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I love my niece Etta so much, she makes me want to have a baby now. James and George and Etta came over for dinner tonight with mum's friend Christine from Launceston and it was so lovely seeing a happy, awake, and alert Etta. She's getting more and more like that. She's 4 months old! How time has flown by. I can't wait to start a family.

Speaking about starting things, I started a Spring/Summer unit at the Centre for Arts, aka Art School or Fine Arts part of the Uni, and it's to do with MONA, a new private museum [to be the largest in Australia] started by David Walsh. We have 6 weeks of 1h lectures and 1h tutorials then in January we go to the MONA [Museum of Old and New Art] site out at Moorilla for 5 days from 930-330 and do some intensive learning. It'll be fantastic! I'm loving being back at Uni even though the studying hasn't quite started yet. I won't be hugely bored this Summer! I'm pleased about that. And it's extremely relevant to my future studies. There is a chance of employment through this course but it's to be someone who mediates between the art and the viewer. It's not curating or anywhere near it but it'll be great to see that side of things and it might be a necessary stepping stone to one day being a curator or assistant curator. I'm very, very excited about it.

I'm going to get another Threadless tee! And as I told Holly when I saw her last week, I keep thinking of things in terms of tattoo's so this is a possibility. I think this addition to my collection makes 17 as I bought two the other day. I'm not sure why the name doesn't have a capitol and from my position it doesn't say anything about the design [art should speak for itself though and it does. Rona and I discussed this today at the Maritime] but it's not about the title it's about the beautiful work itself. And I truly love it.

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As I mentioned above, I went to the Maritime today. I felt like I was really doing something important. I was helping with a quest to find any evidence [through Hobart Regatta silk winning lists] that a particular carved whale bone and the family involved is linked to Tasmania. It is the hopes of the people asking for it to be brought to the Maritime and put on display, otherwise it'll stay in the USA, where is currently resides. I'll be continuing on with that next week! I'm pleased.

I have to pay my car rego tomorrow. I'm sad. I don't want to part with any more of the money I've been saving. Luckily I get paid tomorrow and this week I'm doing 5 shifts so it won't seem like too much has gone. It does make me sad watching it going down. It is, fingers crossed, the last time I'll have to do it for a few years and I'll, also fingers crossed, get some of this "investment" back once I sell it before heading off to Sydney or Melbourne.

For now it's off the computer and to bed! Some Gilmore Girls before sleep is inevitable and hopefully I won't wake up too early with the sun in the morning so I can feel rested instead of tired. That would be nice.

A year of changes.

I went for a lovely walk this afternoon to the top of Red Hill where we used to go as kids. It's so lovely up there. You can see some of Snug and Conningham, possibly Bruny Island and to Mt Wellington. It was lovely. I felt so free, undisturbed by the pressures of work and responsibility. It was heaven. While I was up there I read Danielle's birthing post about baby Henry and it was lovely. I want that one day. I'm clucky.

Andi sent me an email about this course done through the Uni with MONA [Museum of Old and New Art], which will be opening in January next year, but the applications closed on the 18th of November and it start tomorrow. I tried to call the person in charge but it's no use. It's too late and I would look bad what with already being late to arrive to the news. It's a shame I didn't look at my email before either, our Uni email that is, as I would have gone out for it. It is a shame but it obviously wasn't meant to be.

Work was dull today and it's so strange for a Sunday. The restaurant is usually packed on Sundays, which is why I don't like to work them in the day time but am glad I am home this evening. It's nice to have work out of the way and have the evening to myself, especially since it's still light out. Once I got home I felt like doing something and I'm glad I went for the walk up to Red Hill.

This week I'm working Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights all starting around 6pm, 5pm on Sunday. I'm glad I'll be getting more work but I feel like Joerg, the manager, if going to fire me at any moment. He kept pulling me up for things on Saturday night and one other day this week. He's only here for 2 weeks and I don't think he will fire me for my silly mistakes [Opening another bottle of wine when I didn't look thoroughly enough and see a hidden opened one, almost doing this again and being growled at for it, and taking the protector off the top off a bottle of red to get to the cork. Joerg said it was tacky but Alison, the owner, taught me that little trick. I didn't mention that to him] but I can't help think he will. I need this job though. I need to save as much money as I can and I can't afford to lose it. There is no chance of finding work when I'll be leaving so soon. I'll have to be on my best behaviour. I think he just wanted to use his authority a bit too. He's usually very nice.

