Wanting

Some things I want at the moment --

I want to take dance classes to improve my fitness and flexibility.

I want to get back to my flute lessons to finish my exams and play in ensembles. I know I have the talent and I've come this far. I shouldn't waste my talents.

I want full-time work so I'm actually doing something worthwhile with my time instead of being continuously bored.

I want to find out everything I need to know about museum studies at the Graduation Options day in September.

I want to finalise the design for my tattoo [my surname -- O'REGAN] and get it done before Sydney.

I want to get back into a fitness routine.

I want to make better use of my time.

I want to wear my new shoes [kick's] tomorrow and have that new feeling, which always makes me feel better about myself.

I want to feel special.

I hope that when I go over for the Graduate Options day I'll get a list of books to start reading. I want a head start. I also do need to get onto volunteering at the museums here as that is something that will push my application to the University of Sydney over the top. It will also be a great learning experience.

I think at some stage in my life I would like to be a musician, career wise. I really enjoy playing the flute and I know here at some point I could play in the Tasmanian Discovery Orchestra. I like the idea of playing professionally. I've been given this gift and I want to master it and use it. Otherwise what is the point of having it? I might have to take lessons in Sydney while I'm there as I won't be able to do them here with my teacher Marg while I'm there, of course.

I want a job in Dymmock's. There are plenty in Sydney that I could transfer to and being around books is something that interests me greatly. I hope I get a job there. I'll apply tomorrow. That reminds me, I have to print my resume!

Back in Hobart, back to being bored

I have to start going to the Gym again. All weekend while I was in Sydney [I'll type up my post for those days soon] I felt like I was bigger and it wasn't nice. It makes me feel depressed and I really need to get this under control. Ever since I moved back home I've been eating more and exercising less. I hate it. I've looked up the new timetable for my gym, which I haven't been to in ages, and I will hopefully go tomorrow night. The classes I like are:

Monday

1230 Step

430 Zumba

530 Pump

Tuesday

430 Step

530 Zumba

Wednesday

530 Intermediate Aerobics

Friday

530 Step

630 Pump

Saturday

930 Step

11 Yoga

330 Beginners Pilates

I think I'll go on Saturday this week, then head to the Salamanca Markets afterwards for a wander. I haven't done that in ages so it'll be nice to get out and about. I don't usually like to go to the gym on a day when I'm working because I'm a slacker, it's my excuse, and I like to be relaxed before working but I need to stop that, especially since that's the only day I can do Yoga or Pilates.

I've noticed today that I'm bored again. Sydney was jam packed with activities, as of course a holiday is, and now I'm back and depressed again as my life right now is really boring. Tomorrow I'm meeting Andi after my appointment to remove my Implanon as I'm the Pill and don't need two contraceptives. I will head to the gym afterwards so hopefully it won't be a complete waste of a day. I need to get a job in the next 2 weeks or I'm going to go crazy. I'm glad to be back from Sydney as I did get a little lonely but I think once I'm living there next year close to Uni in the cute suburb of Glebe I'll be happier. I'll have lots to do with study and hopefully I'll be working close by so I don't have to do much travelling. I think my life then will be better but until then I need more work to keep me entertained and earning money before I go. I hate sitting around at home all the time doing nothing worth while. I'm wasting my days and it continues to bug me. If I was out everyday seeing people, which I am at least once or twice a week, then it would be okay, especially if there was a man involved, but I don't expect to be with anyone for a year or so. I need to work. Arrr.

I actually need to volunteer at either TMAG [Tasmanian Museum and Art Gallery] or the Maritime Museum as that's something that is an integral part in the museum studies course I want to do. That will take up part of my time, and hopefully I can get a job at Dymmock's or with the courier place. I might get a job with the Federal Group in Hobart, not hours out of the city, but I don't want to wait for that possibility. I need to be working now! I picked up a shift for tonight. Panda messaged me so I'm replacing her. I also have Saturday and Sunday nights so hopefully I get a heap of hours up. I'm getting a bit sick of it there though, especially since there are lots of new people coming in. I do love that I know what I'm doing though. I would actually love day work. If I get 5 or 6 days work then I'll be prepared to keep Saturday and Sunday nights at thebeach. I want to be busy.

I'll be going back to Sydney for a day or two next month. On the 22nd of September there is the Graduate Options day from 3-8pm so I'll head over for that and this time I'll stay in a hotel for the night. $50 should do it and dad said they might pay for my accommodation. I think I'll head over on the 22nd at lunch time and come back the following day at 5pm. I've done the sights and the shopping, not all of them but enough to last me for a while, and I don't need to be there for that long. It'll be a short little trip but worth it as hopefully I'll get all the information I need as I didn't get much this trip. It was mostly for undergraduates after all and I'm interested in postgraduate studies. It'll be nice doing a mid-week trip. Something to look forward to. Hopefully I have a new job before then!

