When I move into my own place, I want to make it the cutest place ever with lots of quirky stuff around the place. I want it to be neat and tidy and I want to get into good habits. I'll be able to control everything there. I think control is important to me, and having things go like I want them to.
I want to live near the beach. I want to run on the beach every day. I want to get fit. I want to get into fitness routines and I want to get thin so I feel good about my body and not ashamed when I'm naked. I want to feel pretty again. I want to feel worthy of love. I want to start living my life.
I want to go traveling. I want to start in the UK and travel around Europe and I also want to live in New Zealand for a while. It's a shame that that was my dream with Yorick but I love New Zealand and I will do it with or without him. I'm just worried about being at Uni for the next 1.5 years because I want to do things now! If I'm not going to be with Yorick then I know I'll want to get out there and have adventures straight away but Uni is stopping me. Arrr. If things don't work out with Uni then I might move somewhere else and study somewhere else.
I want to feel alive.
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