I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. I should start writing a list of things I need to do, like work on and finish my New Zealand and Vanuatu Travel Books. That is something I really need to finish. Then there's getting ready for next year, but that doesn't need to be started until closer to my leaving date, whenever that ends up being. I really want to know if it's going to be Sydney. I'll be devastated if it's not. I will do some studying tomorrow. That's what I'll do. Probably take Katie for a walk and hopefully start working on the Travel Books. They really need to be done. Then I have work.

Tuesday we're having a family dinner with some special guests -- mum's friend Christine and her daughter Lilly, who has recently become the face of Tasmania I think, something to do with Vogue, and possibly Lilly's partner. James and George will be up with Etta and it'll just be a very nice evening. Wednesday I'm Christmas shopping with Andi at K-Mart and apart from that I have no real plans for the rest of the week.

It'll be December soon! I can't believe how fast this year has gone and yet nothing great has happened to me. I've had an interesting year.

Here's something from the Daily Horoscope application on my phone.

Year of the Tiger.

The Tiger is a fighter, so this year calls for bravery, courage, and strength of spirit. This year will be anything but quiet. It will bring to our lives the element of surprise and suddenness. The circumstances and situations will be changing rapidly and many people will find it difficult to adjust to 2010's instability.

Regardless of the protection of their mascot, Tiger people could have either a very lucky or a very unfortunate year. Either way, this will be a year of big changes. The stakes are high, and so is the risk.

So there you have it. This year for me has definitely seen big changes. I had to show bravery, courage, and strength of spirit through breaking up with Yorick and beyond that by dealing with everything that came afterwards. That whole experience was surprising and sudden, very out of the blue, and I haven't enjoyed 2010 at all. Since making plans for next year and for my life, I have just wanted to skip to the point where it all begins, afresh, in another part of the country, but alas, I am still waiting for the adventures to begin. 2010 has been a very unstable year for me. I will be glad to see the back of it. I'm sure I'll feel a sense of relief, but then again it won't be full until I have moved out of Tasmania. A year of big, big changes, that's for sure.

If I won a multi-million dollar sweepstakes...

Daily Horoscope [from my phone]. Scorpio.

If someone knocked at your door today and announced that you had just won a multi-million dollar sweepstakes prize, how would your life change? Would you quit your job, dump your significant other, move to another part of the country? Would you reevaluate your coterie of friends, go back to school and study your dream career path, begin a charity that is so close to your heart? Whether you win a lot of money or not, Scorpio, the answers to this question say a lot about what's missing in your life. Choose at least one to begin, and you will enrich your life.

When I read todays horoscope I marveled at how spot on it was regarding the last 6 months. So many things have changed and so many are yet to be but there are many things in the works. My life is completely different and I know what I want but am waiting for things to fall into place.

I want to move to another part of the country and am waiting to hear back from Sydney. I did dump my significant other but it wasn't my plan, it was his. I would definitely quit my job. My friends are fine and I see them when I want. I am hoping to go back to school and get into the right career path for me -- museum studies -- so that's another one down. One of the main things I want to do is travel. Winning the sweepstakes would be fantastic and I would up and leave to go on holiday now to the UK as I have family there although I want to travel around South-East Asia first. I don't want to go alone though so I'd probably save the money and go when I find my future husband.

What's missing in my life is adventure. I want to start afresh in Sydney next year and study at the beautiful University of Sydney. I want to have my own house and make it just as I like, over time of course as money will be an issue. I want to be dependent only on myself for most things and learn to be self-sufficient. Eventually I want to find my ideal partner and start a family as I am totally clucky these days and do lots of travelling. If I were still with Yorick I wouldn't have any of these marvelous plans or the desire to do more. I would be stuck in a dead-end relationship and still not be able to see it. That's depressing. I just want these last few months in Tasmania to speed up so I can start my new adventures. First I need to know if I'm going to Sydney or not. Then I can really plan and have a date that it'll all begin. If I don't get in, coming to terms with the knowledge that I'll have to go to Melbourne will be hard. I don't want to go there. I don't think there's any other choice though, as I don't have an honours degree and will never get one. It has to be Sydney.