Sydney tomorrow

I'm going to Sydney tomorrow! It has come around so fast. I have been packing today, not as in focusing on that task only, but I'm slowly getting there. There are some things I can't pack until tomorrow morning, which is a bit annoying but necessary, so I won't feel completely ready until then. I might go by Big W and get some snacks for the plane, like 72c lollies, and any other last minute necessity. Today before meeting Emma I have to go and get some printed maps from my sister's house as she did them on her school's good printer. They're of the campus and of the layout for the Open Day. I'll probably look like a tourist around the city too with my maps and list of places to see. I don't mind though. I'd rather that than get lost. I hope I get into the course and I really hope that I'll be able to live in Manly.

Manly, Sydney, New South Wales, Australia.

I would love to live in Manly in a bungalow close to the beach so I could run on it and get super fit, study in a great location, and catch the ferry to Uni. I think it would be fabulous. I just hope Georgie's cousins [I think that's their relation] let me rent there. How perfect would that be! Fingers crossed that this works out for me. It will be wonderful.

I hope I find some great things to buy over there, clothes and shoes wise. I need a new wear-everyday skirt and some new shoes, or boots. Last night while I was trying to get to sleep all I could think about in terms of shoes was high-top sneaker shoes, like the kind my friend Amy and her friend Rosie wear. They're very stylish apparently but I don't think it's my style. I love wearing my uggs but they're not practical shoes. I need something that doesn't wear as much as these has, something with grip and something that is a real shoe, not something you're supposed to wear as a slipper. I'll find something. Mostly I want a new skirt, or skirts. Something I'll wear all the time instead of my black one. I need to add more colour to my style, especially on the bottom half. I hope Sydney has something great in store for me.

I knew

It didn't come as a surprise that Yorick is seeing someone. I suspected when I saw on his Facebook profile that he had taken off his relationship status. It used to say single and now it says nothing like mine. I like that now it's official [because of this] that I will never go back to him. I wouldn't anyway but he's used. VersaEmerge said it right -- "I can't and won't go back." He's not right for me, and anyway he'd have to give up smoking and alcohol and move to Sydney with me. I don't want him so that's no problem. He has a crappy life and it's just what he wanted. He brought this upon himself. I, however, have a great life and it's all because of him. If he didn't start this whole I want to be single thing then I wouldn't have realised what I was missing. I love my life.

My bright future and his dull one

Today I had a bit more of a chat to George about Sydney accommodation and she says she has a cousin or relative that lives in Manly and that they have a bungalow out the back that they rent. There's a chance I might be able to rent it out next year when I'm in Sydney for Uni. I think it would be fantastic. I would have the beach to run on and there would be many a great cafe or restaurant for me to work at and I would be catching the ferry to Uni! It would be great! I had a look last night at all the websites for the Uni accommodation and it's all so expensive. I would be getting Centrelink, extra because the course isn't here in Tasmania, and working and maybe another $1000 for something so I might only be able to cope in a share house, even better in this bungalow. Fingers crossed it works out. That's the thing I'm most worried about. That's what this weekend is about. Figuring the whole situation out and seeing how hard it will be for me to get a spot in the course[s] I am interested in. I really want to do this course. It's so exciting. I looked up the units I would do and they all sound fabulous and are all focused to the different areas of running a museum or art gallery [For example -- Artifact Studies; Exhibition Development; Information and Collection Management; The Museum Context; The Art Museum: Past, Present and Future]. I am so excited about it. I hope it all works out.

I have decided that I don't want to move away for the Federal Group job. I am loving my freedom here, seeing Andi a lot more, and just general social outings such as seeing SNERT and hanging out with my sister. I feel free to have drinks and worry only about myself. I am having a great time. I like that I'm learning about who I am and I'm not sad I'm not with anyone because I know in the next few years I will have found the perfect guy for me and it will all be fabulous. Sophie gave me some news tonight when we went out for dinner. She said 2 weeks ago when she was out with the boys, Yorick was hanging out with this girl, an 18 year old emo girl, who Sophie thinks he might be dating. She's not sure if they're still together but I'm completely above it because I know he's in such a crap place and he can't get out of it. I feel sad for him. Holly just confirmed that he was with the girl at Wolfy's party but wanted to tell me in person. We haven't really hung out since but it's good I know now. It's so stupid though. He shouldn't be dating and knows it deep down. He's just screwing himself over more. He's so lost without me [I think]. Lame. I love feeling powerful because of it. Apparently Apples and Helen broke up recently too. Weird. It's those boys that's the problem. Any girl that gets involved with them is doomed. I'm glad it's not my problem anymore. Phew. I'm better off.

I'm so excited about Sydney for next year. It's just what I want to be doing and this weekend will hopefully give me all the details I need. And hopefully next week I will have a job with the courier place that Matt [Andi's brother] mentioned. I need to work a heap as I'm going crazy not doing much. It's also a waste of my time. I want to earn lots of money in preparation for Sydney [another trip in September if all goes as hoped this weekend and for next year in general] and to get myself out of the house and doing something productive. I don't want to waste my time anymore. It's annoying.

Tomorrow I will pack my bags then head out for dinner and drinks with Emma at 515pm. I can't wait to catch up with her. I love it so much. We have a blast. I've missed our nights. More news tomorrow!

