I'm not sure what's happening with Yorick and me but it's not good. We're too quiet and barely speak. It's been good having a day away but I'm wondering what it will be like when I go home this afternoon. I think I'll confront him about it, ask what's wrong with us and how to fix it. I like us happy and in love. We have had a problem for a while concerning sexual intimacy. We are in a pattern of abstaining. I want to want him like that again. It just seems like a chore and like it won't be beneficial but when we're having sex it's good. It's just not part of our routine. I worry about that and I'm always the one to bring it up. I'm always the one to bring anything up. He's not a big talker when it comes to such issues. I wish he were. I wish I knew what he was thinking but when I ask he still doesn't tell. He's very secretive and mysterious. I like that about him but it's hard at the same time because sometimes I feel like I don't know him very well. He's complex. It's hard knowing all about me and not being able to read his thoughts or memories. Then again, I might not like everything I heard or saw. I would like to know where we are now though. We don't really fight, we just keep away from each other. Being silent isn't fun. Not much passion I suppose. I just want us back to normal.
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