So, a lot of things are already in motion. Now I just have to keep waiting.

2 new Threadless additions to my wardrobe

I'm a naughty girl. I'm buying more tee's when I should be saving my money. I'm not going to end up saving as much as I need to. I'm not trying to be defeatist but realistic. At any rate I shouldn't be buying things like this but I want to and I should have what I want, right? I also want to move away next year but in order to do that I need to save my pennies. Vicious circle. This new purchase is very fantasy orientated. Harry Potter and the Wizard of Oz. Hehe.

House Brawl

Where Dreams Comes True

On my own

I can't wait to be living by myself. I'm thinking of this right now only because mum has just done some laundry and once again I feel guilty about it. I don't want to depend on anyone but myself until I get married and even then I don't want to depend on him too much. I hope it's Sydney.

Books

I'm looking at more books on the Book Depository. It's fun! I received my first two museum books in the mail yesterday and am now looking into getting more on the way. I want some on archaeology and found this great one on human beings and how technology changed the course of human evolution. Unfortunately most of them cost around $40 and I don't want to spend too much of my savings. I'm being paid today so I'll spend a little. I didn't actually put any money away last week so I'm feeling bad about not saving anything. I'll change that today.

Make up your mind, weather!

Now it's raining! Todays weather is crazy! Unfortunately I am definitely going out. Just because it's too hot, doesn't mean I should skip a standing appointment. Same with the rain. And it's important. It just sucks that I have to leave in this weather. Urr.

Heat wave

I'm meant to be going to the Maritime today but it's 28 degrees or something stupid. I did my first catalogue walk today and the heat was unbearable. It was horrible. I'm not sure how I'll go doing it again if the weather keeps up like this. Also, there are far too many streets to cover. I'm doubt I'll keep going. I have a fair few left over too. I thought I covered almost all of the streets in the allowed area. After I got home I jumped straight into a cold shower and I'm feeling better now but I don't want to go back out into the heat. I shouldn't miss the volunteering though as I said I'd go and Rona has probably got some tasks for me written down. I don't have long to decide either. I might be needed at work tonight and I really hope I'm not because of the weather. It'd be packed. Knowing my luck they'll get me in. I don't have much time to decide if I'm going to the Maritime or not. I wouldn't do much here at home. I'd eat as I'm hungry, and try to escape the heat while reading my new museum book Making Museums Matter. I don't know what to do. I'd have to call up at some stage. Ahhhh I may as well go. Once again I'll die of the heat but whatever. I may as well go. I just hope I don't have to work as well. Ahh.

Christmas present for dad

I just stumbled upon a link that Katie from igobykatie posted. It's a camera lens that can be used as a mug! I might get one for dad for Christmas. I think he'd like it. It can also be used as a pot planter! Hehe.

http://photojojo.com/store/awesomeness/camera-lens-mug/

Clothing wish list

After reading lots of blogs and following the 30 for 30, and after seeing many great outfits, I have decided I want a lot of the clothes I have seen. I'm going to write a list --

+ White [work] shirt

+ Light blue [work] shirt

+ Some kind of flannelette-look-alike shirt

+ Boots

+ Cute cardigans

+ A moo moo!

I'll add more as I think of it.

Self-love inspired by Gala

I went out on the town last night and once again confirmed how much I hate clubs. I hate how crowded they are and that no one minds pushing others out of the way. I hate the game, that guys, and girls I suppose, only want one thing. I hate that I feel that I can't breathe properly and I hate always being on guard. It's definitely not my scene. It was fun going out with my sister though. It was strange seeing her drunk and how she changes so much. I guess it's an extension of herself and it's funny I haven't seen that side of her yet after 21 years together. I'll endeavour to see it again to know her better.

I am feeling a little bit off today after last night. I want to have a shower but for the last few weeks we've had problems with the pipes and dad and the neighbours are trying to fix it now so I'm putting off getting clean while they work. I thought I'd mention the pipes as I usually wouldn't, and haven't up until this point, because I usually talk about my experiences and feelings on here. I'm not one for describing the world around me and one day, reading back on this, I would like to remember details like the pipes. I should start doing that more.

Things to add to my lists from here --

+ Stretch in the mornings.
It gets the blood moving, it fires up your brain and it gives you a few moments to just be still and grounded before the day begins.