Museum studies is right for me

I am tired but I want to write. Mum and I went to visit the curator at the Maritime Museum today, Rona, and it was great talking to her. I realised fairly soon into the tour that this is the job for me. It's what I want to do and although the coursework and what I end up doing might be a little different I am fairly certain of this. I am looking forward to my trip to Sydney to find out more and to start planning for next year. I have also started thinking about art history and doing the graduate certificates in art curatorship. This would be extremely relevant to museum studies, with some units overlapping, and as some of the units I am interested in are in different semesters I might take a year to do the 6 months course [4 units] and work and settle into Sydney. Otherwise I might just start straight away with museum studies, the diploma, as the certificate isn't a prerequisite for the diploma. I'll find all this out when I go to the Open Day. That's just about all I wanted to say.

James, George and Etta came over tonight for dinner in partial celebration for my recent graduation. I snapped a few photos on my phone of my sister and Etta and me and Etta [taken by Sarah] and I think they're pretty great. I have gotten a few phone applications to do with cameras and these photos were taken as Polaroids so I will post them now. I think they are great. I need to do more experimenting in the daytime to compare all of the different types of cameras I now have thanks for the applications. I love my new phone.

Sarah and Etta.

Me and Etta.

A great weekend

I went to Ivy's second birthday party today and it was a lot of fun watching the kids playing and eating party food. I hung out with Andi's brother Matt a bit and talked to Anne [Frenchy's mum] and Barbara [Andi and Matt's mum] and helped put the party food out and packed it up. Matt and I had to go and get the birthday cake from their house and on the drive we talked about what we were up to lately and I mentioned about needing work. He works for a courier place where they drive things around and said I could probably get work there. I'm not sure if I want to go all the way to Coles Bay or even further to Cradle Mountain for work anymore. I think once I got there [if I get offered a position] I would love it, but I kind of feel like things are up in the air, what with me deciding about Sydney and going over for a visit, there being another seminar there in September [Graduate Options], and little things I'd want to attend but then again I'd be able to get time off. My aunts are coming down from the UK just before Christmas till mid January so I want to be able to get back and visit them. It would be easier if I worked here to see them more often.

Another great thing about the Coles Bay/Cradle Mountain job would be the getting fit aspect. I wouldn't have a great deal to do up there apart from work and exercise [I think] so that would be good. I would like to work in Hobart though so I can't quite decide. It's been nice having my freedom but I don't need to go away to get more. I have been being social and I'm liking getting to know my strengths again. I wouldn't mind doing courier work. It would be something different and I already know how to drive, which seems to be the only prerequisite, and I need work. I need to get out of the house and do something, make some money. Then I won't feel so crap about not getting any shifts at thebeach. I don't want to get more work there, maybe 3 shifts a week, but I want full-time day-time work to keep me occupied. I want to make money for next year wherever it may take me and to feel satisfied. It will happen, whether with the Federal Group or with a bookstore or with Matt's courier job. Something will turn up in the next week. I hope I find out soon about the Federal Group job so I can start planning my movements.

I'm really excited about Sydney. I think once I'm there I'll feel a bit nervous about being alone and because I'm starting my future by myself but the nervousness will pass extremely fast. I have everything planned [which I am very proud of] so I won't be bored and I will be able to explore the city where I am hopefully going to be spending a lot of time next year. I hope I will be good enough to do a Masters degree, which is something I will find out next weekend. It's coming up close! I will have at least $400 spending money and a little bit will arrive on Wednesday but I'm not expecting much as I will only have worked 2 shifts this week [Monday and Sunday, being tonight]. I wonder what hours I will get for next week as I can only to Monday to Thursday. Monday at 2pm I have the meeting with the curator of the Maritime Museum to look forward to and am hoping for a visit to Etta with Sarah on Tuesday.

I graduated yesterday! I was so much fun and I feel so proud of myself. I never really took the time to celebrate once I finished my last BA unit in Summer School as it was leading into the BSW so it was really nice to celebrate then. It was a great ceremony. I got to wear the gown and hat and took a few photos on my phone which I will put on here. It's fantastic. Now I'm an alumni! I feel special. I want to do more ceremonies once I'm done with all my Sydney coursework as James missed out on his and Sarah probably won't have one. I'm the only one who will. So here are the photos.

Dad took a few photos on mum's digital camera but the battery died so these are from my new phone. They aren't that bad! I think they do the job. The quality might not win awards but it's definitely better than my old phone. There is a picture from mum's camera of the stage and everyone sitting down so I might post that later. I am so glad I did the ceremony. It was such a great experience. My friends Andi and Jessi came along with my parents and my sister, who had to leave early to go to work. She saw me walk across the stage though and get my certificate. I loved that bit. I was so stoked and tuned everything around me out. I felt a little light-headed but so proud. I can't wait to do it again for a more prestigious degree. What a great weekend.

My Graduation day

Today is my Graduation day and I am quite excited about it. I will have my immediate family and 2 closest friends with me I think it will feel so awesome wearing the cap and gown, taking pictures with my family and friends, and getting the Testamur. I can't wait to frame it. I went a little crazy getting 4 of the same frame just so I can frame any other important certificates I get in the same frame. That's me. It'll be such a fun experience.

