Let's be friends

He sent me this lovely message this afternoon when my phone was off and I was cleaning the house. It makes me happier and more optimistic.

"Maybe we could get dinner on Wednesday or something. Just because our relationship has broken doesn't mean we can't still hold on to our connection. You've been my best friend and the most important person in my life and I'm sad that things have turned so nasty and petty at the end. Breaking up was never going to be a walk in the park and I realise that I've gone about some things in the wrong way. Please realise that this hasn't been easy for me either and that I'm scared and uncertain of what the future holds. I never wanted to hurt you and I'm sorry that I have. I guess I thought slowly distancing myself would make things easier but it seems that I've only ended up causing you more hurt through my actions."

I was so glad he sent me that message. I didn't get it until I got home and put my phone on to charge and it was a lovely surprise. He is the same guy I fell in love with [not all the time but I know he's in there] and it's nice to know he still exists. This was my reply.

"I would love to get dinner with you on Wednesday. I know that we'll be able to continue our friendship as I've seen it in us over the last few weeks. You've been my best friend and most important person too and that will be hard to let go of but I know we'll still stay connected. I think it would be worse if we left things badly because we would be heading along an unfriendly path. If we can still be friends then we're not losing everything we've built. I'm glad you can see that you did go about some things the wrong way and that you didn't mean to hurt me. I guess through your actions you were trying to tell me that you need time and space to be yourself, as I have realised that is something I also need. Sometimes I feel lost but I know I'll find my way and I'm sure you will too. Thank you for your text. It has made the world of difference to me and I'm glad I'm not losing you completely from my life. We had some wonderful times and I'll never forget them."

I think I won't be as sad as I was yesterday now that we've talked like this. Knowing we aren't losing each other completely makes me happy and that we'll still be in each other's life. Cutting each other out completely is the hardest part of a break up as I've found in the past and I think we're more adult than that. I'm glad we'll be apart so we can focus on ourselves but I'm also glad that we'll be able to hang out and remain friends. I think this is the best result and I am so glad it's here.