Plans

I have just returned from the first Thai night with Holly, Helen and Munich and it was a success. Holly commended me for organising it, something I rarely do as my organising stuff never really gets a big response from people, and she said she couldn't have done it. For ages at work [thebeach] I wanted to organise a girls night, then I talked to Sara about it and she organised a movie night so fast. I guess it stems from my belief in my own abilities. There was talk of going out for drinks next time. That will be fun.

It is absolutely freezing here tonight. The weather has been so up and down, on and off freezing then lovely. I'm looking forward to Sydney as it's often quite warm there. I miss being there actually. I want to take another visit there before Uni starts next year [please let me get in] but as I don't have an event at the Uni to go to it would just be a pleasurable visit. I also want to go to Melbourne for a few days to visit people. Holly said I can come to Melbourne if I don't get into the Sydney course. The Uni there isn't pretty at all so I don't really want to go there. As a second choice it's not so good either... The girls said I should be happy with the second choice so I might have to do more looking. I am really hoping for Sydney though but that doesn't mean I'll get it. I hate waiting!

Thai for dinner!

I went to Andi's this afternoon for hot milo and chats. We talked a lot about relationships and friends and it made some things clearer to me about my relationship with Yorick. I hope I find the right guy for me. I'll probably have a better chance when I'm in Sydney [I'd better get there], as Andi said. It would also be better that I meet someone on my new path instead of dragging them into it. I think that sounds about right. My hair cut reflects myself 5 years ago but now I am more eager to make sure I find a partner. I was a lot younger then, and yes I wanted a relationship but 5 years on I really want one as I don't want to spend my whole life alone. I believe it will happen but I want that assurance. I will just have to wait.

Tonight is dinner at Suwan with Holly, Helen and Munchie. I'm really looking forward to it. I wish the weather was better so I could wear my new dress but as it is if I wear it it'll just look like I'm wearing a skirt as I'm sure to rug up as it's freezing outside. I could just wear my little blue jacket over the top but I will be cold. I'll go try it on and see.

I like house sitting but I feel a bit lonely as this isn't my life. I know once [if] I get to Sydney that I will, at times, feel lonely in my new life but it'll be mine. It will be a huge accomplishment and something to praise myself for. I like that I'm having this time to myself and in some little way seeing what it would be like to live alone but in other ways I am a bit lonely and wish I were in a relationship. I have much more work to do before I'm ready to be in another relationship though. And another thing, in Sydney I will have a lot more study to do so I will occupy my time better. Here I have been watching lots of the Tudors and have just finished the 2nd season so I'm a little bored. Luckily I'm about to head out to dinner and once I get back I can put on a movie or something to pass the time before bed. I will go and get ready.

Fortune Cookie

There is always a way -- if you are committed.

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Deflated

I saw Yorick's car twice today. I don't like it. In fact I hate it. I saw on his Facebook profile that he had changed his picture to a picture of him and his "little sister" [18 year old girl friend. He's 24] and it was completely ugly. I hate it. And I hate them. I don't remember if he ever had a picture of the two of us as his Facebook picture. Ahh I need to stop thinking of him.

Sometimes I wish I were in a relationship. I don't think I'm ready yet though and want to wait until I'm in Sydney. Sometimes I get scared that I'm alone as I don't want to go through life alone, as in without a partner to keep me company, but I know this is the time to be single. I have much to do for myself, in ways of improving myself, and it has to be now. I miss the company though...

I like house sitting. I like having that independence but would prefer to be in my own home than another's. I really hope that all goes well with Sydney. If, when I get there, I begin living by myself and feel I need the company, I can advertise and get someone else in with me. Hopefully I just meet someone and they can come and visit me all the time. Who knows what will happen.

I went for a jog along the beach this morning. I was very hot by the end of it. The sun was rather warm. I felt self-conscious but I need to lose 5 kilos. I eat too much. It's so hard to lose weight! A fast walk will do. Maybe I can walk to Blackman's Bay tomorrow as the hill from this beach to that beach is rather steep both ways. I'll try different routes at any rate. I wish I were thin.

I guess I am a bit sad at the moment. I miss having a boyfriend and I miss having the feeling that I have a great life. I can't wait to meet someone new. Then my life will be happy again and hopefully there will be a wedding not too long after. I want to go on holidays with my future husband and set up a house possibly in New Zealand or the UK. I also want to get more study done for Museum Studies but at the moment I'm a bit deflated in general. I need more work for a start. Tomorrow I'll call about what Sophie recommended. Hopefully something else will turn up. I asked Alison about more shifts at thebeach and she said she'll do what she can. Nights would be best but I'll do days even though they kill my soul.

I can't wait for next year. Somehow it will be better than this year.

I reminded myself the other day at work that it has been 5 months since Yorick and I broke up. So much and so little has happened since then. I'm still getting used to being alone and it has been hard but I do know more about myself and about what I want. Hopefully I get it.

House sitting

So I have begun my extended weekend of house sitting for James and George. I went out with them to the airport and drove their car back and will possibly pick them up again on Monday but then again I might be working. I think I will quite enjoy staying here. I have my covered button earrings to keep me occupied, as well as season 2 of the Tudors. And the internet! The internet and computer at Margate hasn't been working so well so it's a relief to come here and be able to catch up with my games on Facebook [sad I know] and have speedy internet. I'm so relieved.

