Yorick replied to my message yesterday and he said "Your plans sound interesting and fun. I'm glad you're moving forward. I paid the power bill today. Maybe we could go to Cool Thai one night next week." It's nice that he's happy for me but I'm trying to decode the message. What are the hidden meanings? I'm not sure if there are any. He's just being nice. I don't think he knows where he's heading in the future. He needs to figure out things more than I do. I just started another blog dedicated to anthropology as a career goal here and have found some good course options. I wonder what he has in store for himself. I think he'll be focusing on drinking and being single. I don't know if that's exactly how it is but I do know he wants the single life and through this I think I'm a lot more mature than he is and I know where I'm going. I don't think he ever really did, not career-wise anyway. He'll work it out. Dinner will be nice with him next week. I hoped he would organise something. I don't want him to think I'm smothering him or that I'm still a big presence in his life like a girlfriend would be. I'm giving him his space. I like that he knows I'm moving forward and that I have a life outside of our relationship even though that was a big part of my life. I planned everything around him and I can see that I'm better off being out of that thought pattern so I can be my own person. I need this. I can see the big level difference between us now and it's crazy because I didn't see it there before. I was too focused on our relationship to notice. Ahh well.
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