Last night I hung out with Andi and my sister and one of her flat mates Nicole. Andi and I went to the Barn Market to visit Holly and we had a wander, got our photo taken from the party booth, then went to the Queens Head pub for a drink before going to Cool Thai for dinner. Then we picked my sister up from work, went back to hers for a bit, then Andi and I went to the Alley Cat first for James' SNERT gig. I really enjoyed myself, especially hanging out with Andi like that. I miss the College going out freedom we had. We take what we can get though.

Tonight we might go for a drink somewhere or have some food after the ceremony. Mum and dad are going to my uncle Richard and his partner Lyn's place for dinner and Sarah has to go to work so it'll just be me and Andi and Jessi. We might have Cool Thai or a drink first. I don't want a bit night again as I'm still not feeling right, and I am going to Andi's daughter Ivy's second birthday party on Sunday from 11-1, then I have work at 5. I'm happy for some dinner and chats. That will do me fine.

Backwards meeting.

I went to town today to get my x-ray for my dentist but didn't have it done as I wasn't aware I needed the referral form [which was in my wallet and I didn't realise] so I went down into Salamanca for some gelato instead. I paused for a moment to eat on a corner and looked over towards Zum [where Yorick works] to see if he was there. I had seen his car on the way through parked up on the main road and wasn't sure if I wanted to go in and say hi or not. I went back up to my car when I got a message from him saying "Did I just see you in Salamanca?" and I said yes and asked if he was still around. He said yes, that he was sitting outside Zum and to come by and say hi. So I went back down and there he was. He was sitting at a table outside with 3 other people and we had a chat for a few minutes. He wasn't smiling at all, just looked tired or wasted or seedy. He is in desperate need of a haircut and it was just a weird conversation. It wasn't very smooth. Holly said "fancy making you go see him with others there" and too right I say. He didn't make the effort to come to me. I had to go to him. It was weird standing there talking to him with others listening. He's been reading my Facebook posts so he knows what I'm up to. I hope he feels crappy about his life because mine is so awesome, or at least will be by next year, unless I get the Coles Bay job and it'll start being awesome in a few weeks. He brought up that we should do lunch again. Mum and I talked about that when we got home that maybe it's an invitation that can just hang in the air. I'm not sure I want to do it. I like that the last few months I haven't seen him. I want to know what he's up to but not from him. I'm happy to just leave it in the past and fondly remember the great times we had. I doubt either of us will follow it up. It's nice having it there though. The funny thing is, I locked my keys in the car on the way back down from my car to see him. Bad omen. Holly said he's a bad luck charm. It does feel a bit lame that I went back down there to say hi to him when he was with other people. He wasn't making an effort. He didn't even get up or anything, just sat there slouched in his chair. Then towards the end he started talking to his friend and after they stopped talking I said that I was off and said by and didn't really look at him. It was very rude. There's not much point in going backwards by hanging out together. It would only be out of wanting to hold onto the old memories of who we were together. It's not about moving forward as what we had and have is in the past. We're not moving forward as friends so it's probably best not to dwell in it too much. I love my freedom. I do miss the companionship but I'm happy alone right now as I know I'll have the right relationship for me in a year or two. I need to be independent for the time being and learn about myself. I don't want to give myself away in the next relationship. It's a big lesson to learn and keep learning for me.

In other news, tomorrow night I'm going to visit Holly at the Barn Market at about 7pm and then I'll go and have Cool Thai for dinner before going to my sister's then to the Alley Cat [Yorick's second home in my opinion] to see SNERT play. I can't wait to have Cool Thai for dinner. I must have it. I was meant to be having it tonight with Emma but she's sick. I wanted Cosmopolitans with her! Arr. Next week maybe, if I'm not working. I am so excited about Sydney.

I want to forget about Yorick. I don't like the way it went today. It is better left alone. There is no point in hanging out as it will never be the same and it won't be about moving forward. We can't really be friends, just polite to each other. That is all it'll be. I have to try and put today out of my mind. Arrr.

More Sydney planning

I've been doing more planning for Sydney this morning. The backpacker's I'm staying at is so close to the city and to Darling Harbour [a 2 minute walk] so I won't have to take much public transport apart from a bus to the Uni. I have the routes figured out for that and where to catch the bus so it is all sorted. I've never been this organised for a trip before. When going to NZ and Vanuatu with Yorick, he did most of the planning. He suggested places to go and I would have agreed or disagreed but this trip is all me. I'm never this organised in my own life. At work I'm organised but not personally. I like it. I need to be more organised and I know that once I have my own house, whether it's renting in Sydney or even if/when I'm in the dorms I'll be more organised and neat. I want to be.

My long list of activities will cover 2 days. There are city area activities and Darling Harbour activities but I still haven't decided on what day to cover which area, especially since I have just found out that the back packers is only a 2 minute walk to Darling Harbour. I thought I'd have to make a special trip out there but it looks like I won't. It's not too far. On my walk with mum yesterday we mentioned walking boots and sales in stores at this time of year. When I go to town today I might check it out so I can take my new hiking/walking boots to Sydney with me. I'll be doing a lot of walking around the city and Darling Harbour and ugg boots probably won't cut it.