+ Have media black-out days.
Stay away from your computer, phone and television for an entire day. Those of us are who technology addicts will FREAK out at this idea but that’s an even bigger sign that we should try it. So many of us use technology to distract ourselves and keep our minds busy, when we would be far better served by just sitting still and learning to be comfortable alone.

+ Take a bubble bath wearing a tiara

+ Embrace the unknown.
Not everything needs to be planned to the last minute detail! Mystery is wonderful and invigorating. It is the zest of life.

+ Clean out your closet.
In addition to getting rid of old junk, cleaning out closets or cupboards is therapeutic because at the same time, you’re clearing space in your life for new, better things.

+ Forget about your “to do” list and just BE.
That’s when you’ll have the most fun, make the best breakthroughs and experience the most amazing adventures. Life is much more exciting and wonderful when you throw caution to the wind and do something ridiculous.

-- I've always wanted to do this, feel pretty and proper and at my best everyday. This will be a challenge --

+ Make a little extra effort every day.
Your definition of “effort” could be wearing a bow on your head, brightly coloured socks or even just taking the time to sit down with a book every night before bed. Just pick something that you know will make you feel good, and then do it.

-- I want to get an alarm clock that has animal noises, like on Gilmore Girls. Then again, I use my phone as an alarm so it might be hard to adjust and trust that the alarm will work --

+ Change your alarm clock to something which makes you smile.

-- This is a big one. What am I waiting for? --

+ Be good to your body.
You probably know what that means for you. So what are you waiting for?

+ Be vibrant and colourful.
If not in dress, then in word and deed. The world has enough grey! Be the antidote!

+ Do something you’ve been afraid to do.

+ Nourish yourself.

Get still and listen to what your body is telling you it really needs.

+ Get more sunshine.
It really will make you feel so good. In addition to strengthening your immune system, muscles and bones, Vitamin D also stimulates the pineal gland, which is the part of the brain responsible for producing happy feelings.

+ Recognise that life is only ever what you make it.

So why not make it magical, wonderful, beautiful and strange?

+ Run away

Spend some time by yourself or with a close friend. Escape the usual. Go somewhere you’ve never been, spend some time, soak it up. It will shake up your vision of what the world is like and give you a fresh new perspective on things.

+ Dress up for yourself.
Wear things which make you happy! Don’t dress to “attract a mate” or to impress your peer group, wear things that you like. Make yourself happy!

+Be your own superhero.

+ Make magic every day
It’s worth the small amount of extra effort to cultivate a more beautiful life.

+ Don’t live your life online.

+ Volunteer.

+ Be your own best friend.

+ Innovate.
Try new things. Shake up your routine. See what works.

+ Evaluate your life and ruthlessly cut out the things which aren’t working ...
+ ... While at the same time keeping this in mind:
“Simply put, you believe that things or people make you unhappy, but this is not accurate. You make yourself unhappy.” Thanks, Wayne Dyer.

+ Come up with your own definition of spirituality.
It doesn’t have to be religious or woo-woo in any way, it can just be a way of reconnecting yourself to the present moment. Some people do this by dancing, others by meditating. Whatever it is, make time for it in your life, and make it a priority.

+ Share your dreams.
Do not be afraid. When you share a dream with someone who loves you, you open yourself up to new ideas, new contacts and sometimes an extra pair of hands to pitch in! Be brave.

+ Reinvent yourself as an expression of pure love.

+ Think about what you want the theme of your life to be.
Is it an epic love story or a grand adventure? Or is the theme something more simple, and able to be summed up with a single word? “Discovery” or “freedom”? How can you bring that theme into your everyday life?

+ Celebrate the ways in which you have grown & changed.
Growth is good, change is wonderful, evolution is fantastic. It’s proof that we’re on a path, that we’re going somewhere, that we’re living out our story to its full potential. Bake yourself a cake or somethin’!

+ Embrace your power.

+ Start dressing in a way which makes you feel sexy and confident
As opposed to just following what’s in style. Not all silhouettes suit all people. There are definitely styles that are best for individual body types. Once you know what works for you, make the most of it! Few things make you feel better than knowing that you look great.

+ Love everyone.
Even when they hurt you, even when they don’t get it, even when they don’t listen and even when they behave badly. When you love, miracles happen.

