to George at her baby shower last Saturday. I can't wait! It makes me want one, all the cute clothes. There were so many small babies at the shower. Aww. I'll have that one day with the right man for me. Yay!