I found an online website that sells tickets for a combined Sydney Aquarium and Sydney Wildlife World pass for $48.95. I might leave booking that for when I'm there, just in case I don't get enough time to cover everything. Those two places would take at least an hour each and I already have many activities planned. I get there at lunch time on the Friday so I will have half a day for activities. Saturday is reserved for the Uni Open Day [plus there are some markets near that I might be able to go to] until 4pm and Sunday is wide open. I'll have to get up really early on Sunday to fit everything in. I'll have to take a book or two to read while I'm over there for evenings. I won't be staying up too late. I might fit in a movie or something to pass the evening time.

I love that I've been planning this so well. It's one of those things I say I'll do but won't really do it and for this trip it's the opposite. I'm so happy about it and proud of my efforts. There is so much to do it needed to be done. I'm still working on it and might even go as far as to plan the order of the activities I do relating to where they are on the map instead of walking back and forwards. I must get those boots.

Planning for Sydney

As I said I would, I have been planning the activities I want to do and places I want to see while I'm in Sydney. I have a fairly big list and am wondering if I'll fit it all in. There are two areas I want to visit, being the city and Darling Harbour, so if I go by location I might be able to get things done. I want to do some shopping, see some parks and gardens, take in some of the local attraction activities [Sydney Wildlife World, Sydney Aquarium and the Sydney Observatory] and see some of the museums. 3 of the 5 museums I want to visit have a $10 entry fee for adults, and the Chinese Garden of Friendship park has a $6 admission so I'll spend a little bit of money that way. The attraction activities listed above will have a larger fee but you can get a combined ticket which will take $10 off the price. I will have enough money. Will I have enough time is another question. More for next time if/when I go over for the Graduate Options Expo.

Today I feel updateable

I have to organise my trip to Sydney soon. I might do it tonight by starting with all the activities I want to do on the Saturday at the Uni Open Day including all the times I can see the accommodation. There will be activities I won't know about until I'm there but I can plan for some things. I also want to write a list of all the places I want to see while I'm in the city, like the malls and museums and parks. I think Sunday might be museums and parks day. I have Friday from lunch time to get to my backpackers and maybe I can go shopping then and find some places to eat. I will probably get yogurt for breakfast on the Saturday while waiting for a bus to the Uni, which reminds me that on Friday I will have to go in search of the bus stop I'm to take. I can even grab some bus timetables and things like that. There is a lot to plan so that is my mission tonight.

I've been reading a book for the last few days since Sunday and I'm really proud of myself for sticking with it and not watching as much TV. It's one that blogger Danielle from Sometimes Sweet recommended and I bought off the Book Depository. It's called "The Opposite of Me" by Sarah Pekkanen and has been a great read so far. I've almost finished it and am excited to move onto the next book, one I bought for $5 a month ago. It's about philosophy. It's nice that I'm getting myself out of the TV series habit/crutch and doing something more worthwhile. Reading is good and I need to keep it up. I feel guilty when I watch too many episodes and I'm glad this week I have stopped. I watched a movie last night, "Porco Rosso" by Hayao Miayazaki, and it was nice. I really liked it and it's different to an episode. I want to stop wasting my time so much. It's my challenge. I also want to stop being lazy and organise my room and life more. I hope I get the Coles Bay job but if I don't I'll apply at the bookstores again. Working a lot will help with the laziness and help me prepare for Sydney next year.

I also have to get back into the swing of fitness. I went for a walk with the dog yesterday and am about to go with mum. I hate my lower half figure. My tummy is also included in this. My top third is fine, nice and slim, but it's the bottom thirds that suck. Arr. I want to lose 10 kilograms but I don't know how. I have to eat less. Being sick hasn't helped. I have to start going back to the gym. I'll talk to Emma about it tomorrow at Onba and maybe organise to meet her there for some sessions after she's done with work. More fun that way.

My graduation is coming up on the weekend. I have to collect my gown and hat and hood that day [Saturday], then get my sister to do something with my hair, then get back to the Uni and stay there for an hour or so before the ceremony starts. I don't know what I'll wear underneath. I assume the gown will be fairly long but will show shoes. I might have to get some nice flats or just wear my Volleys or Converse shoes. I'll wear stockings and a skirt underneath as usual but it's the shoes I'm wondering about. I'll get it sorted.

I'm going into town today to get an x-ray for my wisdom teeth for my dentist. I went there last Friday and have to have 6 cavities filled in 2 sittings. I'm going this Friday at 2pm and the Friday in a fortnight after as the one in between is when I'll be heading to Sydney. They will have to stick needles in me to numb me which I'm not looking forward to. I don't like going there and having things in my mouth only because my gag reflex is sensitive. I don't mind the pain as such but I'll be happy for it to be over and done with. It'll cost over $800 for all 6 cavities, which mum and dad will front the money for, and I also have to pay for my car's service. It's been making funny noises lately and has to have some work done on it. It's there today so hopefully the bill isn't too high. I worked for 4 days last week so I'll be getting a big pay as I did some long hours so hopefully that will be enough to cover the car service as well as having some left for Sydney. We will see.