+ Take yourself on dates.
Get dressed up and go to the library, eat a delicious lunch next to the river, ride your bike around the city & make the best dinner you possibly can.

+ Forgive yourself.
It’s all in the past. Time to move on, babe.

+ Just love yourself.
No matter the circumstances. You are always good enough, you always deserve it and you are always beautiful, despite what you might think or believe. Just love yourself.

So there you have it. Self-love 101.

Time management

Ideas from Katie --

+ Keep a calender

I already have a weekly calendar on my desk and I always write what I have going on so once I'm in Sydney or Melbourne and have a lot more to do with my time, like studying for example, I will already be organised. I will write due dates for assignments and when my classes are so I know what's coming each day. I am really looking forward to having a packed schedule.

+ Have a to-do notebook

I have just purchased one of these off Esty as you can see from my previous post and I think once I'm in Sydney or Melbourne this will be fantastic. I can set myself daily goals and tick them off [something I love doing on my weekly calendar] and I will definitely be making one for cleaning duties and bathroom habits like washing my face twice daily and brushing my teeth a lot more than I do. I want to be super organisational girl. I'll stick these on the fridge or on a table by the door I want to have so I can put my keys and bag on it once I'm home. It'll be great. Making it fun makes all the difference.

+ Shopping list

I think the cute new shopping list I bought will be fabulous. It'll also help with my plan to have one shopping day a week and one shopping list writing day a week like Danielle from Sometimes Sweet writes about. I don't want to keep going back to the supermarket too often, especially since I won't have a car, and it'll keep costs down. I would probably spend more going day by day. I also want to know what I'll be eating for dinner each week so I can cook more and become the one day housewife I believe I will be. I want to make the dinners for a change, even though I loved being cooked for by Yorick. I'm just too lazy and this habit must stop.

+ I'm moving

Just something cute. I want to send these change of address forms to my family and closes friends so they know where to find me. It'll be lovely! I'll probably send a photo of my new house with the card. It'll be so sweet.

+ Recipes

I need to organise a recipe book before I go. I have lots of ideas and am looking at a new one as I write for apple cider doughnuts courtesy of Danielle from Sometimes Sweet who got it from someone else I think. I want to make these! They sound and look delicious. So I need to find a cute recipe folder and I remember saving a link to an online recipe card maker. My mum has a folder and has lots of cut outs in it but there is no general theme. I might make mine pretty so I am more inclined to use them.

I think that's about it for now. I can't wait to have these in place once I move. It'll be fantastic. I am so very excited about it and anxious to start making plans but it all depends on my acceptance to Sydney and whether or not they want me. Only time will tell.

Actually, I want to be more organised with clothes. I want to have them all stored away nicely like this --

and not have any laying on the floor. I want to make my bed everyday and have things looking neat and tidy all the time. This will be a bit of a stretch but it's worth a try.

A boygirlparty order from Etsy

Once again, I love finding beautiful things through other blogs. I would never have found these beautiful things before, so stumbling across these lovely things is a wonderful blessing. I am going to get some lovely products from boygirlparty on Etsy for when I move to Sydney [I am forever hoping] or Melbourne. I want to get my organisation on and use my time extremely well. I love this post by Katie on time management. I will do it in style.

Boots please

I really want to find some great boots to buy and wear tonight but I think it'll be quite impossible. They have to flare out or be worn with thick socks. I have very specific boots needs that I doubt will be fulfilled. Camping store don't have dressy boots. They can have the right specifications but not the right look for a nice Summer dress [I speak like I have many Summer dresses or like I'm a Summer dress person and yet I only have one!]. I'm sad now. I don't know what to wear out to town shoes wise. I know I won't like whatever I wear. I'll have to go via Big W and see if they at least have any wearable flats. Sigh.

I just realised I keep missing Wednesday Wishes. Today it's about boots. It's always about Sydney. And possibly about tattoo's. One day I'll remember.

Mum and I are going for a walk soon. Then I'll get ready and head to Big W, then town to do some shopping. I'll probably go to the Salamanca Markets and visit Holly and check out Christmas presents for my dad with my mum. Then mum and I are going to see The Girl Who Played with Fire at the State Cinema and have Cool Thai for dinner. After that I'll either head to K-Mart to check out shoes [which will probably be a bad idea] or go straight to Sarah's for her birthday bash. I hope I find boots today. Target! Myer!

