In early January I found out that my College boyfriend of a year was moving to Melbourne so I wrote him an email through Facebook about it. We had recently caught up at a party [The Vegas Party] and had a long chat. It was nice. I was drunk so I don't remember all of it unfortunatly but we had a nice chat. So I asked him about moving to Melbourne and he didn't write back for ages and when he did he said he realised he didn't reply. I told him about Yorick and all of my plans and he was really nice about it. The last part was the best. He said:
"I'm glad you're keen for a hot choc. You had every right to be bitter. I treated you completely unfairly and I can't apologise enough. I still feel guilty about the whole thing every time I see you. Things have been a bit weird between us for a while and we haven't really talked. I should have broken the silence earlier"
Reading that made me so happy. We had a bad break-up and he flaunted other girls in my face. I think that was his attempt to try and help me get over it. It didn't help but boys can be pretty stupid, as I have re-learned with Yorick. I didn't know how Jeremy felt and it's nice to know he felt bad about it. I'm not the only one. I know it'll be weird when we catch up, still awkward, but it'll be good for us. It's been 6 years since we were together and I was bitter for so long and I'm glad I've let that go. Hopefully we can make a friendship now.
It's nice that I have this new friendship with Jeremy to keep me distracted. It's nice remembering that I'm over him and that things can be normal again. With Yorick, we are saying we're friends but we're not the kind of friends I want to be. I want it to be the same between us before we broke up, because that's what we were acting like, but he's making it hard. It'll smooth out I'm sure.
I really want to start making earrings. I want to feel like I'm starting something new for myself, not waiting for that day to come. I need to order the parts and get started. I have all of these wonderful plans but I want to put them into action.
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