Off for that walk now! Prepared to be worn out and puffing.

Threadless

I just bought some more Threadless t-shirts which will boost my collection from 9 to 14. They fit so well and I love that I just have to decide on which colour and print I want to wear that day and all the rest of my outfit locks into place. I hope that when I go to Sydney I can get a new skirt and new boots so I can spice my look up a bit. I wear the same 2 skirts all the time, one of them being my work skirt, so I definitely need something new that will be a wear-everyday kind of skirt. I also wear my ugg boots everyday and that needs to change as 1. they're getting holes in them and 2. they're not real shoes. Sydney here I come.

So here are the Threadless t-shirts I have been collection over the last year or two.

Fail

Birds of a Feather

I have this with a red feather but the picture was gone

Alphabet Zoo

Star-cross'd Lovers

I Can't Draw

The Monsterhill

Fake Pandas Have More Fun

Put the Needle on the Record

peliCAN

And as of today, I have now added another 5 t-shirts to my collection. They will arrive within 3 weeks from America and I think they will be a great addition to my wardrobe.

A Walk in the Clouds

Be Still, Life

BEarth

Streetlife

Water Balloons

I am a Threadless addict but I love it. The t-shirts all fit the same and they are of great quality. Most of them I got on the sales for $9 or $10, maybe one or two for the full price of $18, but most were cheap. $10 postage and they're all still cheap t-shirts. I love Threadless!

Pictures of Sydney and the Uni

I just love the look of the Uni. That's partly my reason for choosing it, as well as the great course. Sydney would also be a fantastic place to live. The big city. I'll have to think a lot about how long I want to live there for...

Open Day

I have just my flights to Sydney for the Uni Open Day on the 28th of August. I am strapped for cash but I'll survive. On the way over to visit George and Etta, mum was talking to me about accommodation while I'm over there and to really check it all out. I would like to stay in a dorm there, on campus that is, but it's $450 a week for most. That is a lot of money. She said I'd have to be on Centrelink and I suppose I will. I didn't want to go on it ever again but it beats being poor.

I could stay over there for the semesters and come back over the summer holidays but the problem with that is that it doesn't mean I have really moved over there. What if a job comes up with one of the museums I do my internship with? I don't know what to do regarding moving completely or staying over for the semesters. I guess I'll check it all out on the Open Day and have a bit of a think about it. I was thinking I'd move over there a month or two before classes started to find a house and stuff, but if I'm in the dorms I wouldn't have to do that. I don't quite know what to do. I have to "cost it all up" as mum said. Oh I will have to.

Yorick on Facebook

Yorick has taken off his relationship status from his Facebook profile. I'm wondering if that means he's with someone and doesn't want to flaunt it in my face. Holly said that if he was with someone she'd be with him at Wolfy's drinks last Friday night. I haven't had another catch-up with her to hear the gossip so it might be true. My life is way better than his, that's what I have to remind myself of. I have Sydney to save and plan for next year starting in 2 weeks and I'm not messed up like he is. He's addicted to alcohol and cigarettes, it's pathetic. He's not strong enough to quit. I'd be surprised if he did. I've seen some comments about it on his Facebook page but he hasn't written on there in ages. It's been nice not seeing him but I do want to know the gossip. It's a Pandora's Box thing. I'm not sure I should know, depending on the level of juiciness. Holly has the secrets. It'll be nice once I'm in Sydney removed from all of this, starting afresh. I hope my little weekend trip there goes well. I'm excited about being a city girl, and a Sydney girl. I think it will be fabulous, and I'll be undertaking a great Uni course. It'll be great. Hopefully I meet Mr. Right over there.

Lonely Planet Sydney

I bought the Lonely Planet Sydney City Guide today and have already found some things to look into for when I take my trip in 2 weeks. I'm very excited about it. I hope it's everything I want it to be. I want to make sure I have it all planned, where the bus stops are to the Uni and how to get from the airport to the city [via the shuttle for $13 one way which I can book] and where the places I want to see are. I don't want to feel lost. I'll work it out.

Not much else is happening in my life right now. Currently a little annoyed by my sister singing in the kitchen making pancakes. She's a nutter, but a lovable one. I'm not too sad about not going to the UK next year. I don't want to be pressured by a small trip. Once I get qualified to be a Museum Curator I'll go work over there and travel and settle down. That's my plan. My plans change a lot.

Time for pancakes.

Sydney trip sooner than later

Sarah has been over since yesterday and is staying again tonight and after dinner the 4 of us had a chat [ with mum and dad that is] and we might not be going to the UK next year. Instead I might start my Sydney Uni course earlier. I'm excited about that and I'm going to go to the open day on the 28th to check it all out and enroll for my course. I'm going to fly up on the 27th for a lunch time arrival, go to the back packers [probably Base backpackers on Kent Street], then have a wander around the city. On Saturday I'll go to the Uni for the day [the open day is from 930-4] and on Sunday I'll do some fun things like see the museums and the botanical gardens and the harbour. I want to have a nice introduction to the city and start getting to know my way around. It'll be about $115 for the flights there and back, and $87 for 3 nights at the backpackers and I'll need more money for transport and food. I have enough for the flights and accommodation and once I'm paid again twice I should be alright. I was saving money for going away but it has to go to this now. I'm excited about it!