Happiness is a mood not a destination tattoo perhaps?

Happiness is a mood, not a destination.

I like this sentence. It reminds me that I can't let happiness depend on what I'll gain from it, like going to Sydney next year, or Melbourne. I've given up on 2010 and I keep thinking that I'll be happier next year, which I probably will due to the circumstances and adventures I'll be having, but happiness is a mood, not a destination. I need to be happy in the present. I have the tendency to think of everything in tattoo-terms these days despite not having one just yet so I'm just playing around with this idea. I like text tattoos. I imagine this on my left under-arm just below my elbow. It's fun to dream.

Jane Austin font

Honey Script font

Things that make me happy

Things that make me happy ...

+ A slight breeze in the sun;

+ Travelling;

+ Catching up with friends;

+ Eating naughty foods;

+ Watching movies and TV series;

+ Feelings of accomplishment after exercise;

+ Reading my favourite blogs;

+ Waking up early because of my sky light;

+ My new room in the shed;

+ The hope of Sydney and planning all the adventures I will have;

+ Thinking about having my own home and slowly filling it with lovely things;

+ Thinking about one day meeting my future husband and what will follow -- marriage, travelling, a home and kids;

+ Twitter on my HTC Desire;

+ Angry Birds on my HTC Desire;

+ Feeling busy;

+ SARK;

+ Beaches and parks;

+ My 4-month-old niece Etta Joy O'Regan;

+ Family;

+ Toasted cheese sandwiches;

+ Thinking about tattoo's;

+ Thinking about how I'll get fish wherever I live next year;

+ Thinking about how cute my house will be;

+ Getting off work;

+ Having days off work;

+ Thinking about having a career one day;

+ Eating;

+ Fairy lights [I need to put mine up];

+ Listening to music.

I'm sure there are more but that's all I can think of at the moment.

... these are things I should focus on in my last few months in Tasmania. I can't put off happiness until my adventures begin. I'll get into bad habits. I know I've given up on 2010 but I can't put off happiness or let it depend on things. It is a mood, not a destination.

House Brawl

I want to get this! Harry Potter rules!

I've always wanted a Threadless hoodie but none of them have really appealed to me. It's $40 but I might wait for a sale. Unless they all sell out.

House Brawl hoodie

Happiness is a mood not a destination

A great One Tree Hill season 8 episode 8 conversation between Brooke and Julian.

Julian

So, I've been thinking about this whole 'being happy' thing, especially since I've been doing this documentary and I feel like people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination

Brooke

Like how do you mean?

We're always thinking some day we'll be happy. We'll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that will fix everything but happiness is a mood and its a condition, not a destination. It's like being tired or hungry, it's not permanent. It comes and goes and that's okay and I feel like if people though of it that way they'd find happiness a lot more often.

Brooke

So you think it's okay to be a little miserable every now and then? Even when you have great things in your life?

Julian

Is it okay to be a little hungry every now and then?

Brooke

Happiness is a mood, not a destination. I like that.

I feel like next year I will get the happiness I'm seeking through University and a new city and my own home and a family. I am treating happiness as a destination and I shouldn't be. I can't help it and I don't know how to change it. Maybe by taking the time to think about what I love in my life and doing little things that make me happy.

In season 8 of One Tree Hill, Julian is making a documentary about what comes next, what you do next when things don't go as planned. Since breaking up with Yorick a lot in my life has changed. Unfortunately at the moment I'm treading water until my plans get made, as in which Uni I'll be going to, and I hate that I'm in this place waiting for things to begin. I hate the way I feel. I feel childlike. I feel lazy because I am lazy. I want to be there now, in my new routine, but first I have to earn money and get accepted to Sydney if it's going to be Sydney before I can even move there. Maybe if I get accepted I'll move earlier than planned. I know I need a lot of money behind me before I go in case I don't get a job first or struggle finding the right place to live but I just want to be there and start this next phase of my life. I hate this period right now, how much I'm depending on next year working out. It's hard because I'm over this year. I want to be rid of it once and for all. I want 2011 because this year is nothing like what I pictured and it's hard living at home. I have definitely overstayed how long I though I would be here but I have to wait until I hear back from Sydney before I make plans and set dates. Once I'm there though everything will be completely different and I will forget what it was like for myself now, well almost. I guess I have to see the good in my life now, and take what happiness I can get because it's not a destination.