I'm looking forward to going for jogs along Kingston Beach while I'm staying here. I might go for one this afternoon then take Jezabelle for a walk either to the dog beach at the other end of Kingston Beach or just around the streets. I hope I notice the difference when I go back to Margate. At the moment I weigh 64 but then again I just had some lunch. Hopefully I will have lost a few kilos come Monday.

I went into town today after going out to to the airport with J+G+E. I went to the Maritime Museum to drop off the papers and have to drop in some more possibly tomorrow, then I went to Ruby's Room and bought another $25 suitcase for my covered button supplies. I think I will get a fair bit done while I'm here as, once again, I have a lot of free time ahead of me with no second job. I need to get another job though. I hope I hear from Cotton On. I might have to try the place Sophie suggested also, just in case.

I don't have much money again. It's sad. I gave mum $100, the final payment of what I owed her, spent a bit on the Ruby's Room box and hair product and now it's all gone. I have 3 fun nights ahead too so I might have to dip into my Oomph earnings and write a note on the envelope with the money in it about how much I owe. I need more work. I don't really want to work more at thebeach but I shall have to until I find more work elsewhere. I'll give that place Sophie suggested a call.

Wednesday Wishes

Today I wish that I will get accepted into the University of Sydney for Museum Studies next year. I can't wait to have my own house and to start living the way I want to. I am under the impression that once I am indeed living in my own house I will do all the little things I would love to do each day but don't do them when living at home. I hate moving because I don't get into those routines. For example: in my new home I would love to get into the habit of drinking water each morning when I wake up [which I hope to be at the same time each morning, say 830am] as it replenishes what you have lost throughout the night. I would also love to get into a jogging/morning exercise routine whilst I'm there. I also want to have a weekly food plan as suggested by Sometimes Sweet. They are just some of the little things I want for but then I have to get into the Uni first so I can start that life over there! I expect, and also wish, that I will meet my future husband over there and once we are in a committed relationship I hope we can go on holidays together. I miss that kind of holiday, the ones Yorick and I took together. That's the kind of holiday I like to go on, one with your significant other. I will wait until then. So please, let me get into the Uni so I can start my life afresh in the beautiful city of Sydney.

Hair cut

I got my hair cut today. It's quite short. About as short as it was 5 years ago. I'll take a picture and do a compare and contrast. I think it looks better now than 5 years ago though. Last time it was very boofy, which my hair loves to do, but this time I'll take better care of it. I have some products to get and possibly a new hair straightner.

Tomorrow I'm starting house/dog/chickens/budgie sitting for James and George. I'll have to pack a few things to take with me so I don't have to come back home too often. I am quite looking forward to being there alone. I can't wait to have my own house.

Ramblings

I just went for a walk outside in our gardens. They are very small but it was rather Elizabeth Bennett of me. I can't remember what I was planning to write in here though. It was very windy outside and kept thinking about how much it will be better once I have short hair. No more hair in my face. I think that will be great. I really want to get better. I hate being sick like this. It's horrible. Work tonight will be good though. I like work there, especially when I haven't been in a while. Hopefully I get a sickness cure soon.

Praise for a new week

So I'm still sick but at least I'm not at Oomph anymore. I was getting so sick of it there after only 2 weeks so I'm glad it's over and done with. I went and saw Nikki after working at Macquarie St. for the second day in a row and we mutually agreed that it wasn't right for me. I spoke to Andi on the phone before and after and was so overjoyed. I'm glad it's rid of. Now I just have to find more work. I made about $800 there so that's pretty awesome. If I can get that much from somewhere else each week, or even $600 [which is probably more likely], then I will be well on my way to savings heaven. I want to build a nice savings pile even if it's to use for holidays at the end of next year. We shall see. I can't wait to start building my own home.

Last night was Josie and Liam's engagement party at the Duke. It was a lot of fun. I had lots of chats to dad and we had a few drinks, nibbles, and talked to other people there. Didn't get to see much of Etta but she was there. I'm to house sit for them starting on Wednesday and I'm so glad I won't be working at Oomph anymore so I can truly enjoy it. I'll run on the beach each day, take Jezabelle for walks, feed the chickens [and possibly a bird] and enjoy life. Hopefully Sarah can come over and we can watch movies, or even Andi. The internet will actually be working so I think I'll be on there a lot.

I'm hoping to get my hair cut rather short on Tuesday. Something like this:

I am getting used to the idea already and can't wait for it all to go. I hope I look something like this. It will be a relief having not much hair. Lighter. I hope I can pull it off.

I am really looking forward to next week. I think it shall be rather great, what with my hair cut and house sitting. Tomorrow we're having lunch here. J+G+E are invited and my uncle from Noosa will be down so it is sort of a special occasion. Hopefully I'll have more work through thebeach to look forward to as well. Hopefully Alison will be at work tonight so I can ask her or just write her a note. I'll look for work elsewhere and see what comes up.

I'm still sick. It's annoying. I don't feel very nice at all. I have an everpresent cough and my head hurts a little. I'm weak and a bit fuzzy. Drat that flu. Working tonight and tomorrow night. Tomorrow night will be my 2 year anniversary at thebeach. Crazy! I can't believe it's been so long. It's nice.

I applied for the 3 museum studies courses at the Uni of Sydney today. $54 later and I'm hoping they send me forms to fill out or something as they didn't even ask for my UTAS academic transcript. I hope I get in. I really want this. Time for lunch I think!