SNERT and Brittle

I went to Holly's yesterday afternoon and hung there for several hours. We chatted about my future plans and about Yorick for a bit and it was really nice to catch up. She gave me some good advice and perspective and said she'd do some snooping when she went to Wolfy's for his birthday drinks last night about what Yorick's been up to. I might not want to know but I might. We discussed whether or not I should leave it completely. She said that Ruben might be able to deal with my computer instead of going to Yorick. It has been nice not seeing him. I miss the lifestyle and the company but not him, not who he is today.

After Holly's I went and got some alcohol for me and Sarah then went to Cool Thai for dinner. I ate too much. Then Sarah finished work and we went to hers for drinks then to the Republic to see SNERT, my brother's band, and Brittle after them. We danced all night and at the end we chatted to Brittle. I liked the look of the drummer the best and he came and talked to me. Apparently, as Sarah and her 2 house mates were talking to the other band members, they said oooo when me and Geoff were talking. It was a nice conversation, nothing sexual or creepy. We talked about the tour and being able to play music and where they were staying and showers and beer and what they were doing for the rest of their stay in Hobart [going to Salamanca today and the mountain to see snow] and it was just really nice. Yeah I thought he was cute but he's from Melbourne and I'm not the type to force myself on him. I would have kissed him but that's it. I second guessed myself by thinking I didn't play it right, that he didn't think I was interested, but I don't know if I needed him to know that. It was just a nice moment. We stayed there for a while longer, all chatted to the band, then went back to the girls' house and I drove home. I got home at 3/330 and am feeling a bit seedy. I'll be okay though. I will go back to bed soon and watch TV [Sex and the City] until I feel better. I should go for a walk and burn off what I ate yesterday. We'll see.

New phone

I bought the HTC Desire today. It felt so good in the store talking to the lady about it. I paid $120 off the cost of it in store and I'm on the $49 cap with $10 of phone-repayments and I'll pay half of it each week to lessen the blow of the cost. I have 500 somethings of data, which is good, and have been playing with it ever since, making the 7 home screens just how I like them. It's super pretty. I'm just looking at leather cases on eBay but there is a hole for where the camera is! That won't protect it! And why would I be taking photos with the case on? I might get another sock like I have for my Hiptop3 or simply use that instead. Something new would be nice. I might get one from Uni as that's where I got it from. That will do fine.

James, George and Etta were over yesterday at my parent's house [where I am currently living] for lunch. I had long holds/cuddles with Etta and it got me thinking about how much I want what they have but also that I'm scared because I know nothing about babies. They keep mentioning all these little things about baby stuff that I have never heard of before and on our walk, mum said I would find out when it was necessary. I hope so. I can't wait to have that life. I know I don't want to settle down in Tassie though. I want to live in the UK. I reckon I'll come back here for a while but it's not my idea place to settle down. The only thing keeping me here is friends and family. I have plans for Sydney and the UK before and after that [after for a longer time] but I'll miss Etta growing up and them having a second child. "Drat that Mrs. Kim" [Gilmore Girls].

Yorick was in my dream last night. My sister and I were sitting in a classroom I used to be in for a class in high school, one of the terrapins off the English building that I had German in, and Yorick was there behind us somewhere trying to suss out what we were doing in the class. I haven't seen him in weeks and the only contact we've had was about tax numbers. He hasn't contacted me and I haven't contacted him. I'm happy with the way things are and I don't care that we're not seeing each other. The only reason I think it's weird that we're not together is because for the last 4 years I was sure we were meant to go the distance. I'm happy not hanging out with him but I want gossip and Sophie is away so she can't find it out for me and pass it on. I don't really want to hang with him but then I like to so I know what he's up to. That's not a good reason to ask him to hang. We said we might go for hot chips in Lenah Valley for the next hang session. I might ask him to do that when I need him to fix my computer as he said he would. I want him to be jealous of all my plans, Sydney, UK and the Federal Group. I like having gossip from Sophie. I'm seeing Holly this afternoon so maybe she has some gossip for me.

I told Alison about the possibility of Coles Bay and she was excited for me. I thought she'd be mad because I'll be leaving thebeach when they need good workers. She has hired 4 new people but I'm not sure they're very experienced. I might not even get the job but I'm hoping I do. I need the change of scenery and the adventure and the full-time work. I might get the news just after my graduation on the 21st of August. If I don't get it I'll have to find full-time work elsewhere. I'm excited about seeing Holly today. I've missed her and I have so much to tell her. She's definitely like a big sister. When I contacted her last week about meeting up sometime [she said today] she said she wondered where I had gotten to as I said I was sick. She didn't write to me though. Sad.