Headache

Why does volunteering at the Maritime give me a headache? It seriously happens each week. This was my 4th session there and got back into categorising papers and photographs. I would have added my tasks to my resume except it has some sort of virus and my anti-virus software wants me to pay to use it. No way! Everything needed to fix your computer should be free unless you can't find someone to do it for you. SNERT is here so I can ask James to take a look at it quickly. It might take ages to fix though. One day I'll get a new computer when I know how much ram and that kind of stuff to watch out for. I want high speeds but have no idea what all their hard drive specifications mean. You can tell, can't you.

I can't wait for my SARK posters to arrive in the mail, as well as my museum text books so I can start studying. I just want to be productive and start studying now so I know at least something before the course starts. I want to be working towards something and be using my time for something productive as opposed to wasting it by watching too much TV. One day in the next few weeks I will write to Danielle and get some advice about how to improve my life by getting into good habits.

Tomorrow I'm going to go to the catalogue man's place and get started. I'll probably go out on a Monday and do the catalogue drop as I don't usually do much on a Monday. It'll be nice to start the week off that way too. I had a dream about dropping catalogues last night. I haven't even done it and I'm dreaming about it. I think it'll be good to make a little bit of money while taking a walk. Easy cash. It'll add up.

Getting paid to walk

I got a new job! A while ago I applied for something I saw on TV about making money while you walk. Today I had a missed call and called back and was offered a position taking out catalogues in the Snug, Electrona and Conningham areas, not too far from Margate. I'm going by the place tomorrow, I guess to pick up the catalogues, and then on Sunday and Monday I'll go a-dropping. I won't make too much money but I may as well make a little extra while getting fit and doing something productive. It might only be $15-$20 a week but it's better than nothing and it all adds up. I've been getting tips too. Haven't been saving them as much as I should as I love having gold coins in my wallet.

Speaking of walking, about 45 minutes ago I started on a walk with Katie when it started to rain really heavily. I had to run back to the car with her and drive up the big hill back home [only takes 1 minute if that]. Now it has stopped but I wonder how long for. It was intense rain even if only for 10 minutes. I think it's still pitter pattering slightly. Another time. Might go watch a movie!

Monday

I was walking down the drive way to get the mail not long ago and I thought about how great it'll be to have my own home in Sydney. I truly can't wait till I move there [I'll be sad if I don't get it] and do it all myself. My house is going to be so cute. Over time it'll get full of furniture and my things. Lots of fish, flowers and art is my goal. I'll be starting with the SARK posters I'm expecting in the mail any time soon. I'll also get something from The Picture Gallery. I love that gallery. It has beautiful artworks. I want a huge one.

I want to buy more museum/archaeology books but should wait until Wednesday till I get paid again. I don't want to keep digging into my savings while I'm trying to save for next year. I also want to get my Portman's lay-by off lay-by and put on lay-by a beautiful white maxi-dress they have in their Summer catalogue. Next year my wardrobe will keep getting fabulous.

I want to write to Danielle from Sometimes Sweet and ask her for some help and advice on getting the lazy out of me. I want to be as organised in my home life as I can be at work. I just don't know how to make things stick. I really want to change my fitness level next year for a start. Next year will be a huge year of change. It'll be fantastic. I can't wait to meet my future husband. Reading Danielle's notable post on how she met her husband Hank made me wish so hard to have something as wonderful as that. They both knew they were meant to be right from the beginning. I want that.

Work tonight and a menu tasting. The Maritime tomorrow and the possibility of attending the Annual General Meeting for the Maritime at the Tasmanian Museum and Art Gallery. I'm "on call" at work so hopefully I won't be needed and be able to go to this meeting. It'll be great for my career path. I'll probably go hang at Sarah's or Holly's after I finish at the Maritime at 5 before this meeting at 730. It'll be good to hear more about how museums are run. I wonder what kind of work I'll be doing with Rona tomorrow. Maybe more conservation and putting things into the system. At any rate I'll learn a lot.

Got to get off the computer and take Katie for a walk, do something productive. I need to do my covered buttons. I want to get the right amount of each kind made, then I can go to a market like Holly does. Then again I want to make some of the rice balls too. One day I'll get there.