Dad and I are going to go for a walk soon. I got my new runners from Big W for $14 and the are fine, not sore at all after my walk with mum yesterday. I want to get back into exercise mode. I want to lose weight and get fit. Going to Coles Bay would be great as I could run on the beach each day. That would be bliss.

I haven't seen Yorick is ages. I kinda don't care but he was a great friend if nothing else and I would like to keep in contact. I want him to fix my computer and I would like to have chips in the park with him but I also don't want to know what he gets up to these days as I'm sure I wouldn't approve. It's not my place to approve and I'm out of that pit for good. My life is better than it was with him. I have Sydney and the UK and the possibility of Freycinet/Cradle Mountain. I do want to see him. It's easy not seeing him but I might wait until I have an external hard drive so I can get most of my stuff onto that before giving him my laptop to fix, not that I really think he'd snoop, just to make it easier for him I suppose. I said he can get the NZ/Vanuatu pictures off my computer, even though he would show them to others and not admit I was there. Whatever. I'm better off without him in my life. Way better off. I might see him next week.

Guilt for another reason

I have to tell my boss Alison that I have applied for the Freycinet/Cradle Mountain job and that I have put her down as a referee. Mum says I don't owe her any kind of explanation but I feel I should. I feel like I'm leaving her in the lurch but then again as mum pointed out I'm not working there much and the job I applied for is full time work in a great location. I want to say to Alison that I need this kind of adventure and I want to explain because that's just who I am so I think I will. I have drafted a message and tried to soften the blow by saying it would only be for a few months but I shouldn't lie. If I got the job and I liked it I wouldn't go back to thebeach as there would be no time and I'd only come back for social visits. She has some great workers there, even though a lot have left recently and more are planning to, and more coming in this week. They'll survive. I just feel bad, especially since Sara said she and Alison had been talking about how functions should have the same staff and that I could be one of those staff. It's just to keep things consistent but it is kind of like more power or that I'm slightly moving up in the hierarchy despite having worked there for almost 2 years. I feel like I owe her an explanation. I feel guilty. I don't want to feel guilty.

In other news, I sent my resume and cover letter to a friend of the family to give to his contact at the Tasmanian Museum and Art Gallery [TMAG] to see about me being shown around the museum to find out what being a curator means. I might volunteer there for a week to get to know the ins and outs of the job. Another friend of the family also has a contact at the museum across the road, one we haven't been to, and I might be able to do a similar thing there. It would be a great way to start on this career path and to make sure it's what I want to do for my career. I think it's just the right combination of archaeology, anthropology and history in the form of a focused, categorical, and organised job which will be just perfect for me. I am so excited about Sydney.

I am going to head off now and buy some running shoes and maybe something to wear to the gym and while I'm out walking. Maybe some shorts and knee length leggings to wear underneath. I don't want to show my figure as I don't like it very much and I want to feel comfortable enough to workout in front of people. Then tomorrow I can go for a walk in my new gear before heading out to hang with Andi and visit James and George and Etta. I did a bit of skipping today, for 3 minutes at the most, and I'm not very springy. I wobble too much and feel very heavy. I need to work on that. Tomorrow I'll kick myself into gear. Another thing I love about the possibility of this job is that I'll be in a great routine, I can go running on the beach each morning before work, and focus on myself. I hope I get it.

Sydney Uni Open Day

I want to go to the University of Sydney's Open Day! This year it's on August 28th from 9-430 and has some great activities. I wonder if they have one for early next year so I can go before Sarah and I head off to the UK. I don't want to miss something as important as this Open Day as it will provide me with all the information I need. I'll be able to enroll and be shown around the campus, talk to the faculty members. I'll have to check the situation out.

University of Sydney Open Day 2010
Get one-on-one advice
Do you need more information about admissions, courses or other aspects of studying at the University of Sydney? Then talk to the faculty representatives, career experts and admissions advisers at the information booths in the Quadrangle. Between them, they can answer all your questions. Have a look at the maps to find out where you can get the answers you need.

Take in a lecture, or three
We’re running a program of mini-lectures all day, covering many different aspects of the University. Check what’s on offer, choose the ones that interest you and then print your personalised program.

See the sights
We’re running regular tours of the campus, faculty buildings, museums and residential colleges throughout Open Day as well as lots of interesting demonstrations. Find out what interests you.

Soak up the atmosphere
There will be food, music and entertainment in several locations across campus. Relax, hang out with friends – or make new ones – and get a glimpse into your life as a Sydney student!

Museum Tours
Sydney University Museums
Free 20-minute tours of Sydney University Museums depart from the foyer of the Nicholson Museum at 11am, 12pm, 1pm and 2pm. Handle genuine archaeological artefacts, speak to archaeology and history students, watch film screenings and listen to short talks throughout the day. See page 13 for more information.

Pathology Museum
Meet in the foyer of the Edward Ford Building on Fisher Road and take a guided tour of the fascinating – and sometimes gruesome – Pathology Museum. The 40-minute tours run every hour from 10am to 1pm.

I just wrote an email to the future students email address asking about the Open Day for 2011. I really want to go.